Taren It Up (1st Book)

Taren It Up (1st Book)

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Genre: Romance

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Status: Finished

Genre: Romance

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Taren doesn't fit the rock star image and Olivia isn't the average girl, both have obstacles and very good reasons for not being in a relationship! Taren It Up is Olivia's story. This story is one of three that tie together, TAREN IT UP, CARMENS STORY AND NICKS STORY, I hope that they will read separately as well. Its a lot of the same story with three different points of view so if you read one completely through you will find similarities in the events but hopefully enough of each persons point of view to make them unique. After CARMENS STORY and NICKS STORY, there is a follow up story for Nick and Carmen called FIGHT OR FLIGHT. I hope you enjoy all three stories. This was one of my first stories to post online and I have learned a lot about my own writing since then. I did have this one for a long time and worked on it off and on and when I came across a place to post and go public I went for it. There is a lot of chapters because I had a hard time cutting things, its like asking a mother to only pick a few pictures of their child and then throw the rest away, once I was invested I couldn't cut anything. I hope you enjoy all three characters point of view and know that my future material has improved at least a little. Thanks for reading.

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Taren doesn't fit the rock star image and Olivia isn't the average girl, both have obstacles and very good reasons for not being in a relationship!

Taren It Up is Olivia's story. This story is one of three that tie together, TAREN IT UP, CARMENS STORY AND NICKS STORY, I hope that they will read separately as well. Its a lot of the same story with three different points of view so if you read one completely through you will find similarities in the events but hopefully enough of each persons point of view to make them unique. After CARMENS STORY and NICKS STORY, there is a follow up story for Nick and Carmen called FIGHT OR FLIGHT. I hope you enjoy all three stories. This was one of my first stories to post online and I have learned a lot about my own writing since then. I did have this one for a long time and worked on it off and on and when I came across a place to post and go public I went for it. There is a lot of chapters because I had a hard time cutting things, its like asking a mother to only pick a few pictures of their child and then throw the rest away, once I was invested I couldn't cut anything. I hope you enjoy all three characters point of view and know that my future material has improved at least a little. Thanks for reading.

Chapter1 (v.1) - The Letter

Chapter Content - ver.1

Submitted: December 29, 2016

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Chapter Content - ver.1

Submitted: December 29, 2016

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My dearest Olivia,

Please know that I love you so very much. Looking back I can see how I have messed up completely. It was never my intention to put your sisters needs above your own. I should have made sure you had a more complete life. I was wrong in so many ways. You are perfectly capable of being your own person. I know you love Vanessa and I know she is your world but I want you to know that there is a whole other world out there that is yours for the taking. Vanessas time could be limited or she could be on this earth as long as you are and I know you will always look after her but you don't have to do that by yourself. There are plenty of ways to take care of Vanessa that will let you go out and be you, find your spot on this planet. Go out and see this beautiful world from somewhere other than a hospital window. Don't let Vanessa's life dictate your life anymore. Please don’t waste anymore time. Go be you and show the world what a wonderful woman you have become. 
I love you, I will always love both of you.
Mom

Olivia sank to the floor staring at the scribble that was undeniably her mothers handwriting. Tears of remorse flowing down her face as she missed her mom and sister tremendously. She cried harder than she had since either one of them had passed. Her tears flowed stronger as she re-read the letter a dozen times on the floor of her mothers bedroom. After three years of ignoring this room, trying to forget she was alone, moving on without going anywhwere, she thought she could handle a quick moment to find something. One quick moment and she could keep forgetting but that didn't happen, instead she stared with blurry vision at her mothers words of encouragement and cried. Losing her mother over three years ago and her sister just nine short months ago had ended Olivia's own life, she chose to ignore the world and stay out of site. She didn't have a reason to be any where or do anything or at least she thought she didn't. 

She hit ignore on her cell as Nick called. She couldn't talk while she cried and he would stress immediately. Nick was a friend she'd known since he moved next door when she was five. He had always been a part of her life and lately he was the one person she leaned on the most. He was always worried about her, always calling and coming by often. He worked and lived two hours away in Jasper Springs but that didn't stop him from coming by every weekend. 

She finally called back and told him about the letter. 

“Livy, honey." His concerned voice pleaded. "Please come stay with me. Just do like your mom asked for a minute. Get out of that house and get a little sunshine. If you don’t like it you can always go back.” Nick had been begging her for the past nine months to leave home and come stay with him. His concern for her was unrelenting.

“I’ll think about it.” she answered quietly, her heart racing at the idea of leaving the only place she could still feel her family.

Nick was the only reason she hadn't wasted away to nothing, he wouldn't let her. He constantly came by and and forced her to be a human being. Sometimes she hated him, she wanted to stay hidden from the world in her house. She didn't want to be out there where everyone wanted to tell her how sorry they were, or the eyes of pity always on her. She didn't like the people in this town anymore. 

Olivia slept in and out during the night with trips down memory lane flowing through her mind. She had dreams of Vanessa riding in the mazda with the top down as Olivia drove down the interstate with passing landscape breezing by. Olivia woke crying at the loss of her sister and her mom. She spent the day thinking about the letter, going to her own room and pulling out the scrap book she created with Vanessa when they were younger. It was a trip across America, they never went, they just always imagined all the places they would go when Vanessa was well enough to travel. As she flipped through the pages she recalled all the times that her and Vanessa browsed magazines and cut out pictures of all the places they wanted to see. It was a way to pass time while sitting in the hospital attached to machines. 

Her mom was right. She had no reason to stay behind. She should go on their trip. She would go on their trip. She wasn't attached to machines and Vanessa was no longer here. As quick as flipping a switch Olivia's world changed, the thought of being on the road and away from this house yesterday wasn't even in the realm of possiblities and now it seemed like the most logical thing in the world. Taking a deep breath and setting their travel book on her bed she moved into action. Her heart raced and palms started to sweat, was she really going to do this? 

With a sense of purpose and reason to get out she grabbed a suitcase. She stared at the worn fabric of the case remembering all the times she had packed it for overnight stays at the hospital with Vanessa. She decided she wanted a new one, she was going to make new memories. She went to town stopping at Dr. Myers clinic to talk to Renee and drop of the journals, the whole reason she went in her moms room to begin with. The journals were detailed history of Vanessa's care that her mother often times provided to other families and doctors to help with the care of their own patients, children who were born T-18 just like her sister. It was the only reason she had gone into her mothers room for the first time in three years.

“Olivia!” Renee's plump figure wrapped her in an embrace like they hadn't seen each other in years. 

“Hey. I brought the journals by." Olivia handed her the journals and smiled. 

"I see that." Renee teased. "It's nice to see you out of the house. Now, I am glad I didn't come by and pick them up before work."

Olivia gave a tense smile, she didn't like when people noticed she hadn't been out in a while. "I have some shopping to do.” 

Renee stared at her stunned. Olivia hadn’t left her house on her own in over a year and never without Nick. Yet she was standing there talking like a trip to this clinic was an every day occurrence. Renee grabbed Olivia's hand and pulled her to the breakroom at the back of the clinic. She was excited to see her out of her house and knew Nick probably wouldn't believe it. She would be calling him later to tell him. "Grocery shopping?" She questioned trying to keep small talk as she poured them both tea.

“No, I need a new suitcase. I'm planning a trip.” Olivia offered enthusiastically. 

“Are you going to go stay with Nick?” Renee questioned knowing Nick had been struggling to get her to leave her house for the last nine months. 

“Yeah, I guess so, but I think I am going to do some stuff first. I can’t stay in that house any more.” Olivia choked back tears as she looked at her friend. She had known Renee for years and always considered her a good friend of her moms but now as she looked at the sweet lady with curly brown hair she realized how much she had been there for her too. “Thank you for helping me when I needed it. I appreciate everything you've done for me.”

“Okay" Renee stated confused at Olivia's demeanor. "but I didn’t do anything you wouldn’t have done for me.”

“I know. I just want you to know I appreciate it and I love you.” 

“I love you too. You don’t know where you are going?” Renee questioned.

Olivia explained the letter to Renee trying to keep from crying. She managed for the most part but really by the end of explaining the letter and the sudden need to go fulfill a childhood dream they were both in tears and hugging each other for comfort.

“You could always do what your mom was planning to do before she got sick.” Renee suggested. Jillian, Olivia's mom, had felt there was a need to visit doctors who had patients with T18 in order to help them understand the treatments that were available for their own patients.

“You mean visit clinics?” Olivia questioned.

“And hospitals and wherever there are patients that need to know about us. Your mom had it worked out pretty good, she was planning to visit a lot of major hospitals and clinics that needed to know more about Vanessa and help prevent kids from going through some of the crap treatments that Vanessa had gone through. You're the best thing to understanding how Vanessa did with her treatments, you can do everything your mom was planning to do.”

Olivia thought for a minute. The idea that she could use her trip to help with other patients and make sure that Vanessa still had a way to help other people was more than enough to seal the deal. This would be more than just a trip to see things, she would actually be able to help people. 

“Plus, it would be considered business, we might even get the board to pay for some of the trip.”

“I don’t need my trip paid for, I have plenty to cover that.” Olivia shrugged, she wasn't considering finances for this trip, she could do plenty before she ran out of money, her parents had left plenty for her and Vanessa to survive and now it was just her.

“Well it’s worth a shot anyway.” Renee offered. 

“I’ll think about it.” Although she was certain her mind had already been made up she was a little worried how she would do without her friends near by. She liked being alone but when she was being honest with herself she loved having her friends close by and she was never truly alone. Once she started this trip she would definitely be on her own, something she had never done in her life.

At home Olivia contemplated her next move as she packed, knowing Nick would want her to come stay with him, she wasn't ready to leave this house to be stuck in another house. She wanted to take her trip, their trip, hers and Vanessa's. The past nine months she sat in her house cut off from the world, she was suddenly seeing the light. She didn't have to sit here and do nothing. She could be the eyes and ears to experience the things her sister never got a chance to see and do. Nick would be mad, but she had to do this and she had to do it alone. Somehow it felt right going alone. Maybe because it would be easier to pretend Vanessa was in the passenger seat if it was empty. 

When Nick called she was cautious about what she told him, she let assume she was coming to see him. She wasn't up for arguing with him if she told him the truth and she knew if he started to worry he would show up on her door step. She would tell him after she left. She was well aware if she gave him the opportunity to stop her he would try and probably succeed, he was the one person who knew how to get through her defenses, he was persistant.

She turned on her computer and started making plans for her first stop, not really sure which way to go. Maybe she could throw a dart at a map and let fate decide. Her notifications went crazy and she realized she hadn’t turned on her computer in nine months. Emails and notices popped up. Her blog hadn’t been touched. She had started a web page for her sisters progress many years back for friends and family that wanted to know how she was doing.
 
She looked at the last entry the day her sister passed. 

No time to update just letting everyone know, ambulance picked V up and took her to children's. I'm on my way there now. I will let you know when I have answers. 

She never came back, her sister had coded on the way to the hospital and passed away before Olivia even made it. 

She opened the site and looked through the many pages of her sisters progress and life. She felt a connection to her sister here as if she could still talk to her.

She clicked the link to start a new entry. 

I’m going on our trip. I will keep you posted on what I see. I miss you and I love you.

She had a restful night, her first one in years. Olivia knew she was ready to get out of the house. She wasted no time the next morning loading her car with a few items she would need. She didn’t expect to be gone for long but she knew she wouldn’t be back within the month. She cleaned out her fridge and took out the trash, a habit after preparing for long hospitals stays with her mom and sister.

Satisfied that she was ready, she got in her car and started her journey. She headed west and drove for a few hours, her goal was to get as much distance between here and Jennings as possible before she needed gas. Once she was convinced she had made plenty of progress she found a room for the night and settled her luggage before heading out to see the town and find a place to eat.

She held her breath when Nick called, he was going to be furious once he realized she was no longer in Jennings. I wonder how long I can let him think I am still at home? She answered the phone with bated breath and decided on honesty. He wasn't thrilled to hear she was in Birmingham, Alabama. She didn't miss the confusion in his voice. She hadn't left her house in three years. This was definitely out of place for her. And he was upset that she hadn't called him to go with her. 

“I wanted to go alone. I’m doing this for me. Like you said, I needed to get out of the house.”

“You didn’t even say bye.” His voice laced with confusion.

“I’m sorry Nick. I didn’t think about it.” She started to stress, had she made a mistake, she never considered saying bye to anyone. Renee was the only one who knew she was leaving.

“Its okay Livy, its just a little bit of a shock. I wasn’t expecting this. Why are you in Birmingham? Are you planning to do something there?”

“I don’t know. I just drove till I was tired. I’ll go out tomorrow and see if I come across anything interesting.”

“Why don’t you come to Jasper Springs and see me for a couple days? We can go do anything you want.” He pleaded.

“I plan to Nick, I promise. I just didn’t want to go there first. I’m kinda on a high right now, I feel really good doing this. I am taking the trip that Vanessa and I planned to take for years. I want to go see all the stuff she wanted to see and do everything she dreamed of doing. I think I need time away from everyone to get my thoughts back on track. I miss mom and V too much and like mom said I need to gain my own experiences and see stuff. Plus Renee is going to set me up with hospitals and doctors to visit and deliver information. So I kinda have a purpose other than doing what Vanessa couldn’t do.”

“Okay." She could hear the defeat in his voice and she felt her heart race. The one person on the planet that could get her to change her mind had just accepted that she was doing this. It felt more official and scary at the same time. She didn't need Nicks permission to do anything but somehow she felt relieved that he wasn't fighting against it. "Don’t take too long Livy. I’ve been wanting you to come stay with me forever now. And please be careful. You shouldn’t be traveling alone.”

“I will be careful. I promise Nick. I’ll call every day.”

“Call me every hour.”

She giggled. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” He sighed.

Olivia put her phone down and opened her laptop. She pulled up her blog and let her thoughts flow across her keyboard. She missed her mom and her sister but she was starting to realize that she had missed so much more. She missed her own hobbies. She loved to read and she loved to write. She had started the blog on her twin sisters life and struggles with health when they were thirteen. When she was seventeen she had followers and actually earned money for doing what she loved. Some of her information had been published in health and teen magazines. 

One accomplishment she hadn't really intended to find success in was inventing a special pillow that helped her sister find comfort while attached to machines after surgery. One of the doctors at the children's hospital helped her patent her pillow and sell it. Now it was used across hospitals everywhere and she had a nice little income. She donated a major part to the organization her mother had started called EChrome. 

Olivia laid back on the hotel bed. For the first time in her life she realized things weren't planned. No hospitals to stay at, no machines to monitor, no waking in the middle of the night to check blood pressure or administer medicine. The past nine months she had focused on missing her sister, her mom and their life but she never really paid attention to the good things that were missing. She was free to do anything and the world really was at her beckon call. It was time to start living again. 


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