Why sexual trauma? Perversity to sexual adversity of zerosity?

Why sexual trauma? Perversity to sexual adversity of zerosity?

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Genre: Religion and Spirituality

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Status: Finished

Genre: Religion and Spirituality

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Reflection on the past, going forward and the journey of life. This tells of how a person gets stuck in a personal hell and how some can move on from their leaning on their spiritual guide, God, in this process.

Summary

Reflection on the past, going forward and the journey of life. This tells of how a person gets stuck in a personal hell and how some can move on from their leaning on their spiritual guide, God, in this process.

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Submitted: January 25, 2016

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Submitted: January 25, 2016

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Why sexual trauma? Perversity to sexual adversity of zerosity?

 

I know it seems as if my point is sexual perversity.

Truth about the trauma endured and did occur.

Dealing with the curses,

I can no longer keep incased in my mind as a blur.

 

My other poetry has detailed events

From our early courting to our now dead bed.

To me I can see no sense

in all of this that has resulted in a dreaded emotional slim thread.

 

You claimed to be a Christian,

But it is clear you raped and maimed.

It is clear you were forced to suppress desires until you had a mission.

Unable to take the blame; you transferred all this to me and aimed.

 

Better yet,

I wonder why,

I tried to do all for you and your attention get?

It has caused me the desire more than once to throw up hands while saying, “BYE!”

 

Attention is all I want?

You say you love me and want me to stay!

Figuring out what to say leaves me daunted.

Left my feelings way away for a long time at bay!

 

My therapist tells me the feelings have erupted,

Writing them down will unbury and get out the emotions.

This process will intercept what is corrupted

From my subconscious oceans.

 

We have plenty of work

Untangling the many quirks

Our marriage relationship network

That can be described as berserk.

 

Forgiveness is coming.

I now realize years of trauma may take yarns

Of physical time, words and anger that burns.

That has harmed, Needing reversal of many storms.

 

 

 

Forgiveness is closer,

Breaking the habit chains evolved over three decades,

Means pushing through more fights, discussions and such like a bulldozer,

Forgetting grades, accepting trades while taking aide.

 

My promise,

dear Bill,

Is to come out of our darkness,

With less chills, hills but God instilled good will.

 

Please acknowledge,

My hurt and anger,

Not by doing triage,

Instead by communicating it to end, or accept the dangers.

 

If we truly

Look to God

With love and belief, Then glue

Will cement us and our relationship til we applaud.

 

I need you,

To let go of the perversity you impaled,

Let it go to adversity to zerosity (where no love lived any more)

I love you, and therefor need diversity which should be shown in a marriage universally.

 

Our marriage relationship,

God can equip,

To be Blue-Chip,

Where God has authorship with class A Christian inspirational showmanship!

 

 


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