Lose Yourself In It

Lose Yourself In It

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Just something for those who feel lost in life and not sure how to deal.

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Just something for those who feel lost in life and not sure how to deal.

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Submitted: January 20, 2016

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They say that if you're unhappy with your life, then fix it, change it, do something about it. Okay, sounds like something a therapist would say, but they're right! I should know. I've spent a good chunk complaining about my life and always looking for a short cut to change it instead of doing it myself...until recently!

When I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes back in May 2005 and put on medication, it killed me....devistated me! I hated myself for allowing myself to get this ugly disease, I blamed my family lines for making me inherit it and I turned into a rebel against the meds. Then, I decided to suck it up and take the medications. Then, a couple of years later, my doctor told me that my blood sugars and A1C count was still bad and she put me on insulin. I hated her for it but I hated myself even more, to a point where I refused to take the insulin as directed. Well, just like other insulin-dependent Diabetics out there, I owned up to my mistakes by rebelling, and started to take the damn insulin. I'll tell you, it's not easy NOT to rebel against having to inject this stupid crap into my system, especially when you don't like needles to begin with. Eventually, after hearing my mom and my two boys tag-teaming me, I caved and now I take it when I'm supposed to, although I will be honest, I have forgotten a few times due to illnesses like cold or the flu.

I now take my meds on time for the most part but I'm only human and sometimes I do forget. But now, when I have to take them or go to see my docs, I just suck it up and say to myself that I gotta do what I gotta do to get well. Now that I am aware of what I have to do to make myself healthy physically, now it's time to make the emotional/mental side of me happy and that's where hobbies come into play!

I found new hobbies last year when our family car was totaled in a car crash, one of them being crochet. Now, I'm going to be honest with you guys...crochet is not as easy as it looks and I have a bad habit of starting a project and not finishing it. Lord knows how many times I've lost focus and done that! Crochet does not come easy for me, but I am going to keep plugging away at it, since I want to learn new ways of keeping as stress free as possible. Another thing that, as of very recent, I have gotten back into...writing! 

This is one hobby that only when I'm truly inspired, can I accomplish writing a poem or a short story or an essay, like this one that you're reading. This is where I want to thank my most excellent fiance for helping me find again! Thanks to his inspiration, I have written a poem, titled My Intoxication, and published it here. Another hobby that I'm going to be able to take up again, is Karaoke! We will soon have a car again and my fiance and I will be able to go out and sing our hearts out! I've always loved music, dancing and singing since i was a little girl and I can't wait to lose all of the weight that I've gained in the last few years to go dancing again! Yes, I have weight to lose so that I can keep my balance and not fall on my butt while on a dance floor! 

And speaking of losing weight, I hear a LOT of people, men and women, complain about how they have gained so much weight, they hate the way they look, blah...blah...BLAH!! I have only one thing to say to those people....QUIT COMPLAINING AND DO SOMETHING!! I am and I'm happy of it! Yes, it's a sllloooww process to lose weight in my late 40's BUT I am determined to hit my goal which is 125 pounds, max! I have reached a time in my life where it's time to change the things that I don't like about myself. Who knows? I might inspire my family to change what they don't like about themselves too. That's always a nice thing, huh? I think so! And I know that once you're done reading this, maybe you may do the same thing...start a new hobby, pick up an old hobby, who knows? But whatever it is, whether it's dancing like no one's looking, singing like you're on a big stage in front of 20,000 fans, or crotching the night away, go for it and lose yourself in it! 


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