The Psychology Experiment

The Psychology Experiment

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Genre: True Confessions

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Status: Finished

Genre: True Confessions

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A middle age woman ( me ) encounters a man through an online domestic discipline site . Driven by Christian compassion and empathy she accepts this person a feral human into her home.

Summary

A middle age woman ( me ) encounters a man through an online domestic discipline site . Driven by Christian compassion and empathy she accepts this person a feral human into her home.

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Submitted: February 15, 2016

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The Psychology Experiment

From the moment I met the subject of my psychology experiment it was always him. Everything I did or thought to do revolved around him. From the moment we met I was hell bent on transforming this wild feral human into a productive member of society.

First I had to know my test subject. Why I expected him to tell the truth ; Is now beyond my comprehension or my recollection. Then I had to begin to explain how society especially Christian society viewed Dominant female relationships. Christian Paddles. followed the philosophy that Domestic Discipline is done by a male head of household and the female receives the corporal punishment at the discretion of her husband or other male partner.
The concept was beyond his level of comprehension.

To accommodate him and this experiment of mine it was necessary that I bring the lab rat to me . I was warned bringing him into my home was a disaster in the making. Every warning came true . First my involvement with the experiment and this subject cost me my membership in Christian Paddles. The next sacrifice the psychology experiment cost me was my friends and family. Then came one eviction after another.

In between complaints by the neighbors and request that we vacate our rented home and the area. There were the episodes of physical violence. When I went into this experiment with the subject I knew he would attack me . Violent physical retaliation is what feral wild animals do. I did not know when he would attack or what would set him off. I did not know how brutal the attacks would be. Still, to tame a wild human was worth the risk.

Then came the visits from the local police who were no fools. They knew the sounds of a female being abused when they heard them. What they were mistaken about was the age of the victim. The police kept responding to what they believed to be child abuse. When there was no child or young woman in the house the officers left without taking any action.

Between the intrusive visits from local authorities , there were the impromptu investigations and searches by the SWAT Team, the FBI and Federal Marshalls. The accusations, the documented proof of a felony criminal background. Then came the suspicion of abduction and murder.

Michael was and is a feral wild animal. As such he is programmed to steal, to do what is necessary for his survival. This has not, but could easily include murder. Only , for him it would be the natural order of the universe.

With his other survival instincts came the need to have multiple mates. This led to accusations of carnal knowledge of mentally challenged women, children, He subdued and mated with those females who were unwilling or unable to physically resist him .

Through the short time , the experiment morphed into a marriage , and a BDSM Mistress -Slave relationship that I neither anticipated or desired . I do not deny I had , and still have an emotional bond with the subject . And, at times, I have lost the objectivity of the experiment .

He had issues , he thought a deeper level of submissive slavery that the new Master and Mistress would provide would complete the training and discipline I began, I could take this as a strong indication I had failed to dominate and control him . The indication is correct. I never tried to dominate or to control him. I and Christian compassion failed.

I took him into my home as the junior partner in our life time relationship. I accepted him as a fully functioning intelligent being . He was and is still an intelligent being . He is broken.

I knew from moment one, he is not functioning on the level of a 43 year old male. From the first look, I knew the subject I’d taken into my home was a feral human . He was a walking asylum for numerous demonic possessions. The man I chose to share my home, and a portion of my life was the embodiment of Satan.

I was informed , he was an atheist . He was an agnostic depending on his mood . He was dealing with psychological issues over the sudden loss of his older brother. My junior partner had nothing to do with the death of his older brother . He made some wisecracks. Some inappropriate remarks that resulted in the brother taking his kayak to venture to one of the near by islands . His brother failed to return. The word came later that the older brother was dead. His body , his kayak had been retrieved. The Kayak had stuck some submerged stones or rocks . The Kayak was totaled . The death was ruled an accident . My partner’s brother died in an drowning accident. I cannot prevent my junior partner from blaming himself. He is, or should be guilt free.

The words spoken by my junior partner did not cause the accident. His brother’s anger inspired decision to board his Kayak and make the journey did not cause the accident . If my partner had not made the smart - ass remarks about , license and insurance ; there is no assurance his brother would be alive. If he had not spoke those words his brother would have taken the vehicle. They would have left the Keys the next day. But, there is no assurance the brother or my partner would not have been killed in a traffic accident . Who knows the mind of Fate . None of us know the mind of fate. Instead of one tragic death there could have been three or more deaths ; if they had taken the car ; the children would have been with them . If this was fate , fate could have taken one or could have taken them all. What I wish , I could get my partner to consider. How many lives his wisecrack possibly saved.

I perceived In him ; the emotional maturity of a thirteen year old male. I knew from looking at him , he used marijuana. I could see that heavy use of weed had stunted his emotional and mental maturity. I did not worry about the Pot . In my home town surrounded by my family and friends . Finding marijuana would be extremely difficult. Cannabis is , or can become an psychological dependency. I suspect. My partner has an emotional addiction to cannabis . I had hoped to help him emotionally and sociologically. I over estimated my psychological / Sociological training and experience. After having failed the experiment , I’ve learned humans do not conform to text books and psychology lectures.

My junior partner , My life partner was broken. I thought I knew how to fix him . I was wrong. He can be repaired but, love and emotional support isn’t enough. He was a compulsive liar. He was /is a thief . In the past he was caught breaking and entering , burglary , he was accused of arson . The information he withheld was his felony conviction. When he told me the felony sprang from the burglary I was naïve enough to believe , this is how burglary is classified in Texas. When the weapons conviction came to light I still believed my partner , a pathological liar.

It is all about him and how I allowed him to rule my heart and manipulate me . Every good thing I’ve been through in the past five years is because of him . Every criminal, anti- social event and consequence I’ve endured , is because of him. The past 5 years of my life have been because of him . My life has been about him , and what was right for him.

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