Lying Here

I’m lying here, breathing.  
Just focused on breathing.
Slow.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.

I’m lying here, heart beating.
Blood rushing.
Fast.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.

I’m lying here, thinking.
Mind filling.
Thoughts.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.

Hands wander,
Hearts ponder,
Another night with a stranger.  

I touch.
You touch.
We touch.  

No holding.  

Face down.
A bead of sweat.
Salty.

Work.
No, play.
Relax.  

Spasm.
Eruption of sensation.  
Tension and vibration.
SCREAM.

I’m lying here, breathing.  
Just focused on breathing.
Slow.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.