Scandal “ Would you accept a life of beatings with nightmares that never end ? Or would you stick around maybe for your lover even if its the reason for your life being endangered more then way back when. All the girls are here are important. But I stick out more I am the special one so I am told. But I don't feel special. I never try to read into anything at least not anymore. I was never meant to be loved and I have the bruises to prove it. You might think my owner saved me but I think I be better off in my grave where my parents seemed to want me. My owner has got a lot of money and me when he wants me. He has never hurt me but I am growing up and he doesn't seem to happy. He wishes I was small forever at least that's what he says it make life easier for him. To me it's nothing more nothing less then what it's made out to be. I work for him in hopes of my freedom I am only days away from being 17. The men will eventually feed my addiction that I am believed to have. Rumors are spread that i am meant to give “him” and whoever else a good night in my so called world soon. Woman tell me that when the day comes that I should always let it be just a one and done. The girls who want more sure get a beating when they return. There is no escape there is no telling when I will be done. The day I came across the sight of Nick Scandal I knew I was in trouble. He makes me want to run far from here he makes me want a life that I once dreamed about. Freedom is something I cant have here and I cant be with him. Wanting him only calls for punishment he has no clue that there is no just up and leave. If I have any intents on getting out it has to be soon and nobody can know. So much for Nick being my first and so much for not letting it be more then a one and done. You cant be in love with the best worker of your master. Even if Nick found out I wasn't here willingly he couldn't save me not that he would want me. Everything has to be a secret here I am alone. If I make it out I can never come back. My perfect scandal is mine alone .
