Complicated Essence

Complicated Essence Complicated Essence

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Genre: Erotica

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Status: Finished

Genre: Erotica

Summary

ROUGH DRAFT!!! I am aware of all the grammatical errors. I am in the process of editing these errors, and will re-upload the chapters once I have edited them. I thank those who have read the rough draft of all the chapters, and stumbled through the various errors. Your opinions matter greatly to me, so say whatever you feel =] Lexi, a young plus sized woman is down on her luck. She lost her job, and is facing other obstacles in her everyday life that hinder her self esteem. She feels that trying to change who she is will give her a better life. She starts her dramatic life change sexually. She has a gay best friend named Chad who argues with her that this isn't the way to go. But she is very determined to prove him wrong. She meets a dominate man named Chris, who channels a deeper and darker persona she never knew existed. During her journey of self discovery, she meets Sarah. Sarah, is a girl from Lexi's past. But, Sarah is no longer the preppy stuck up straight girl Lexi knew before. Sarah sparks another side of Lexi's persona that she killed off years ago. Now with both sides of Lexi's persona unleashed, she has to figure out who Lexi really is. Is she really someone who possesses an inner demon, or is she just someone who is lost and confused? Just when Lexi thinks she has it all figured out, she meets Tristan. A young and handsome accountant with connections to the very rich and famous Robert Bates. Will she have a happy ending? OR will it be just continuous downward spiral?

Summary

ROUGH DRAFT!!!

I am aware of all the grammatical errors. I am in the process of editing these errors, and will re-upload the chapters once I have edited them.

I thank those who have read the rough draft of all the chapters, and stumbled through the various errors.

Your opinions matter greatly to me, so say whatever you feel =]

Lexi, a young plus sized woman is down on her luck. She lost her job, and is facing other obstacles in her everyday life that hinder her self esteem. She feels that trying to change who she is will give her a better life. She starts her dramatic life change sexually. She has a gay best friend named Chad who argues with her that this isn't the way to go. But she is very determined to prove him wrong. She meets a dominate man named Chris, who channels a deeper and darker persona she never knew existed. During her journey of self discovery, she meets Sarah. Sarah, is a girl from Lexi's past. But, Sarah is no longer the preppy stuck up straight girl Lexi knew before. Sarah sparks another side of Lexi's persona that she killed off years ago. Now with both sides of Lexi's persona unleashed, she has to figure out who Lexi really is. Is she really someone who possesses an inner demon, or is she just someone who is lost and confused?
Just when Lexi thinks she has it all figured out, she meets Tristan. A young and handsome accountant with connections to the very rich and famous Robert Bates. Will she have a happy ending? OR will it be just continuous downward spiral?

Chapter1 (v.1) - The Begining

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Chapter 1

Lexi was walking into the office where she worked. It was a rather large and lifeless office. The walls were a plain white. The carpet beneath her feet was a grayish white mix. There were no windows, so the only light source was from the hundreds of fluorescent lights that were on the ceiling. The air was stuffy, and had a hint of Italian seasoning. It was usually chilly in the mornings, and became hells inferno as the day progressed. She smiled at everyone, but she felt this cold presence all around her, but it wasn’t the cold temperature she was experiencing. Something’s up. She thought to herself. She disregarded her feelings, and pulled out her office chair and sat down. She observed everyone’s speed around her, and felt discouraged. She was still new at this job, so she wasn’t as fast as the others beside her. But, she always put in an honest effort into her work. She rubbed the tiredness the best she could out of her greenish grey eyes, and she pulled up the billing screen on her computer. She then began to work.
The clock raced by, and it was time for her to stop working and take her lunch break. She preferred eating alone, because she didn’t know many people. But, she sat with the few girls that were in her section of the office. The lunch area, or break room as they would call it was just as lifeless. White walls, with grey tile. The only color pop the entire building had been the two working Cola machines, and the barely functioning vending machine. Because the lunch area was in the basement of the building, the air seemed cooler, and less stuffy. Her co-workers were silent, which was different from any other day. Normally, the lunch room would be alive with idle chit chat from each person seated. Again, she disregarded her thoughts. Everyone has an off day. She thought, as she quickly and quietly ate her lunch.
She walked outside, lit up a cigarette, and checked her phone. It was a warm morning, and a clear day. This, if you lived in Ohio would be something you would appreciate. The temperature was maybe in the 70’s, with no extreme humidity, which is also a plus. “Hey” She received a message from Chris, a guy she had been chatting with off a dating site, but never physically met. They chatted on and off for a few months, but nothing more.
“Hey, at work. I can’t talk long. What’s up?” She asked.
“Just wanted to see how you were doing.” He said.
“I’m doing well.” She said as she smoked more of her cigarette.
“I want to grab your hips…” He sent to her.
Lexi’s body chilled. Normally, she would just smile and shrug it off. Oh Chris, you and your sextings. She would normally say. But this time, she thought about it. She thought of him, or anyone, as a matter of fact touching her body that has been neglected for years.
“Oh, do you?” She replied.”
“Yes, very much…I want to pull your hair too…” He said. Her body shivered once more, as a slight breeze passed by. She touched her brown hair and tucked it behind her ears as she normally would when the wind blew. “One of these days, I’m going to have to take you up on that offer.” She replied.
Lexi was the type of girl who wouldn’t sleep with anyone, unless they were in a committed relationship. Especially someone she has never physically met before. She checked her watch, and put out her cigarette. Then, she walked across the semi busy street back to her office.

She was just about finished with her last half of the day. Just as she was putting her stuff away, her training manager, Margret, walked up to her desk. Margret was an older woman. She was very short, compared to Lexi who stood about 5’8’’. Her hair was a mix of grey and white, and cut very short. Her eyes were blue, and she had a medium complexion

“Lexi, Kayla wants to see you in her office.” Margret stated softly. “Okay, I’ll be there in a moment.” She smiled, as she stood up. Margret already started walking towards Kayla’s office. Lexi soon followed her, after she put her pile of paper work in her ‘Needs done’ pile. Margret shut the door behind Lexi, and stood on one side of Kayla’s desk. Kayla sat at her desk and Janet stood on the opposite side of Kayla. Kayla was a tall woman, about the same height as Lexi, maybe an inch or so taller. Her skin was almost a milk chocolate brown, but a shade darker. Her eyes were brown, and her long hair was a mix of black and blonde. She usually had it in some trendy up do. She was older than Lexi, but not by much. Janet could almost pass as Margret’s twin. The only difference they shared was their height, and weight. She was slightly bigger set, and a few inches taller than Margret. She too, was an older woman. Lexi stood next to Margret, which left Lexi near the door. Kayla’s office was small, and it had two windows that faced into the larger office. So much for privacy, she always thought to herself. Kayla had a large bookcase that was behind Lexi. It was filled various billing manuals and coding books. None of which were touched, while Lexi worked there. Kayla’s desk matched the plain exterior of the building. White everything, except for the floor beneath them. “Lexi, we know you’re still new here…but, we feel that you are not suited for this type of work.” Janet spoke. Lexi’s heart stopped beating, thinking back to the interview she had with Janet. She had expressed to Janet that she had no experience in this type of work, and that would be a weakness for her. But, despite this fact, Kayla and Janet hired her regardless. “Oh?” Lexi asked softly. “You’re not catching on fast enough, and this is a very busy office…” Janet continued. Lexi felt her body grow weak underneath of her. Really, I’m getting fired? She thought to herself, as her breathing joined her heartbeat. “Maybe you’d be better suited at another office, one that isn’t so fast paced.’’ Janet said in an ‘I’m trying to be considerate but I am really a stupid asshole who should not have hired you’ voice. At least, that’s what Lexi thought to herself to keep her emotions neutral. Margret nodded her grayish white haired head in agreement. Kayla studied Lexi’s face, she could sense the emotions that Lexi was trying to hold back, and she interrupted Janet. “We need your key, Lexi.” She said softly. Lexi reached in her pocket and searched for her keychain. Once she felt them in her grasp, she quickly got her set of keys out of her pocket; she had an increasingly difficult time keeping her nerves calm enough to take off the key from her set of keys. After she completed the oddly complicated task, she handed the single key directly to Kayla. “We will not give you a bad reference, and we are sorry but we need to let you go.” Janet finished. “Thank you.” Lexi Said. Thank you for wasting my time and getting my hopes up. Is what Lexi really wanted to say. “You can finish your shift, and you will get paid for this week, but if you could, remove all personal possessions out of your desk.” Janet added. Lexi nodded in agreement. Janet opened the door, and Lexi walked out. Maybe it was the lack of air in Kayla’s office, or her own nerves but Lexi became lightheaded, and walked slowly to maintain some of the ‘cool’ she had left in her. She fought the urge to cry, every step she took to her desk. She cleaned her desk off, and gave all of her paperwork she finished along with the paper work she didn’t have a chance to touch to Margret. “I wish you the best of luck.” Margret added. Her words were warm and almost convincing, but Lexi didn’t care, she was broken. “Thanks.” Lexi said humbly, as she went to clock out.
She got her phone out of her pocket as she reached the outside. “Let’s fuck Chris.” She sent on an impulse. “I just lost my job, if you want to fuck me, now is the time to do so.” She added as she walked towards her father’s old beat up red car that was parked across the street. Her father had to take her to work, and pick her up every day because she did not have a car of her own, let alone a license. Lexi’s father was the typical middle aged man. He was balding, and his hair was starting to grey. His eyes were a lot like Lexi’s, but his eyes were more of a hazel brown hue, where as Lexi’s were more of a mix of blue, grey, and green. He wasn’t a large man, but he wasn’t thin either. He had a fair complexion, like Lexi. But being out in the sun for so many years gave him a tan. He stood maybe a few inches shorter than Chad, who was at least 6’1”
“How was work?” he asked.
“Oh, you know…I don’t have to come in Monday.’’ She said calmly as she climbed into the vehicle.
“Why?” he asked as he pulled out of the large parking lot.
“I got let go.” She said
“Are you serious?” He asked.
“Yes.” She said as she fought back the tears that wanted to escape her eyes.
“Don’t wallow in it, you just gotta jump back on the horse, and try again.” He said as they started to drive.
“Yeah, I’ll just go to a ‘slower paced’ office.” She said, putting stress on their words.
“I don’t care if you work at a fast food chain, you just need a job.” He said sternly. Lexi rolled her eyes.
They pulled up to her house. Lexi’s house was large in size. The color of the house was a light green, and the porch was a darker shade of green. The porch was barely holding grip to the ground beneath it. It was your typical house, basement, main floor, upstairs, and a large attic. Lexi’s room was on the second floor. Lexi’s family needed a large house, due to the large family she had. She got out of the car and raced to her room. It was basically a straight shot from the front door to the steps, until she had to turn to the left. She cried only a little, and laid on her bed once she arrived. Lexi’s room was always her personal retreat whenever her younger sister, Angel wasn’t in it. Because of the large amount of people in her immediate family, everyone shared a room. All but her older sister Kerry, but that is another story. Although she hated the pastel pink walls, and grey carpeting, she knew she was safe to be herself in there. She opened up her phone and saw a reply.
“I’d love to fuck you, I’ve wanted to for a very long while.’’ He responded.
“When?” She messaged back quickly.
“Sunday.” He replied.
“What time?” she asked.
“10, I’ll pick you up.” He replied.
“At least it’s Friday” she mocked aloud to herself.
“I want your cock, deep in my throat, and my pussy Chris.” She sent.
“Mmm, you’re so naughty!” He sent back. She felt a wicked sensation enter her body. Suddenly, her emotions turned into a vicious sex drive.
“You can be my own sex doll.” He sent.
“I would love that, Master.” She sent back.
“Submissive, are we?” He sent.
“I am quite the sub…” She sent back.
“Good, we’ll have to test that…” He sent.
“Indeed, we will.” She shut her phone, placed it on her bed, and blasted her music.
She picked up her phone, and messaged her best friend, Chad. “We need to drink, soon. I lost my job.” She sent.
“What happened??”
He sent. Lexi sent him the whole drawn out conversation.
“I’ll be over after work Love Dove.” He said.
“Great, I need that or crazy sex.” She said. “Only the first one is feasible at this current time.” She added.
“Haha, I know that’s right.” He sent back. But, what he didn’t know was that Lexi was on her way to fulfilling both of her wants.
Chad showed up at her house, and they went out to Lexi’s favorite bar. A gay bar, but most of her guy friends were there. She wasn’t super close to any of them to consider them best friends, or anything. But they always seemed to brighten her day whenever they were around. She told them all her story and they gave her the shoulder to cry on. Lexi didn’t cry, but she drank, she drank every emotion out of her body. Chad bought her a few drinks with her liquor of choice, Bacardi 151. Others bought her small fruity shots. She drank everything down like a champ. 2:30 rolled around, and a very tipsy Lexi staggered to Chad’s still slightly new car. “Do you need to go home?” He asked.
“No.” Lexi said.
“Ok, we’re going to Emanuel’s to eat then.” He said as he started the car. Lexi plugged in her mp3 player, and blasted her newly found ‘bad girl’ song, and they both sang and danced in the car the whole way to the restaurant.
Lexi ate a chip, and instantly felt nauseated. She ran outside of the large and bright building, and sat outside and smoked a cigarette. It had rained a little that evening, the cool air was a great place for her to be, rather than the warm and slowly escalating temperature of the restaurant. One of their other friends Kari came by, and checked on her. Kari was tall and very slim. She had short brown curly hair, and big brown eyes. She was known to wear hoddies and jeans at all times, unless she had a super girly day. “What’s wrong love face?” she asked. Lexi, to the best of her ability explained the situation. “You’re going to be okay.” She said as she patted her back. “Do you need to puke?” She asked. Lexi shook her head, even though it probably would have made her feel better. “These fingers have helped many people puke in the past Lexi, its okay if you can’t make yourself do the deed, I can help you.” She offered as she modeled her long and thin fingered hand her way. “It’s okay.” Lexi laughed. Although Kari was generally a clean person, even when intoxicated, Lexi was kind of germ-a-phobic, and didn’t think having Kari’s hand down her throat would be such a great option. After she finished her cigarette, they both walked in Emanuel’s. Lexi didn’t eat her food, so Chad boxed it up for her. Like she had done for him many nights. He dropped her off at home, and she went to sleep after her long quiet journey up the steps and to her room.
Lexi woke up bright and early with a burning feeling in her stomach. This is why I stopped doing this. She thought to herself as she stumbled to the bathroom. Her vision was slightly hazy, but she always got passed that. The deep burning of Bacardi and stomach acid was her biggest obstacle after a night of binge drinking. She did her normal bathroom business, and returned to bed. Her mother woke her up at noon. “I know you drank last night, but you can’t sleep all day. You have that concert to go to.” She said “Oh yeah.” Lexi said sleepily. Lexi looked forward to that concert for so long, but lost interest after last night. Lexi slugged through her day, and waited for Chad to come over.
Chad, Lexi, and her sisters Kerry and Angel drove for an hour to get to this concert. Kerry was a lot shorter than Lexi, she stood about 5’4’’ in height, and she was also 11 years older than Lexi. Her skin was pale, like Lexi’s but Lexi had a pink hue to her skin. Kerry’s hair was strawberry blonde, her eyes were blue. And she was average build. Kerry wasn’t Lexi’s full blooded sister. Their mother had Kerry when she was younger by another man, but Lexi’s father adopted her as his own, and has taken care of her for years. Their younger sister, Angel was about Lexi’s height, maybe an inch or two shorter. She was a bigger girl, with brown hair and brown eyes. She inherited their mother’s slightly darker complexion. Everyone around her was excited, but not her. She would have rather stayed at home, and wallowed in her own misery. “I want to see your nipples.” She saw a message on her phone from Chris.
“Mmm, I bet you do. I want you to suck on them” She replied.
“I want that to.” He said.
“Tomorrow.” She said.
“Indeed, tomorrow.” He replied.
During the concert, she and Chris were sexting, and her sex drive grew more and more as the night went on. Lexi paid attention to the concert somewhat, only when it was of interest. But her mind was in a different place. She wasn’t Lexi, she was Dollie. A sex obsessed young woman, who wanted a fix. At the concert, there was a mix of different types of people. She never had seen so much diversity in one area. The concert arena was large, and dark. She had to keep covering the small light from her cell phone from everyone; she did not want to distract their good time with her erotic text messages.

Like the drive to get to the concert, the drive back took a long time. But the time increased because of more traffic coming in and out of the area. Lexi listened to her music, and made light conversation with everyone in the car, but all she really focused on was the excitement she would endure tomorrow night. Everyone got out of the car, when they arrived back to Lexi’s house. She waved goodbye to Chad, as he pulled out of the drive way.

After everyone in her house went to sleep, Lexi walked into her bathroom, and took off her top. She started snapping pictures with her crappy cell phone camera, and sent them to Chris.” Mmmm…Very nice!” He said.
“You like?” She said back.
“How could I not? ;)” he replied.
“Good, cause they are yours.” She replied.
He sent her a picture of his long and hard penis, and that drove Lexi over the edge. She had to take care of herself; it was too hard to hide her desire. Lexi raced down her steps, and towards her basement. The basement was the only other room with a shower. The bathroom upstairs did not have one, but it did have a very small bathtub. Lexi’s basement was cement, all the way around. It was the coldest room in the house at all times. Except when she or Kerry were doing the laundry, then it was hells inferno. Her basement was large. She walked down the kitchen steps, and there was a door that lead to her back yard. She went down another set of stairs, and she was in the ‘school’ area. Lexi’s siblings were online schooled, and their school computers were down there. Three computers sat, just before the laundry room. The laundry room is where the shower was located. Lexi ran the shower water, and jumped in. She let the hot water drip all down her body, as she started caressing her very wet vagina. “Mmm…”She moaned softly as she started flicking her clit with her fingers. She thought of her and Chris’ words as she went faster and faster on herself. She finally climaxed, she almost fell down. That woke her out of her daze, and she continued to shower herself. The she shaved her sensitive vagina, and her legs.
Lexi got out of the shower, and received another message. “I want to taste you…” Chris sent. The intense sex drive returned once more.
“I just took care of this Chris, quit teasing me…I’m trying to save my orgasm for you, but I had to masturbate in the shower, thanks to you.” She sent.
“That’s hot.” He replied. “Show me your wet pussy.” He quickly added.
She snapped a picture, and sent it to him,
“Sorry, my camera sucks.” She added to the message.
“Mmmm, I want it.” He said.
“I want you to fuck my mouth…” She sent back.
“Oh, and I will. Don’t you worry.” He replied.
Her body grew weak again with want. Her breath became shallow, but she knew she had to control herself. She wanted someone, other than herself to give her relief. Lexi smiled, and took a picture of herself in her favorite black bra and sent it to him.
“Delicious.”He sent back.
Lexi felt a combination of two emotions; lust, and freedom. She never sent a picture of any part of her body to anyone, just her face.


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