My So Called Fairytale Life?

My So Called Fairytale Life?

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Genre: Romance

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Status: Finished

Genre: Romance

Summary

The real fairytales were filled with torture, abuse and tragedy. Basically sums up my life.

Summary

The real fairytales were filled with torture, abuse and tragedy. Basically sums up my life.

Chapter1 (v.1) - A Fairytale Life?

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The real fairytales were filled with torture, abuse and tragedy. Basically sums up my life.

Chapter Content - ver.1

Submitted: April 08, 2015

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Chapter Content - ver.1

Submitted: April 08, 2015

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She took a slow, deep drag from her menthol cigarette while looking up at the night sky. It was  a cold December evening as the clouds concealed the moon off and on as they drifted by. Between them, she could see the faint white dots of Orion’s belt for a moment or two before another cloud snuffed them from sight. Despite Christmas being only days away her heart was far from festive.A gust of icy wind tore at her face as she continued to smoke her cigarette, not allowed in the warmth of her house, Teri had to stand outside. It was her husband’s way of trying to get her to quit, and though she was stubborn, after the holidays she planned to try and stop.

It was her husband whom created this dismal monster that she had become. Once a hopeful romantic with dreams of a happily ever after, Teri was now resigned to what her life had become and reluctantly settled into the fact it was all it ever would be. The man she met some sixteen years ago was not the man she came to know now. His personality had changed like night and day from when they were first together thus in it’s wake changed her as well. True she had issues, but had been open and honest from day one about them. He, however apparently thought he could change her into his ideal wife and ignored what she tried to tell him.

When Teri first got together with Max, she arrived in a t-shirt and jeans and no make up. She was only meeting him to work with him at first. He was a magician and she herself had been in magic since the 1980’s. He needed a new assistant as his previous had just gotten married and would no longer be able to help him, Teri was still fairly new to the area and had the experience needed. They had met at a magic meeting for “Society of American Magicians”, a group her friends at the magic shop were pushing her to join. He had struck up a conversation with her seeing as females were not very common at such meetings. Hesitant at first but by the next month’s meeting they both discussed an upcoming show he had and she agreed to assist for him.

All was well the first year, so much so that he proposed to her in early December of 2009. As an engagement/Christmas gift she booked the two of them a place for the World Magic Seminar in Las Vegas, a week long event with shows, competitions and mingling with some of their mentors and inspirations. Again, all seemed well with the couple, they were happy. The wedding was set for September 2001. Plans were marching along Teri worked long hours to sock money away and her fiance did as well. She would often come home well after six and was tired but would make dinner for them, occasionally he would have something already going.

This is when things began their slow decent into less then perfect state. He would get frustrated that the dishes were not done or she would be too tired for going for a bike ride. He would be out in the yard working on something and get upset that she was not out there with him. The animosity would spill over into other areas then as he would make some comment about the stubble on her legs being a turn off or some other such negative uncomplimentary statement. There were a few cancelations in the wedding party as two individuals got divorced and thus the other spouse would obviously not be in attendance. Then it hit the fan.

Teri had moved to Illinois from New York in 1996, so most of her friends were still back on Long Island as well as several family members. The morning news was on and the report came over that a plane crashed into the World Trade Center. Her blood ran cold as she then witnessed the second plane hit on air. They sat, as did the rest of the country, watching it all unfold. All air traffic was grounded, people were frantic trying to reach loved ones and in eleven days they were suppose to get married. When she thinks back to it all she wondered if perhaps it was an omen. Suffice to say they lifted the no fly rule and her parents made it as did a very small handful of others from her side. Everyone had a wonderful time and the two would leave for Disney World, The Magic Kingdom, for their honeymoon.

Fast forward two years and the couple, noticing the changes but still wanting to make it work, decided to start a family. Only three days after her birthday and telling her father the decision to have a baby her father died. It was a sudden shock neither expected. Nine months later they had a beautiful baby boy. Bittersweet was that Christmas being the first without her father, the baby’s grandfather, but the baby helped the entire family heal. The first few months mother and son spent their nights on the living room sofa, nursing every two hours would mean Max, would not get a good night’s sleep for work. While she did not experience postpartum depression there was something definitely brewing deep inside.

By the time their son turned three Teri sought help for her emotional stress when Max kept telling her to “suck it up” and “get over it”. Despite her attempts she felt lost and found a therapist whom after the first session informed her of several acronyms that she apparently was suffering from including PTSD, MDD, OCD and a small handful of other associated conditions. The doctor also commented that from what she was hearing the marital relationship was riddled with some mental abuse by the husband. It was, to say the least, comforting to know she was not crazy.

Several prescriptions and years later Teri’s temper and nerves settled down some but the tension was ever growing. It was eating her up inside to think that their marriage was not much more then two people making due with one another. When ever she would try to talk to Max about how she felt he would turn around and tell her she made him the way he had become and follow it up with “I wish I had known you were going to be like this before we got married, maybe we rushed into things.”

She was partly to blame, after all she was not physically attracted to him anymore due to all the negative comments over the years and the regimented list of things to do before they could be together. It was hard for her to want to be with someone who had a very specific check list she needed to meet, there was no spontaneity or if there was he would make a rude remark of some sort. Teri loved Max, she just wanted to be IN love with him, or at the very least like him. The man living with her now was not someone she would have ever been attracted to, unlike the way he was long ago.

Now Teri would spend her time wishing. Wishing things were different, wishing she could go back in time knowing what she knew now. A few times she even looked for old crushes online just to see how they were doing, if they looked the same and so on. She always felt in her gut she should wait for her so called prince charming, but once she reached thirty, time was a ticking and pressure and family nudged. Now, she can't help but wonder "what if" What if she did wait, not settle, not jump so fast.

Teri had always made a pact in her head that when she married she would do everything possible to keep it going and not to take the easy way out, divorse. More recently however, Max would toss the "D" word around and other unplesant comments making Teri wonder if maybe it was an option, but their son, he needed both parents, they both love him beyond words. Now at eleven, even he would comment about the mean things dad would say.


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