WHEN I WAS A CHILD.

WHEN I WAS A CHILD.

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I WAS RAPE AND BADLY BEATING,

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I WAS RAPE AND BADLY BEATING,

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Submitted: May 04, 2012

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WHEN I WAS A CHILD.

WRITEN BY KATE VASQUEZ

 

 

 

WHEN I WAS A CHILD GROWING UP I THROUGHT THAT YOUR MOTHER WAS SUPPOSE TO CARE FOR YOU AND LOVE,

WELL ONE DAY MY STEP MOTHER AND FATHER GOT INTO A FIGHT AND MY MOTHER KICK HIM OUT, I START TO CRY AS MY FRATHER WALK TOWARD THE DOOR,

I SAID PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME MY FATHER SAID ILL BE BACK FOR YOU I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF YOU I NEED A JOB, WHEN I GET ONE ILL COME BACK FOR YOU,

WELL SIX MONTH DOWN THE ROAD, MY FATHER NEVER CAME BACK FOR ME, I KIND OF FELT THAT MY LIFE WOULD TURN UP SIDE DOWN ALL BECAUSE I WAS DIFFRENT FROM THE REST OF THE KIDS, I KNOW THAT I WASN'T GOING TO BE TREATED FAIRLY, WELL WHAT I THROUGHT CAME TURE, MY STEP MOTHER MET THIS MAN, HE MOVE IN, AT FIRST HE WAS NICE, THEN HE STARTED TO DRINK, THEN AT 8 YEAR OLD MY LIFE WAS HELL, MY STEP FATHER START TO HIT ME, THEN WHEN HE SAW I WOULDN'T CRY,  BEAT ME WITH WHAT EVER HE COULD PICK UP BULT, SHOE, WIRE, WHAT EVER HE COULD GET IN HIS HANDS, WELL ONE DAY WE WERE OUT SIDE RIDEING OUR BIKE WHEN MY STEP SISTER FELL OFF HER BIKE, SO TOLD HER FATHER THAT I PUSH HER ALL BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T LIKE ME, SO MY STEP FATHER CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE AND SAW SHE WAS CUT ON HER FACE HE PUNCH ME SO HARD THAT I FELL BACK ON THE GROUND AND HIT THE BACK OF MY HEAD, FOR THE NEXT COUPLY DAYS HE HIT AND PUNCH ME BEAT ME THIS WENT ON ALL THE WAY TIL I TURN 13, WHEN I WENT TO SCHOOL AND HAD TO PLAY GYM, MY GYM TEACHER ASK ME WHY I DON'T CHANGE FOR GYM, I TOLD HER THAT I WASN'T FEELING TO GOOD SO SHE SAID I'LL LET YOU SIT THIS ONE OUT, SO I DID, THEN WHEN I GOT HOME FROM SCHOOL, I HAD TO GO AND PICK MY STEP UP FROM SCHOOL HE DIDN'T WANT TO DO BECAUSE TO DRUNK TO DO IT, I DIDN'T WANT TO GO, BECAUSE WE LIVE BY NOTHING BUT WOODS, AT THAT TIME IT WASN'T SAFE FOR ANY LITTLE GIRL TO OUT LATE,  SO I GOT DRESS AND PUT MY SNEAKER ON, WENT TO PICK UP MY STEP SISTER, THEN ON MY WAY TO THE SCHOOL I SAW A MAN I DIDN'T KNOW, HE WENT A LITTLE PAST ME, BEFORE HE COULD TURN AROUND TOWARD ME I RUN LIKE I NEVER RAN BEFORE, I DIDN'T EVEN LOOK BACK JUST KEPT RUNNING TIL I GOT TO THE SCHOOL I CUT MY FOOT REAL BAD, AFTER I CALM DOWN THE LADY AT THE SCHOOL ASK ME WHAT HAPPEN AND I TOLD A MAN WAS CHASEING ME, THEY CALL THE POLICE, I TOLD THE POLICE WHAT HAPPEN, THEY ASK ME WAS I OK, THEN THEY WENT LOOKING FOR HIM, COME TO FIND OUT HE WAS A RAPIST WOW, I COULD HAVE GOT KILL, SO THE LADY DROVE US HOME I WAS SO HAPPY FOR THAT, WHEN WE GOT HOME LITTLE PAST EIGHT, MY STEP FATHER ASK ME TO GO TO HIS JOB AND TELL THEM HE WOULDN'T BE IN, AND I TOLD HIM NO I WILL NOT GO BACK OUT THERE I WAS SCARE, I TOLD HIM IF SOME ONE WOULD WALK WITH ME THEN I WILL GO HE SAID NO, GO BY YOUR SELF, I STILL SAID NO KNOW WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN, HE BEAT ME SO BAD I GOT REAL SICK FROM ALL THE HIT I TOOK FROM HIM I COULDN'T EVEN CRY BECAUSE OF THE SHOCK,

I COULD EVEN GO TO SCHOOL I KNEW THAT IF I WENT THEY WOULD ASK WHAT WRONG WITH ME SO I START TO SKIP SCHOOL BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT ANY BODY TO KNOW BECAUSE IT WOULD BE WORSE FOR ME, SO I WENT TO MY FRIEND HOUSE AND STAY THERE NEXT THING I KNOW I START SMOKEING POT AND DRINKING SO I WOULD FEEL THE PAIN, THE SCHOOL CALL MY STEP MOTHER JOB, WHY DID THEY DO THAT REMIND YOU I WAS ALREADY CUT FROM THE BEATING I GOT THAT NIGHT, WELL SOME ONE TOLD MY STEP MOTHER WERE I WAS AND SHE FOUND ME, NEXT THING I KNOW SHE BEAT ME ALL THE WAY FROM MY FRIEND HOUSE TO WERE WE LIVE AND THAT WAS THE LONGEST SIX BLOCK I HAVE EVER FELT, THERE WERE SO MANY PEOPLE ON THE STREET AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN SAY ANT THING OR STOP HER, ALL I COULD DO IS CRY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO, NOW THAT, THAT WAS OVER, WELL GOT UP FOR SCHOOL AND MY STEP ALREADY LEFT FOR WORK NOW I AM 13 I HAD LONG HAIR DOWN TO THE GROUND NICE LOOKING KID LIGHT SKIN, MY STEP FATHER KEPT SAYING NASETY THING TO ME, I WOULD SAY ANY THING BECAUSE WHO WOULD BELIEVE ME, IT HIS WORDS AGAINST MY, WHILE MY STEP MOTHER WAS WORKING MY STEP FATHER WOULD BRING HOME OTHER WOMAN, HE SAID THAT IF I SAY ANY THING HE WOULD KILL ME OR BEAT ME SO BAD I WOULD BE ABLE TO TALK, WELL THE OTHER WOMAN WASN'T GOOD ENOUGHT FOR HIM, SO HE RAPE ME OVER AND OVER EVERY DAY I AM JUST A CHILD WH WANT TO JUST PLAY WITH HER DOLL, WELL WE MOVE INTO A NEW HOME THROUGHT THAT THING WOULD GET BETTER FOR ME BECAUSE WE MOVE NEXT DOOR OF MY GRANDMOTHER, IT DIDN'T GOT WORSE, SO ONE DAY WE ARE SITTING OUT SIDE IN THE CAR, WAITING FOR MY STEP FATHER TO COME OUT THE HOUSE, WE WAIT AND WAIT AND YOU KNOW KIDS ANTS IN THE PANT CAN'T SIT STILL, ALL WAY GOT TO BE DOING SOMETHING, SO MY STEP SISTER SIAD LETS PRETAIN THAT WE ARE DRIVEINF THE CAR, SO I DON'T KNOW WHY I GOT BEHIND THE WHEEL, BUT I DID AND SHE HIT THE GARE AND THE CAR START MOVING AND WE CRUSH INTO A TRUCK AND TOTAL THE CAR, MY STEP FATHER CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE SNATCH ME OUT OF THE CAR DIDN'T DO ANY THING TO ALL THE OTHER KIDS JUST ME I GOT BLAME FOR EVERY THING THAT WENT WRONG EVEN IF IT WASN'T WRONG, MY STEP FATHER GRAB A CABLE WIRE AND TOOK OFF THE HARD PART AND BEAT ME SO BAD THAT I HAD BLOOD EVERY WHERE MY UNCLE KEPT SAYING BEAT HER BEAT HER AND HE DID, HE BEAT ME SO HARD THERE WERE CUT AND BURN MARK EVERY WHERE, I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN SOMEONE RAN AND GOT MY GRANDMOTHER, SHE TOLD HIM IF YOU HIT THAT CHILD ONE MORE TIME I WILL KILL YOU, I SAID NO GRAND MOM YOU ARE ALL I HAVE, I DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME, SO SHE PUT DOWN THE WEAPON SHE HAD IN HER HAND, THEN SHE TOOK ME TO THE HOSPITAL THEY SAW HOW BAD I WAS CUT, THEY DIDN'T REPORT ANY THING BECAUSE BACK IN THE DAY THERE WERE NO SUCH THING AS ABUSE. THEY PUT ME ON A BLOCK OF ICE AND TRY TO WRAP MY BODY SO I WOULD COME DOWN WITH ANY THING, WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A MONTH BEFORE I COULD BE RELEASE, SO I WENT HOME, I FELL DOWN ON MY KNEE AND SAID LET MY STEP FATHER DIE, DON'T KNOW DON'T KNOW HOW BUT HE DID, THEN I FELT SO BAD, BECAUSE I KNEW THAT WAS WRONG I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO GET BEAT ANY MORE, AFTER THAT POINT I START TO GET INTO TROUBLE DRINKING SMOKEING POT SKIP SCHOOL BECAUSE OF ALL THE HURT AND THE PAIN I HAD INSIDE OF ME, WHEN I TURN FIFTEEN I HAD A BABY OH NO HERE WE GO, MY STEP MOTHER THROW ME OUT AND TOLD ME I WAS NEVER WELCOME THERE, SO I LEFT, I KIND OF WENT BACK TO SCHOOL UNTIL IT GOT HARD THEN I DROP OUT FOR THE FOURTH TIME, SO I KNEW I HAD TO DO SOMETHING TO SUPPORT MY CHILD, SO I FOUND A JOB JUST SO I COULD FEED HIM I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME, I SAID THAT I WOULD NEVER TREAT MY SON LIKE I WAS TREATED, I GAVE HIM ALL THE CARE AND LOVE I COULD EVER GIVE, THEN WHEN I TURN SIXTEEN I START TO SLEEP AROUND BECAUSE I FEEL THE NEED TO BE LOVE, IT WASN'T RIGHT, I FELT CHEAP AND DIRTY, EVEN AFTER ALL THAT I WENT THROUGH I WASN'T SUPPOSE TO HAVE A KID, SO I CRY OUT, AND SAID I HAD TO CHANGE WHAT I WAS DOING SO I DID AND WHEN MY GRAND MOTHER SAW THAT CHANGE SHE TOOK ME UNDER HER WING AN BROUGHT ME TO CHURCH, WHEN I GOT IN SIDE OF THAT CHURCH MY EYES CAUGHT TWO LADY STANDING THERE I SAID THAT YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND SHE SAID THANK YOU IN THE KINDST WAY I WAS SO HAPPY MY GRAND MOTHER TOOK ME TO THAT CHURCH, THOSE LADY TOOK SUCH GOOD CARE OF ME AND GAVE ME THE LOVE I WAS MISSING, GOD KNEW HE HAD TO DO SOMETHING OR I WOULD HAVE BEEN STRUNG OUT ON DURGS I DIDN'T WANT TO GO THAT WAY BECAUSE I KNEW THAT THERE WERE A BETTER WAY TO GO AND THAT WAS CONFESS ALL MY SIN UNTO GOD AND GAD FOR GAVE ME SEE GOD DON'T JUDGE ONLY PEOPLE INSTEAD OF TALKING ABOUT THEY SHOULD REACH OUT THIER HANDS AND HELP ME LIKE THOSE TWO BEAUTIFUL LADY AND MY GRAND MOTHER NOTICE I DIDN'T CALL HER STEP, BECAUSE SHE HELP ME AND PROTECT ME FROM ANY MORE HARM, SO NOW I HAVE GIVEN MY LIFE TO GOD AND HE WATCH OVER ME, HE IS THE STRENGHT OF MY LIFE, I SEEK I FOUND, I KNOW WHO TAKE CARE OF ME IT WAS GOD ALL THE LONG, I AM IN HIS PRESTENT, I HAVE FAITH, I BELIEVE, I TRUST, AND I AM NOW HUMBLE UNTO A MAN NAME JESUS, IF IT HAD NOT BEEN FOR HIM I WOULD BE SITTING HERE AT THE AGE OF 54, NOW I AM BLESS, AND KNOW I AM FAVOR, NOW WHEN I WAKE UP EVERY DAY I SAY THIS PRAYER, LORD YOU HEAR MY VOICE, IN THE MORNING I LAY MY REQUEST BEFORE YOU AND WAIT EXPECTANTLY, PSALM 5:3, SO DON'T THINK THERE IS NO ONE FOR YOU, DON'T SIT AND WAIT BEFORE ITS TOO LATE SEEK LOOK AND PRAY, ALL THING THROUGH GOD IS POSSIBLE, SEE YOU CAN'T UPLOAD LOVE, YOU CAN'T DOWNLOAD TIME, YOU CAN'T GOOGLE ALL THE ANSWERS IN YOUR LIFE, SO JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE AND TRUST IN GOD. NEVER EVER THINK YOU ARE NOT LOVE SOME BODY SOME WHERE LOVE EVEN IF YOU DON'T KONE WHO THEY ARE GOD WEAR MANY HATS HE IS WORLD WIDE. JUST TRUST IN HIM AND LEAN ON HIS EVER LASTING LOVE NO MATTER WHAT MAY BE GOING ON STAY STRONG NOTHING LAST FOR EVER, YOU CAN GET THROUGH AND YOU WILL BE A SPECIAL CHILD OF GOD, HERE I AM BORN WITH ONE KIDNEY AND EVEN WHAT I WENT THROUGH IF I CAN MAKE IT SO CAN YOU, HOLD YOUR HEAD UP HIGH YOU DIDN'T DO ANY THING WRONG, WE ARE JUST KIDS. I HOPE MY STORY TOUCH SOMEONE WHO GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING I WENT THROUGH WE HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO LOVE MORE AND HURT LESS.

 

 

 

THANK YOU

KATE VASQUE


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