Looking Inside For God

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There are so many different facets of ourselves, our personalities. The psychological aspects, the physical, the spirit/soul, the inner child, our higher power, our individual beliefs. And with that I’m wondering about myself and my personality.

I feel like I’m not quite in sync with myself. As though something’s off.
Like, when I write or converse, I do so without emotion or actually being in the moment. I’m totally out of contact with myself, my persona, like I’m out of body or out of sync. In denial, or living as someone else, perhaps?

I live outside my morals. 
Who am I fooling? I don’t have any morals. 
I live with my ego, with my all self-opinionated domineering life force.
I lead a double minded life. 

Do you know anyone like that? 
I ask you, is it so wrong?
It’s called survival.
Do you believe in survival?

I believe in black and white.
And you know what?
It’s hard.
There’s no middle ground, no gray area’s.

And when listening to preacher’s preaching,
They tell you that you’re living in a gray area. (A damned area)
You’re either hot or cold for god, they’d condemn, billowing from the top of their lungs every Sunday morning.

I’d rather believe I live in color, not black and white (and with an active imagination, too). It’d be so much easier to just flow. To flow forth through a field of blooming flowers having color and scent to guide you.

To flow, float and rise above as diverse clouds of yellow pollen.
As a flock of yellow bumble bees transport the most wise energy to all who believe! It’s the truth! So it’d be.

Submitted: February 16, 2021

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Pensive musings but upbeat, looking forward to your more; the colour, the flow, the scents; the active imagination ; in and out of sync . Keep putting your thoughtful self out here.

Tue, February 16th, 2021 2:53am


Thank you Janus. I appreciate your comment. Cheers!

Mon, February 15th, 2021 8:23pm


Here you muse, you mind abuse, don’t doubt yourself, don’t hate, bemuse...
If you do you’ll always lose; Yet decide girl, you must choose!

Sun, February 28th, 2021 7:55am


I have my moments......

Sun, February 28th, 2021 12:48am

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