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Submitted: May 22, 2017

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Hi, we are D.L.Cannon. Thank you for visiting the profile of The most hated, most laughed at, and the most unfairly treated men left in this vessel of a body with Dissociative Identity Disorder (300.14) [formally known as Multiple personalities]. Women hate us. They seem to ignore us, because of one of us called Puppet. He is a deranged lunatic who is addicted To creeping the ladies out, on purpose. Another one of us, called, G.A.W.N.(Gone And Went nowhere) poetic'ly, is a mad man with too much to say, so he rhymes it all down. Compiles music, which he cannot connect with his poetry. shares this vessel with Puppet, and he always has a song stuck in his head, singing aloud on the streets while bicycling 'round town, and even up town, over the hills. Dun, who also shares this vessel with us, tends to come around for professional contact. Going to the market. Meeting new people. It's hard for G.A.W.N. to ever step up and take charge, because of Dominance issues, and because if he cannot be seen as socially outgoing, then he won't even try. Dun doesn't have to try to look quiet. He already is. Just that if the crowd happens to be in the same room anyone in Duncan's family, Dun will not exist for the moment, and will never come back out for the same crowd, especially with the crowd and Duncan's family, or even other friends who deny him. Also, the vessel belongs to Duncan. Who is the weakest link of us all. Never known for us, and always seen as childishly pathetic. Nobody wants him around, except to take advantage of. Enjoys capturing every moment with picture, and videoing every event. His friends think of the separation between Duncan and the rest of us as just Duncan's dissociated feelings that are separated. Maybe because we all don't like him, or because when he is any one of us he doesn't want to go back to being himself, or that none of us can agree on how old we really are, mentally, that is, or because we all talk differently, and act differently. Duncan's friends call our voice tones, and actions; feelings that Duncan, being himself, alone, cannot feel, and tones he cannot reach on his own. His family brings him to himself when around, and not all his friends can bring each one of us 3 out of him. In isolation any one of us can dominate, but we're barely ever alone. Berkeley is crowded with chicks, which brings the Puppet out of our body more, and Duncan's friends, especially his homeboys always bring out the G.A.W.N. in Duncan. Technically, they are who named the outgoing hidden part of Duncan, that name long before they met the real Duncan. Duncan tends to stay Duncan around his family. Dun's place on thee agenda of what this vessel does here, on this site is strictly song lyrics, and love poems. Peppet's is ventilation poetry and rap lyrics, and visually decorative art. G.A.W.N. will do all the rest of the poetry and lyrics, while Duncan's duty is to put it all together on your screen, by typing away and uploading. We don't intend to change, and we don't intend to stop. When DLCannon Reprise is caught up to DLCannon, DLCannon will still go on. We plan to spend the rest of our lives on Booksie, and that's what we're gonna do.

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An Oakland, Nor'-Cali', U.S.A. born date of; February 23rd. 1978

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Writing straight out of my journal, each entry. None skipped. I don't know how my journals became songs and poems, But I was asked to do it, now I ain't stopped.

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My writing is self theraputic for me, and I don't want any of it wasted. I started writing in the early/mid 90s but never kept anything that I could publish here 'til early/mid 2004, and I am still ashamed that everything before then is gone. So I want everything that I put up here to live on way beyond when I die, and I feel I may die young. So I'm not going back to work, and I will stay crazy-payed to use all the time I have left to get all I got up on Booksie before my time is up. I have 4 sites here. 2 at Booksie.com, and 2 sites at BooksieSilk.com. DLCannon_Reprise(these 2 site[which have the same profiles]on Booksie.com, and on BooksieSilk.com) for poems from late 2004 to late 2008, and on DLCannon(my other 2 sites[on Booksie.com, and BooksieSilk.com]) are my poems from late 2008 to Present.  The dates of each poem are written up above my signature at the bottom of each poem(not the publishing dates). They are all published in order too, starting from the bottom of the featured box to the top(yes, everything is in features too).

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Below is a little about what my problem is if you have to ask.

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I never really ever felt alone in my body, mind, heart or soul.I have a side diagosed with Bi-Polar Disoreder Type 1 (296.7), and then a side diagnosed Chronic Parinoid Schizophrenic (295.30), plus a side diagnosed as having a Schizotyple Personality Disorder (301.22), Plus another side diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder(309.81). All 4 sides put together, forming a Dissociative Identity Disorder(300.14) diagnosis.

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Below are my diagnoses & latest years of current diagnosis & current treatment

 

Dr. Jones - Dual Diagnosis 2013

Dr. Jones - Substance Dependence Recovery 2013

Dr. Jones - Drug Induced Psychosis 2013

Dr. Gross - Dissociative Identity Disorder (300.14) 1996

Dr. Naik - Chronic Paranoid Schizophrenia (295.30) [Dun] 2007

Dr. Darby - Bipolar Disorder Type 1 2011(296.7) {[G.A.W.N.] Gone And Went Nowhere}

Dr. Gross - Schizotyple Disorder 1996 [Puppet]

Dr. Gross - Post Traumatic Stress Disorder 1996 {[Duncan] host}

Dr. Gross - Psychotic Disorder (298.9) 1996

Dr. Darby - Schizo-Affective Disorder (295.70) 2011 [Dun + G.A.W.N.]

Dr. Gross - Dysthymic Disorder (300.4) 1996

Hospital - Possible Limited Intellect 2003

I.Q. - I.Q. Test Score; "100" 2001

Dr. Greene - Hyper Thyroid Disorder 2010

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Self - Seasonal Affective Disorder [ all ] 1982

Self - Inferiority Complex [Duncan] 1985

Friends - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder [G.A.W.N.] 2009

Self - Regression Into Child Like State [Duncan] 1994

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Legally Insane - 6 drops of liquid L.S.D. at once

In 1998 (of pure acid) flashbacks ended in 1999

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Dr. Engers - Mental Illnesses are In Remission 2005

Ex Girlfriend - Body Dysmorphic Disorder [G.A.W.N.] 2010

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Substance Dependence Recovery 2010- dependance ins and outs between years of 1995 - 2010

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Hospital - Allergic to all other medications forever

Other than the current prescriptions of

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Zyprexa Zydis (can be generic) [Dun & Puppet]

_____(15 Mlg. @ morning & 1@ night)

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_____Tegrotol (can be generic) [G.A.W.N.]

_____(200 Mlg. @ morning & 400 Mlg. @ night)

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_____Metformin Extended Relief [ all ]

_____(500 Mlg. @ night)

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Hospital - Cycle Climatic Jerk on other medication & adjustments 2003

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When as a child I was just , Duncan, and Puppet, and Dun. Then in 1993, before Dun fell in love with some girl, Puppet died. After heart break, in 1994, Dun died, and Puppet came back, but unwelcome, and then when they smoked weed, G.A.W.N. was born in almost end of school year in 1995 from weed to talk to people. Which immediately put us all in a Drug Induced Psychosis. Later the next school year, still in 1995, We were in a car wreck which resulted in the cost of a life of an unmarried woman who had no children. She was 32 years plus 33 days old. Then Dun came back because of both medication in 1996 was suggested to do such, and because our new girlfriend in 1996. Unfortunately he was no longer psychic so he is said to have amnesia of stuff that never happened that he can’t see anymore of his memories of such stuff that never happened. None of us can remember for him either. The doctor told us all that it was too late to get off the medication, because it was too late, even though it did not do what he told us it would do. Which is unlock the block out that caused his death. So we were trapped being medicated for nothing and then our girlfriend left later that same year, resulting in are death of Dun again. By that time we had given up and had relapsed into a child like state. Meaning Duncan, and Puppet dominated. Because as soon as we were done with our sentence we returned to family, and puppet came back to life in a now unstoppable form. This was in 1997. While experiencing with L.S.D. in 1998, a fifth person arrived, identifying herself as a female dike in man’s body. She seemed to have no name, and was also also unwelcome, as if she was forgotten about since toddler hood and came back out of the middle of nowhere. In 1999 we all became 1 person during flashbacks of L.S.D. that was still in our system, until we got back on psyche medication, and then it became Duncan, and Puppet, and the woman. We started smoking weed again, and G.A.W.N. came back. Some time in the Millennium the woman disappeared. In 2002 Dun came back, because we lost our virginity then. Now we are 4 people, and neither of us can die for longer than a day, nor a night, since we do not get off our medication anymore.

We all have a Seasonal Affective Disorder. Dun has Chronic Paranoid Schizophrenia(295.30), Puppet has Schizotyple Personality Disorder. G.A.W.N. (Gone And Went Nowhere) has Bi-Polar Disorder Type 1(296.7). Friends would say he also has an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Duncan is classified as having Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and also what we would like to call an inferiority Complex, with a regression into a child-like state. The hospital thinks of him as having a possible limited intellect. We think that since he is the host, that he is the one labeled with Dissociative Identity Disorder (300.14)

As in regards to our Schizo-Affective Disorder (295.70) diagnosis that is in Duncan’s charts; it is only a combination of Dun’s Chronic Paranoid Schizophrenia (295.30) diagnosis, and G.A.W.N.’s Bi-Polar Disorder Type 1(296.7), combined, since Dun, and G.A.W.N. are roughly alike, especially when G.A.W.N. is manic or having a mixed episode; so they tend to get seen together as 1 person.

As a body, we don’t hear voices, we just talk to ourselves, and think with what is called by Dr. Engers as “a dialog“. Thus, it may seem like Dun is hallucinating, but he is just hearing Duncan’s voice, along with Puppet’s and G.A.W.N.’s. Puppet usually does his thinking out loud, so Duncan will verbally speak with him. When G.A.W.N. is talking to his or Duncan’s friends he sometimes is known to mumble, and so they think he is talking to himself, but he just does not make eye contact.

During Dun’s firs disappearance. 1994-1996, and return in 1996, and again after 2002 'til 2012, his memory had been a complaint, which lead to the belief of some kind of amnesia, where his world was forgotten, experiences derealization symptoms of Depersonalization Disorder. It was as if every one around us wad on Tv., or the ora of the world looked like an Armageddon feeling, or spiritual look, and sense of atmosphere, instead of how it looked before he had first died, where everything would look like a dream, since the girl he first fell in love with reminded him of his dreams. When he let go of her, he died, and when he came back, his memories of dreams, including Duncan’s, were still repressed, or ignored. Which lead to getting psychiatric help when we had to do time in Fred Finch Youth Center. Since the psychological help without medication was not working for him, since he was dead until receiving medication, while in love with our girlfriend in 1996. But in 2012, when we started going to N.A. his amnesia subsided and now he has Seasonal Affective Disorder like all of us again, which is what we all always had before he had thee amnesia.

Duncan used to be called Duncan The Mask, or Duncan The Name. During L.S.D. flashbacks in 1998-1999 he was called Saddy.

Puppet used to have no name and was always unwelcome to be confessed into existence within the host’s reputation. When finally welcomed during the millennium he was known as Laughy. A name derived from L.S.D. flashbacks.

Dun was known as Duncan The Person, whom nobody knew, accept those he was ever in love with and /or was loved by. During L.S.D. in 1998 he was also knows as stilly, and was who we all were when we where all one person( our integrated “self“) in 1999 due to L.S.D. flashbacks with no medication, and at night when we were still 5 people in 1998 when thee L.S.D. flash backs were still fresh, during our non medicated period.

G.A.W.N. used to be known as The Narrator, back since his birth in 1995, until we did L.S.D. in 1998. When by then he was called Shaky. He got his later name, GAWN!!!!!, from his friends to use as a raver name which he in 2008 changed it into an acronym, “Gone And Went Nowhere”.

None of us drink now, nor use street drugs anymore because we like our medication instead, because we don’t want to be one person that would result in having no voices to hear, or talk to, and because being 4 people gets what we want done, such as our hobbies of poetry, guitar, graphic art, singing, sex, love, and dreams. Weed lead to no writing poetry, nor doing graphic art. L.S.D. lead to life being too boring. Drinking just plain sucked. Crack lead to not being able to even publish poetry online and was taking G.A.W.N.’s money. L.S.D. was only did twice. The first time on the first Friday night in November, 1998, and the second with the first time of Ecstasy in December 2001. Ecstasy was done in rave settings in 2006, and became tolerant in the same year, which lead to also breaking ecstasy addiction in 2007.Weed was done off and on since 1995 ‘til 2010, but was recently been given up completely when our father started dying so that by the time he got to Heaven we would be over the withdrawal stage and he would not see me getting high from up there, plus we wanted to get out of debt to avoid homelessness and thee advent of not being able to publish the rest of our poetry all on line in time before we die too, considering Dun’s belief that we will die at 37 and ½. Which is the same age that our friend was murdered by a psychic who drugged us up in December 2001 to get a name out of us. Crack was done in the start of winter of 2007 thru mid winter 2008, and was stopped due to money problems. Cravings are controlled with a dream catcher to make sure that when we dream of crack we don’t wake up and do it anymore. Hence the belief that dream catchers stop dreams from coming true. No awake time cravings, because it’s not worth the comedown which lead to binging. Meth was tried once in the summer of 2009, but was just like ecstasy, and was not tried again, because it brought bad memories,

This was written by us as a team, and is for the soul purpose of getting the record straight, that seemed to of never been updated, and was always something we wanted done since were finished studying Abnormal Psychology in Autumn 2007. All portions of this scripture are true to the best of our knowledge.

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Updated 05-22-'17

D. L. Cannon

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For an indepth autobiography, please read;

http://www.booksie.com/true_confessions/miscellaneous/dlcannon/to-leave-for-departure


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