if, my letter to you

if, my letter to you

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Genre: Fantasy

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Status: In Progress

Genre: Fantasy

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Its more a fantasy those ifs, cause i am afraid if those ifs can turn real and i had die from happiness But it will be a death i had prefer over living without those ifs...

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Its more a fantasy those ifs, cause i am afraid if those ifs can turn real and i had die from happiness
But it will be a death i had prefer over living without those ifs...

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Submitted: September 12, 2016

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Submitted: September 12, 2016

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i saw it, saw her with the one she loves.

I should happy right, afterall she is my friend, the only, even though she doesnt know that; even though am just a schooltime friend, even though i never talked more than 4 times in the last two years.

But i felt a sting, she has it all .

We scored the same in exams and same ranks, but she is on her way to a career where i was expecting myself too;

She has him, the one she loves She has his love.She has her love.

Me, am empty, i have nothing.

The person i love, he doesnt love me .

I am not sure if i will get that career i hoped to have.

Dreamless, i fear hope, i fear love,

I feel terrified when i feel those longing for karan. I am frightened that i miss him so much; That i could spent every second of my life just texting him even though i dont know how he looks, even though i dont know if he may not be what i think him to be.

Cautious, i need to be cautious. But i am afraid of myself. (Gasp) I trust him, i love him, and it hurts when i doubt my love remembering when he said its just my craving, attachment to him.

"What do you want?" He must be smirking or is he curious

I dont know "You, ..." (No reply)

I love you, i dont know how i am gonna end up my life, but if i had you by my side, i would not let it end, how hard it may become, harder than it is now, but if i had your arms comforting my shivers from fear of my inner demons

If i have your chest to lay my head on when my head aches that bad and if your shirt could save my cheeks from the scorching pain of these warm tears,

If i have your lips to save my mind from all those thoughts and

If i have your caress to soothen the ache from my failures

If i have your moans to save myself from blabbering

If i have your kisses to make me dizzy

I want all these ifs and so much more...

If i have you to save me from the past memories and the future ones that am sure gonna haunt me once they are created.

You be my light to strengthen my goodness

You be my desire to suppress my desire to harm myself

You be me You are my saviour

If, If i could be one with you to save me from myself.

Yours, Me. I wish you call me dove again


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