Made To Be Broken

Made To Be Broken

Status: Finished

Genre: Gay and Lesbian

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Status: Finished

Genre: Gay and Lesbian

Summary

At age 14, Noble Richmond becomes devastatingly aware that he is gay. Being raised in a Christian home and church, Noble believes that being gay is a sin, and desperately seeks God's healing and deliverance – telling no one of his secret. Now, nine years later, Noble is engaged to a Christian girl, Rebecca, who he believes he is genuinely in love with. Convinced that God has answered his prayers and delivered him from the sin of homosexuality, Noble sees his future with Rebecca as bright and promising. But when Rebecca's step-brother, Jonah, shows up at their engagement party – Noble is forced to question his deliverance and finds himself struggling with emotions and desires he insists is not natural for one man to feel for another.

Summary

At age 14, Noble Richmond becomes devastatingly aware that he is gay. Being raised in a Christian home and church, Noble believes that being gay is a sin, and desperately seeks God's healing and deliverance – telling no one of his secret. Now, nine years later, Noble is engaged to a Christian girl, Rebecca, who he believes he is genuinely in love with. Convinced that God has answered his prayers and delivered him from the sin of homosexuality, Noble sees his future with Rebecca as bright and promising. But when Rebecca's step-brother, Jonah, shows up at their engagement party – Noble is forced to question his deliverance and finds himself struggling with emotions and desires he insists is not natural for one man to feel for another.

Chapter43 (v.1) - EPILOGUE (pt. 2) : "May The Circle, Be Unbroken"

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Submitted: May 19, 2014

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EPILOGUE

(pt. 2)

 

“May The Circle, Be Unbroken”

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As I lay by your side and hold you tonight

I want you to understand,

This love that I feel is so right and so real,

I realize how lucky I am.

And should you ever wonder if my love is true,

There's something that I want to make clear to you.

 

There's no way I can make it without you,

There's no way that I'd even try.

If I had to survive without you in my life,

I know I wouldn't last a day.

Oh babe, there's no way.

 

I never knew until you, what I was missing.

Now you say "Forever." I find my heart, it's listening,

Yes, I'm listening.

 

- There’s No Way,  ALABAMA

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“I want you to relax, okay, baby?” Jonah hovered over the top of Noble, supporting himself on his arms as he lowered down just enough to kiss his mouth – and for his arousal to graze tentatively against Noble’s own, causing his member to respond with gentle twitches and immense swelling.

Noble swallowed thick and nodded, his throat too tight to offer a verbal answer. He touched Jonah’s ribs with hesitant fingertips, caressing his warm skin, aching to pull the man down against him, inside him. But even if Noble begged for it, Jonah wouldn’t move that quickly. He was savoring this, and had no intentions of rushing it.

His mouth dropped to Noble’s throat and sucked sensually at his sensitive skin, applying enough pressure to assure he would be marked come morning. Loving the feel of it, Noble moaned and his hips lifted on their own. A soft – “Mmm” – sifted out of Jonah when Noble’s most intimate parts reached for him, pushed lightly against him. He let his hips lower a little more, touching Noble more completely.

Another moan rolled up Noble’s throat when Jonah nuzzled his ear, sucked his earlobe then shifted and moved lower, laying firm kisses down the center of his chest, the man’s rigid member dragging against his thigh, leaving a warm smear of wetness. Noble’s chest caught with a hitch as Jonah nipped one of his nipples then circled the firm bud with his slick tongue, teasing the flat surface. “Mm!” Noble arched a little and gripped Jonah’s shoulders, his fingers finding their way to the man’s hair.

Jonah covered the nipple with his full mouth and sucked hard.

“Uh!” Noble arched more fiercely, and his lower body thrust upward on reflex, gouging Jonah’s stomach with his solid erection.

He felt the man smile as he continued to suck his chest, and then slip one hand between them. Noble shuddered when he took hold of his shaft and stroked him slowly while he shifted to the other nipple and gave it ample attention as well.

Oh god…” Noble whimpered and pushed his member through Jonah’s fist, hips rocking gently with the rhythm of his lover’s hand. His fingers slid up the back of his head, grazing through his soft black hair. How had he lived so many years believing this was wrong – when nothing had ever felt more right in all his life?

Jonah held onto him as his wet lips slipped off his slightly reddened nipple and kissed along the center groove of his abdomen muscles. His hand never stopped, keeping a tantalizing pace and pressure. When his lips touched the wet tip of Noble’s cock, Noble gasped and jerked a little. Jonah moaned and licked a warm path up the underbelly of his shaft. Noble dropped his hands to the bed and squeezed fistfuls of the satin sheets, his body lifting up, breath sticking. It wasn’t the first time he’d had Jonah’s mouth on him, but every time felt like the first time with him.

Yes…” Noble bit his lip and whimpered when the plump head slipped between Jonah’s warm, wet lips and the man sucked him with enough force to make him cry out. As he began to slide in deeper, his mind went static, fingers clawing tighter. Fuck, he’s so good at this. His eyes squeezed shut, his teeth grinding into his lip as his chest tightened and breath went erratic. Jonah shoved his hands under his rear and lifted him as he pushed his mouth further down his hard muscle. “Fuck!” Noble choked.

Jonah seemed to take pleasure in torturing him with his slow strokes, strong sucking, as Noble trembled and shook with the need for something faster, harder. He wasn’t entirely free of guilt when he considered that he had yet to pleasure Jonah in this way. The man was always the one giving it to him. Jonah had never complained about that, and seemed perfectly content with their roles. And he had never once even hinted that Noble return the favor. Of course he knew Jonah wanted it – it would be crazy to think he didn’t – but he would let Noble decide when, or even if, he was ready to do it.

Jonah…” His voice trembled bad as the man’s hot mouth squeezed and sucked up and down his throbbing flesh.

Hmm?” The soft vibration caused a notable quiver to race through Noble’s body.

“I…” He swallowed hard, his thoughts hazy, fragmented. “I want…

Sucking up off him slowly, making him shudder fiercely, Jonah moved up over the top of him and kissed his mouth. “What, baby?” he whispered, breathless. “Whatever you want…it’s yours.”

“I want to…” He was still a little shy, even embarrassed about making bold sexual requests. “…to taste you too.” But judging by the shiver that rushed through Jonah, he didn’t suspect the man cared how he asked – as long as he was asking for that.

 

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Noble’s tentativeness only made his request that much more of an impact. Jonah struggled to retain his masculinity and composure, and not break down weeping – but it wasn’t easy. He cleared his throat, his lips pressed tight as he gazed down at the younger man, then smiled, “You know what you just did to me…don’t you?”

Noble suppressed a smile. “I got a…feeling.” And with that, he pushed his hips up against Jonah, both of them hard as steel.

A soft laugh sifted out and Jonah groaned, his head dropping down on Noble’s shoulder. “Fuck, baby…” When he raised up again, he rubbed the back of his fingers against Noble’s cheek. “Of course I want the same thing,” he murmured. “But only if you’re really ready. I don’t want you to think you have to do it, or that I’m going to feel cheated or resentful if you don’t. Because I don’t want you doing anything you don’t want to do. I wouldn’t take any pleasure in that.”

Noble gazed up at him, a painfully sexy smile on his lips. “Are you finished?”

“Mm…” Jonah squinted and looked thoughtful, then smiled. “Yeah. I am.”

“Good.” Noble murmured then gently pushed Jonah over onto his back then crawled between his legs.

Jonah watched him and opened his legs wider to give him ample room. The guy was nervous, but clearly wanting this as much as Jonah. Well, he didn’t know if anyone could want this as much he did, but close.

Rubbing his hands slowly up and down Jonah’s thighs, inspiring his erection to stretch and grow in both thickness and length, Noble exhaled unsteadily. “I don’t know how good I will be.”

“Baby,” Jonah said thickly, “If your mouth touches me…you’re good.” He smiled then sat forward and cupped Noble’s face, kissing him deeply. “Just take your time and get comfortable. I don’t expect you to take it all in your first time. Only go as far as is comfortable for you, and I promise – you will not disappoint me.”

He kissed him again then laid back against the pillows once more, his heart pounding, pulse shuddering as Noble took him in hand and stroked him a few times. “Mmm.” Jonah moaned, hips shifting a little. “You have heavenly hands, baby.” Stroking him slowly, Noble leaned down and tentatively kissed the base of his cock. Fuck! Jonah bit his lip hard, his body jerking, his breath instantly sticking and breaking in his throat.

Noble licked his lips – then licked up the underside of his shaft.

Fuck…” Jonah whimpered and did want to break into tears. Oh god, baby, you’re doing great…don’t stop…don’t ever stop.

He jerked again when Noble rubbed the wet tip with his thumb then dragged his tongue across the surface.

Holy fuck.” Jonah gasped hard and was suddenly clutching the sheets in his fists. “Fuck, baby…that feels – ” Noble’s tongue slid around the crown. “Uuuh! God! That’s how it feels.”

Encouraged by Jonah’s positive response, Noble took it one step further and wrapped his warm lips around the head, sucking gently.

Oh my god.” Jonah choked, his shoulders shoving hard into the pillows. “Oh fuck, Noble…yes…oh god…that’s it…you’re doing it perfectly, baby…don’t stop.”

Noble slid his hands up and squeezed his hips as he took him in a fraction deeper, moaning loud.

Releasing the sheets, Jonah rubbed his tense hands up and down Noble’s forearms as the young man stroked him, taking as much of him as he could. “Yes, baby…” Jonah panted, throat working with emotion and sexual hunger. His fingers laced with Noble’s as he moaned louder and sucked him with added vigor. “Fuck!” Jonah swallowed hard and squeezed Noble’s fingers between his. His body screamed for release and he wasn’t sure how much of this he could handle before he gave it up. But he wasn’t ready to go there just yet. He untangled his fingers from Noble’s hands and slid them through the man’s hair; the last thing he wanted was to ask him to stop, but as incredible as his mouth felt – he ached to be inside his body.

Jonah gently lifted Noble off him then sat forward again and kissed him hard. “Damn, baby, you do that so good.” He groaned. “And we will definitely come back to this, but for now…” He shifted position and urged Noble to lay down on his stomach then planted kisses all over his back. “I really want to make love to you.”

“I really want that too.” Noble whispered, his voice shaky.

There was a notable tremble in his body as Jonah ran his fingertips down his back then rubbed his hands over his firm cheeks. His lips touched the young man’s delectable flesh, kissing softly, lovingly. “I’ll tell you a little secret, baby.” Jonah murmured as he continued to drop light kisses all over his taut skin.

“What’s that?” Noble moaned and hugged a pillow under his chest.

Jonah smiled. “I worship your body.” He laughed softly. “Then again, that was probably no secret, hm?”

Rather than replying, Noble simply smiled and pressed his face into the pillow.

“Yeah, I didn’t think so.” Jonah kissed the small of his back. “Guess I wasn’t so great at concealing my adoration for your sexiness.”

A muffled laugh sifted out of Noble, followed by another quiet moan as Jonah began to caress the back of his thighs and perfect cheeks. He pushed his thumbs up through the crease slowly then dragged them back down, delving deeper, rubbing and massaging his entrance.

Mmmm.” Noble raised to Jonah’s intimate touch.

The man was beyond beautiful, and desirable. He kissed up the crease of his cheeks then let his slick tongue slip in between.

Fuck.” Noble shoved his face deeper into the pillow, body tensing.

Smiling, Jonah spread him open then ran the firm tip of his tongue from his full sack up to the top of his lovely butt, causing the man to swear again and shudder hard. “Does that feel good, baby?”

Noble replied with a stiff groan and an arch of his ass, begging for more.

“How about this?” He twirled the tip of his tongue around his anal ring then probed the tight puckered hole.

Uuh!” Noble gasped sharp, his head jerking up and back. “Fuck!” His face dropped into the pillow again and a muffled – “Yes” – puffed out of him.

“Okay then.” Jonah murmured, smiling, and shoved his tongue in deeper.

 

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My heart can’t take this, Noble whimpered silently. It’s going to explode.

As if to confirm his suspicions, his heart beat wildly against his ribs until it became difficult to catch his breath. Jonah’s warm, wet tongue pushed in and out of him and he could feel a scream of ecstasy swelling in his throat. Over the past three weeks or so, Jonah had used his hands and mouth on him plenty – but he had never entered him in any way. Not even with his tongue or fingers. Maybe he had been saving it for tonight, to give Noble the full experience of a virgin making love for the very first time.

“Jonah!” He gasped suddenly when the man worked his tongue in extra deep. “Oh my god!” He hadn’t realized just how sensitive his ring was, and the feel of Jonah’s hot, slick tongue thrusting in and out of it had him so hard and in need of release he thought his mind might crumble.

Jonah groaned and withdrew his tongue then nipped gently at his hole and the inner walls of his cheeks.

“Oh god, Jonah!” He panted erratically. “Oh fuck, baby…”

A warm trickle of wetness dropped into his crease then slid down over his entrance, then more joined it and he realized it was saliva. Jonah swirled it around his hole then slowly worked a finger inside him.

“Uh!” Noble bit the pillow, puffing hard as the man’s finger pushed in deeper and deeper until he struck gold. “Fuuck!” Noble cried out, his body jerking as it suddenly exploded with the most pleasurable sensations he’d ever felt in his life. “Oh fuck…fuck…Uuh!

Jonah massaged his spot relentlessly, slipping another finger in to join the first. Noble gasped and cried out, shoving back against his fingers urgently, pushing up on his elbows, his head tilted back. Hard breaths puffed from his lips as he moved with Jonah’s stroking. “Feels incredible, doesn’t it?” Jonah murmured and kissed his ass cheeks, his own breath quick and ragged, then inserted a third finger, working him good.

“Oh my god.” Noble choked, rocking on the man’s strong fingers, his thoughts scattering. “Jonah…please…” He whimpered. “I want you…now…”

Jonah’s wonderful fingers stroked him a few more times then pulled out. He kissed Noble’s ass cheeks softly and whispered, “Don’t move.” He stepped off the bed and was gone for only a moment before he returned. Then a warm gel was being massaged into his hole. He moaned and listened as Jonah slicked himself up good then leaned over the top of him and kissed his shoulder. “Don’t worry, baby. I’ll take it slow. If it starts to hurt too much, then tell me, okay?”

“Okay.” Noble trembled, heart in a frenzy.

Jonah supported himself on one elbow that pressed into the mattress next to Noble, and used his other hand to direct his hard member to Noble’s entrance. He massage his hole with the firm head, nudging gently. “Ready, baby?” he panted, his intense need breaking his voice.

“Mm-Hm.” Noble was shaking, clutching the pillow in his arms. His breath caught hard when Jonah began to push in, his thickness stretching him wide. “Fuck.” He choked, then sucked in a sharp breath when Jonah squeezed in another inch or two – and the man had plenty of inches to shove into him.

Oh my god.” Jonah shuddered fiercely, a sudden emotional strain to his voice. “Fuck, baby…oh god…I might lose my mind, you feel so good.” He grabbed Noble’s hips with both hands and pulled him back gently onto him as he continued to enter his tight inner sleeve.

Noble couldn’t keep from writhing, body twisting and curving, as Jonah took full possession of him. What little pain was present was phased out by the sheer pleasure his lover created inside him.

Jonah…” Noble choked on a whimpering cry, his emotions suddenly exploding, overwhelming him. Tears rose up and spilled over. Then Jonah’s arms were sliding under his chest, hugging Noble’s back to his chest as he pushed in the rest of the way. “Uuh! Fuck!

“Oh god, baby…oh my god…” Jonah panted hard against the nape of his neck. “I love you, Noble. I love you so much.

Sucking in a staggered breath, Noble gasped, “I love you too…

Jonah’s arms tightened and he slowly thrust into him, just short tender pumps at first, nudging Noble’s sweet spot until he was gasping and panting erratically. “Oh my god, Noble…I won’t last long in here…you feel too good, baby.”

The sensation of the man’s heated body pressed tight to his, moving against him, was ushering Noble to the edge. “Jonah…harder…fuck me harder…

Jonah groaned and began to stroke him long, letting him feel every inch thrust and retract, again and again, faster, deeper, harder.

Noble clawed the bed. “Uh-Uh-Uh!” Then Jonah’s fingers laced through his and squeezed hard as he fucked him with urgency, hot breath puffing Noble’s hair, heating the back of his neck.

“Oh fuck!” Jonah cried. “Oh my god! Noble!” He sat back on his heels suddenly, lifting Noble up with him, his back plastered against Jonah’s damp chest. He held Noble in his lap and pumped him hard, taking hold of Noble’s stiff member and stroking him hurriedly. “Oh fuck-fuck-baby…I can’t hold it!

The man squeezed Noble’s pulsing cock and snapped his fist up and down his shaft, propelling him over the edge into that sweet abyss of ecstasy. Noble jerked hard when the orgasm gripped him, his back hitting forcefully against Jonah’s chest, pulling a grunt from the man but he didn’t stop. His nails dug into Jonah’s arms and he screamed, his head dropping back onto Jonah’s shoulder, chest heaving and hips thrusting erratically as Jonah pleasured him inside and out. His body locked then released and he screamed again, his creamy white juices squirting out forcefully as Jonah worked him good and thorough.

Uuh!” Jonah yelled and his arm tightened around Noble’s waist, squeezing hard, his thrusts erratic. “Fuuuck! Baby! Ahhh!!” A sudden rush of liquid heat filled him, pumping into him. Jonah pushed him back down on the bed and hugged him fiercely as he fucked through his orgasm until he was lying on top of him, panting, his body scalding to the touch and slick with sweat. “Oh my god, baby,” he trembled, lips touching his shoulder blade, cheek flat against his back. “Oh Noble…baby.” He kissed his hot skin weakly, gasping. “Tell me it was good for you…’cause if you say you don’t want to do this again…I’ll die…right here and now…this poor heart will go belly up.”

Noble laughed softly, tiredly against the pillow. Not do this again? Was the man out of his mind?

Shifting off him, Jonah rolled Noble onto his back then covered his body again, holding him tight. “I need at these lips.” He moaned and kissed him with a swell of passion that made Noble’s head spin. “Did I keep my promise?” He whispered into Noble’s mouth. “Was your mind blown?”

Noble smiled, eyes heavy with exhaustion. “You’re lucky I can put together a coherent sentence.”

 

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Sleep quickly grabbed them both and dragged them under. Jonah wasn’t certain how long he’d been out when the shift of Noble’s body inside his embrace drew him back to the bare edge of consciousness. The man’s back was pressed against his chest, his head resting on Jonah’s arm, his soft, damp hair tickling his skin. He shifted again in his sleep and a soft exhalation of breath slipped out between his lips. Jonah smiled and kissed the curve of his neck. “I love you, Noble.” He whispered. “I loved you from the start.” He knew the young man wasn’t hearing him, still caught in his dreams. “I was so jealous of Becca. That first look in your eyes and I was gone. I wanted you for my own so bad.” He kissed his neck again then nuzzled his ear. “Maybe that’s why I acted so obnoxious…because at that point in time, I was sure it was too much to hope for that I would ever feel your willing touch, ever hear you tell me you loved me…or even have you look at me without the guilt of what you felt inside.” His arms tightened around his love and he closed his eyes. “And now that I have you, baby. I won’t ever let you go.”

“You better not.” Noble mumbled, voice heavy with sleep.

Jonah groaned and shoved his face into his neck. “You tricked me.” He whispered and kissed his tacky skin. “I thought you were asleep.”

“I was.” Noble moaned. “But all your talking woke me up.”

“Sorry.” Jonah chuckled softly and kissed his shoulder. “Want me to be quiet so you can go back to sleep?”

“Too late.” He sighed. “I’m already awake.” He pulled Jonah’s arms more snuggly around him and went quiet. Just when Jonah was sure had indeed fallen back to sleep, he whispered, “You were right.”

“About what?” Jonah murmured into his hair.

He didn’t answer right away and Jonah could feel the rapid beat of his heart, the soft rush of his breath. He slid his fingers between Jonah’s and squeezed gently. “I do want him.”

“What?” Jonah’s mind was still fogged with sleep and a strong residue of lingering ecstasy, so his thoughts weren’t coming together and computing very well just yet. “Want who?”

Noble nestled his head back against the curve of Jonah’s shoulder. “Jory.” He whispered, then swallowed hard and emotion began to squeeze his words. “It’s crazy, I know. And I know it isn’t a real possibility right now. It’s just…” His throat worked and he shook his head. “Never mind.” He whispered thickly. “Forget I said anything. I’m sure Rebecca and Keith will have no problem adopting him. He’ll be well loved and that’s what matters.”

A soft tremor swept through him and Jonah hugged him closer. “Why is it crazy?” he murmured. “And I don’t see why it can’t be a possibility. We love each other, our commitment to one another is every bit as solid and grounded as Becca’s and Keith’s. Why can’t we think about it?”

Noble released a shaky sigh. “What if we only think we’re ready…but it turns out we’re not?”

“I saw how you were with him.” Jonah whispered. “And how he was with you.” He smiled and kissed his ear softly. “He’s already your boy.”

Noble turned over and wrapped his arms around Jonah. “I don’t want to make a mistake that will end up hurting him.”

“Taking a child into your life and loving him with all your heart…that isn’t a mistake, and it certainly won’t hurt him.”

Noble laid his head on Jonah’s shoulder. “What if Rebecca and Keith, or even Colleen and your dad…fight us on it?” He whispered uncertainly. “Maybe they’ve accepted our love for each other, but…what if they’re against us adopting a child?”

“Well,” Jonah said quietly. “First of all, we don’t need their permission. And second, there’s no way my dad would be against it, even if the others were.”

Drawing back, Noble’s eyes were damp as he gazed at him. “Is this what you want…right now?”

“It is.” Jonah murmured without hesitation.

Noble smiled and tears welled thicker. “Me too.” His eyes shifted to the ring on his finger. “And I think that means I’m ready for this…to be more.”

His heart swelling to dangerous proportions, Jonah grinned and hugged him tight, squeezing until Noble grunted, but even then he didn’t try to pull out of the embrace. “So does that mean…” Jonah loosened his arms just enough to kiss Noble softly on the lips. “…that you will marry me?”

Noble just smiled and returned his kiss.

 

 

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NOTE:  I can’t believe this story is over. As always, I feel a little bit depressed lol but they will go on J Of all my stories, this is the one that I think touched me the most personally because of the ‘spiritual’ element. It bothers me a lot when people use God and the Bible as weapons – rather than elements of love, as they are meant to be. I feel that everyone has a right to believe as they chose concerning homosexuality, as well as anything else. But when their ‘belief’ transforms to hate, then that’s when it becomes wrong. No one has the ‘right’ to abuse anyone with their hatred – whether verbally or physically or emotionally. And absolutely NO ONE has the right to tell another that God hates them.

 

I had a big problem with Rebecca’s attitude – because there are so many in the real world who share it. In the story, she at least had reasons – though not necessarily justified; it is never okay to treat someone the way she treated Jonah and Noble. But where her heart came around to see the light, and the beauty of love in all its forms…I can only hope others who read this, who have animosity for gays, might find their way to that same light.

 

Again, thank you all for taking this journey with me. It was kind of a rough ride, but we always get through it, right? J There will, of course, be a second book. I can’t promise that Rebecca and Colleen will remain “loveable” when it comes to Jonah and Noble actually wanting to take a child into their home and their lives. Some people are okay with gay relationships in the abstract, but don’t believe it is in the best interest of a child to be placed there. Which is, of course, ‘bullshit’ J some of the happiest, most well-adjusted kids have gay parents. But I never know how things will play out – my people never tell me anything ahead of time J So we’ll just have to wait and see what develops.

 

I love you all! And thank you for your wonderful comments and support J God Bless!

 

 


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