Reminiscing a bit

A Love Story

When I fell in love with Dan Dan , I really hoped that she would feel the same way too. We talked online for days and days, months and months and hour after hour and I was naive enough to think [even at my age] that this might someday be converted into love. It's true, I didn't have my most powerful weapons with me. Money and sex, so it could be said that I was fighting a battle at a huge disadvantage but  I was tired of getting girls to fall in love with me on the basis of 'how I might improve their lives.' Sadly it seems my cynicism will be rewarded with affirmation.On a brighter note and to cheer myself up, I believe that I was just unlucky to choose the wrong girl to give my love to. A girl with her mind and heart elsewhere. 

 

I genuinely wanted to make her life better and if I was going to be sad about one thing,it would be that she didn't see a life with me as something that would make her happy and fulfilled. At one point I thought she had warmed to me to the extent that she was considering having a relationship with me but this flame was quickly extinguished. I tried to explain to her that she would never find another person who cared for her as deeply as I did and worried about every aspect of her life. But I was foolish, inasmuch this is not what she wanted. Unlike most people, she doesn't thrive on love and closeness, in fact it's almost the opposite. The relationship I have with her now is as perfect as it gets for her. It's the dream scenario for her. Having a close friend, a man, sexiness , exclusivity, a confidant. Basically most of her needs are taken care of with me.

As for me, I'm happy too. I get to see the woman I love every day. I look forward to her changing moods. Her gentle loving moods followed by her callous and hurtful moods. They all make up the person that she is. Of course I still live in hope that one day she will come to her senses and it's also difficult to have feelings for another person under these conditions. But in life, I have learned, it's difficult to have everything  that you want and sometimes you have to compromise. Yes. I failed to win her heart but I was perhaps a little bit too sure of myself for my own good. I have no doubt that one day we will meet and I'm also sure that that meeting will not help either of us as we struggle to look for direction in our lives.

 

And then one evening in the not so far distant future, she will be in some hotel room with a Japanese man who has a good job. Probably someone she has known for a while. He will be busy fucking her, getting himself excited and she will be doing what she calls, 'following the man.' Maybe she might even suck his dick for a while to pretend that she is a worldly woman . After sex they will go their respective ways. They will agree to meet at the same time next week. They might tell each other that they love each other, who knows? He will be happy that he has somewhere to put his dick each week and she can tell everyone that she has a boyfriend. He won't know how she gets home or what she does for the rest of the night, he'll be busy with other things.

 

I will probably be in bed with a skinny ,young, plain girl. She will have a small tight ass which I can hold whilst she is sitting on my stiff dick. She will probably have long hair and small tits. I will be able to feel her tight wet pussy grip my cock as she rides herself to a hard climax. I will be thinking, 'It's ok ,you enjoy yourself, you deserve this.' She will sleep in my bed and she will be in love. On a good day I might fuck her in the morning, so that when she wakes up she will already feel that she is being filled and pleasured before she goes to work.

 

Later the same evening Dan Dan will be in her gown sitting on her bed eating pot noodles looking at Edward's YouTube Channel. Her body will be scrubbed clean and her hair tied behind her head. She will be laughing at Edward making a fool of himself talking about current affairs topics online.I will be playing with my new friend's tangled hair as she sleeps in my arms, breathing softly against my chest. I will be thinking of Dan Dan, wondering what she is doing and whether she is eating properly.

That night we will both go to sleep pretending that we are happy.