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I realised immediately that I had collapsed...

Funny enough, yesterday morning I had woken up and felt better than I had for a long time. Feeling energised I’d had breakfast followed by a long soak in a very hot bath. This hadn’t been a good idea with hindsight. Anyway, after the bath I had then got dressed and feeling motivated had then commenced on giving the flat, and in particular the kitchen, a bloody good clean. In between cleaning I was also drinking quite a lot of tea and also playing the financials on which involved predicting share and commodity prices. I hasten to add that if one kept cool and wasn’t too greedy or took too many risks then money could be made; I had once made a £100 in a week and had wondered at the time if I should become a ‘professional gambler’.

But I have digressed.

Anyway, it was as I was sat down placing a bet that I experienced this strange sensation of the flat, with me in it, being picked up as though by a giant and then being spun round in his hand. I was also aware of objects falling to the floor. I then found myself lying under the table with a load of pens and pencils beside me along with the pot I kept them in. I realised immediately that I had collapsed. The strange thing was that apart from a very slight ‘pulsating’ of my vision and breaking out into a cold sweat I’d felt physically okay. Psychologically though I was extremely scared. I’d immediately speculated as to whether I’d suffered a stroke or a minor heart attack and decided that the best course of action was to stay where I was for a while as I didn’t want to provoke another and more serious attack of what had precipitated my initial collapse. As I lay there keeping as still as possible I speculated reaching up to the table and phoning for an ambulance but decided not to as they would have to break down two doors to get to me. Also, I wasn’t that convinced that they could actually do something for me since I had been complaining to my GP for some time that I had been suffering from intermittent dizziness, nausea, clamminess and a strange visual disturbance in which my vision when I turned my head quickly took a second to catch up, only for him to tell me that the symptoms were either due to Meniere’s Disease or stress. I had once put it to him that it was perhaps the recurrent dizzy spells that were making me stressed, but he ignored that. To be fair he had arranged a CT scan which revealed nothing and subsequently a MRI scan which picked up a very small scar in my brain which at the time they had diagnosed as a ‘pinhead’ stroke. But after later analysis by a neurologist they decided it was most likely a natural and not uncommon ‘fold’ in the brain. After these rather unsatisfactory consultations with the GP I had unhappily concluded that either they didn’t know what was wrong with me or that the doctor did know what was wrong and that he was protecting me from the knowledge that I was suffering from something serious that nothing could be done about. Either way I had lost faith in the medical profession.

So, I had lain under the table for quite a while and after a short bit I had begun to feel perfectly okay. I had then got up and dragged myself to the sofa where I had lain down and eventually drifted off to sleep. About twenty minutes later now feeling totally recovered I had got up but thinking constantly about what had happened. I soon resigned myself to the depressing fact that I was probably going to die soon and to make the most of life whilst I could. I also called my son, who was twenty-one, and asked him to pop round so that I could have a chat with him.

In the evening I watched a programme, narrated by Ian Hislop, about the large scale closures of railways in Britain and the end of steam. The programme had evoked a strong feeling of melancholy in me not just about the end of the ‘golden age’ of railways but about my own life. I’d also realised that I was only four days away from the twentieth anniversary of my mother’s death and had speculated morbidly that maybe I would die on that particular day.

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Phoned up the Company this morning and cancelled my ‘sickness counselling’ – far too ill. I still haven’t told the doctor though Juki, who’s been very good, says she’ll go with me. I‘ve taken it very easy all day as I’m still very shaken up by what happened. I do not believe I am long for this world now. I went shopping but found it an ordeal and was glad to get back.

Earlier today I also called my son and asked him to pop round so that I could have a chat with him.

Read more of Legion of the Damned – great book.

Juki also phoned and it was good to talk to her – I feel quite lonely at times.


Submitted: September 17, 2022

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sweet lemon

I suspect that HOT baths and showers are taboo for us older folk
I think you are right in looking back on your medical episode and feeling a little uneasy about the hot bath.

Sun, September 25th, 2022 3:08am

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That was back in 2008. Weird and worrying day. I'd woken up feeling perfectly fine. I'd had a rather too hot bath then commenced to clean the kitchen whilst drinking too much tea. At the time I was off sick because I'd been feeling rundown, often mildly nauseous and at times borderline dizzy. To cut a long story short a few years later I was diagnosed with an irregular heartbeat. I was also physically exhausted by working long hours and rotating shifts. After I left the job, I began to get better. I'm still not perfect but I learned to respect my body's limits. Thanks.

Sat, September 24th, 2022 11:26pm

DampKitten

What you're describing does not sound like a seizure to me, babe.

I'd call it 'syncope' or 'near syncope' - the most common cause being cardiac dysrhythmia, though it could also be a precursor to stroke. We refer to such precursors as a TIA (transient ischemic attack). I'd suggest you start taking an aspirin every day as a preventative measure.

In the meantime, I think the CT and MRI were good ideas. I don't think you have Menier's disease as your symptoms with that should be constant. What you describe are intermittent episodes of losing consciousness. That's not Menier's. Emotional stress does not cause syncope.

From this point, you need a carotid artery ultrasound to rule out severe plaque and stenosis. You also need a cardiac echo, a cardiac stress test, and a cardiac Holter monitor to check for dysrhythmia.

Ask your doctor to set those up for you. I assume you're not having chest pain, but you don't have to be to warrant this workup. There's something going on, so you need some answers. Get it checked, sweetie.

Mon, October 3rd, 2022 5:00am

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Thanks DK for that. This incident happened back in November 2008. To cut a long story short (not like me as I love to embellish haha) I started to feel better after a bit, got married and then got a job. Then in 2013 I came home after work felt very weak and dropped to the floor. I felt perfectly fine as soon as it happened. The wife called 111 and a doctor came round and couldn't find anything wrong. I then underwent a long series of tests which revealed an irregular heartbeat. It wasn't considered serious in itself but a year later I had a pacemaker fitted. I also had an ultrasound performed which showed I had a very slightly enlarged right ventricle but no other problems. Touch wood, I've been fine since. I attend annual check-ups for the condition and have been told that the pacemaker doesn't kick in that much - it's been turned down. However, I do suffer from moderate sleep apnoea and wear a mask at night. It was suspected that that condition may have helped cause the intermittent heart beats. Still, you never know in this world, maybe I will just drop down dead one day - a cruel loss to the world as talent like mine is so rare :-)

Sun, October 2nd, 2022 10:18pm

DampKitten

Yes it would be a cruel loss! I’m glad you had that taken care of!

Sorry, I missed the date on that. I assumed it was more immediate. You’re right about sleep apnea. It’s the number one cause for atrial fibrillation and definitely contributes to other dysthymia. You were fortunate to not have a worse outcome having gone so long without that being addressed following your first event.

Keep your battery charged, baby!!

Tue, October 4th, 2022 2:21am

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Thanks DK, I post quite randomly so not surprising anyone would think it's a recent event. Apparently my condition isn't quite as bad as they first thought but it's still something I need to take care of. I do sometimes think that one day I'll just keel over and that'll be that. In the meantime I intend to continue with the stories. I still have so many ideas yet so little time.

Thanks!

Mon, October 3rd, 2022 10:08pm

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