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A Rockstar's Heart

Novel By: IceBreaker

(FINISHED) Bethany Borges is a girl who falls for a rockstar. Then it turns out that he isn't as perfect as it seems. View table of contents...


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Submitted:Jun 2, 2012    Reads: 247    Comments: 9    Likes: 1   

Chapter 25: It's not you and me

I was looking into the mirror. I had on a dark red tube top with a leather half jacket on with a pair of black skinny jeans and dark red pumps. My hair fell loosely down my back. I had on black eyeliner and dark red lipstick. I didn't look like Bethany Mary Alice Borges. I looked like……a rock star. I smiled at my appearance.

I heard the honk of a horn and I looked out my window. Lance's white car was in the driveway. I took a deep breath. I had my first song playing in my head. My nerves were through the roof.

"You'll do great, baby." My mother said. I turned and looked at her. "Thanks, mom." I said. She walked over and hugged me tightly.

When she released me, I grabbed my keys and walked downstairs. I was good at walking in heels thank god or I would have been fell and broke my face. I walked out of the house and got in Lance's car.

He leaned over and kissed me and then pulled back. "Ready?" He asked. I nodded. He looked forward and smiled.

"Hey, Beth." Said a voice. I looked back. "Oh hey An-" I saw Alicia sitting next to him. I bit my lip and turned back in my seat.

"Alicia's playing bass." Andy said." My eyebrows pulled together. Since when does she know how to play bass?

"Nervous?" Lance asked. I nodded. His right hand grabbed my left and intertwined our fingers together.

"Lets do this shit." Andy said. I laughed at him as we pulled up to a tall building.

"How many people will be here?" I asked.

"Couple hundred." Lance answered. My eyes grew wide. "What?" I asked. He laughed.

"I'm kidding. I meant a couple thousand." He said as he got out of the car. I gulped as I opened my door. Andy and Alicia got out and walked hand in hand. Alicia glanced back at me for a second while they walked ahead into the building. Lance came over to my side and I was now pressed against the car as his body was pressed against mine. "You look really beautiful tonight." He whispered in my ear. Then he started nibbling on my neck and I smiled. "So you like the rock star version of me?"

"I love you no matter what you are." He said looking into my eyes. We both leaned in at the same time and pressed our foreheads together. "You got this, Beth. This is all you. This is the night where you prove to the whole world that you are somebody important." He said. I nodded.

"Lets go." He whispered. He wrapped his hand around my waist and we walked into the tall bricked building. A buff man with brown skin and a bald head looked at us. "You're part of the Icebreaker band?" He asked. Me and Lance nodded.

"Come to the back." He said as he led us there. There were huge mirrors and benches with dozens of clothing and shoes. I smiled.

I looked over to Alicia who was practicing on the bass guitar and she didn't really sound bad. In fact, she sounded amazing. At some point, she stopped and looked at me. I looked down at my pumps and then looked back at her.

She went over to the shoes and picked out some leather knee high boots. She slowly came over to me and held them out. They would look better with this outfit. I slowly grabbed them and slipped out the pumps and put the boots on and looked in the mirror. Yeah this looked better. I looked back at her. She was biting her lip. "Beth, I'm so sorry I didn't tell you." She said. I shook my head. "Alicia, it doesn't even matter anymore. That is over. You, Lance, and Andy are important to me. I love you all." I said. Alicia nodded and hugged me and I hugged her back just as tight.

"Awww." Said Andy. We both turned and flipped him off and he smiled.

"You all ready?" Lance asked with his white guitar in his hand. I breathed deeply and nodded. Alicia nodded and so did Andy.

We all at the same time walked out on the stage and the audience immediately cheered for us. My nerves weren't going down as I stood in front of hundreds. Even thousands of people. A spotlight glared down at us and fear really began running through my body. A hand rested on my shoulder. I turned slightly and Lance pressed his lips against mine and leaned his forehead against mine. "You got this." He whispered. I nodded and he stood 3 feet behind me and began playing his guitar.

After almost ten notes, Alicia joined in with the bass and then Andy joined in with the drums. This was it. This was my moment. I didn't close my eyes like I normally did. I kept them open as I began to sing into the mic.

The second I saw you.

The heat flooded in my veins.

Never felt so strongly.

Hoping you felt the same.

But It turns out I was wrong.

I never thought you'd turn out that way.

I'm singing this song.

So you can feel my pain.

Out of everything we went through,

I've always counted on you.

It was you who made my life start.

Then you just staked my heart.

I've always thought you were the one.

But you were just having fun.

I thought that you loved me,

But the whole thing was phony.

I believed your love.

We were perfect for each other.

But I guess I was misleaded.

And now we hate each other.

You were my first everything.

Never thought this could happen to me.

I thought I was imagining.

But there you were in front of me.

But I keep forgetting.

Our love was nothing.

You never loved me.

You never trusted me.

Now it's all over.

We're not together no longer.

I really thought that you cared.

I couldn't have been any wronger.

Out of everything we went through,

I've always counted on you.

It was you who made my life start.

Then you just staked my heart.

I've always thought you were the one.

But you were just having fun.

I thought that you loved me,

But the whole thing was phony.

Out of everything we went through,

I've always counted on you.

It was you who made my life start.

Then you just staked my heart.

I've always thought you were the one.

But you were just having fun.

I thought that you loved me,

But the whole thing was phony.

Now it's over.

Now we're done.

It's over now.

Now you're gone.

Now it's over.

Now we're done.

It's over now.

Now you're gone.

The music slowly ended and there was a roar of cheers and applause. I couldn't believe it. I smiled and looked back at Lance who winked at me. I turned back around to look back out at the hyper audience who were cheering. I almost wanted to cry I never felt so happy in my life. They actually liked me.

We all left to go backstage. We were all pumped up. "That was fucking awesome." Andy said hugging Alicia.

"You were amazing." Lance said holding me. I smiled at him and he leaned down and kissed me.

Someone cleared their throat and we all turned. Logan was standing in the doorway.

"What the hell are you doing here?" Lance asked. Logan kept his eyes on me. "Can I talk to you, Bethany?" He asked. I bit my lip and looked up at Lance. He was looking back at me and nodded. I didn't need his permission but he saw that I wanted it. Lance slowly let go of me as I walked with Logan out of the room into the hallway. He leaned against the dark red walls and placed his hands in his pockets.

He didn't speak for a while. I just stared at him. He was still as beautiful as ever. His green eyes met mine. "Was that song about me?" He asked. I swallowed and looked down at my boots.

"Maybe." I muttered.

Logan sucked in a breath. "I figured."

"How did you know I would be performing tonight?" I asked. He shrugged. "I didn't. All I knew was that a new band called Icebreaker was performing and I wanted to check them out. And……..Andy also put it on his Facebook status."

I rolled my eyes. "Of course." I said. Logan smiled a little. He licked his lips. "I was lying when I said I cheated on you. I didn't. I was a hundred percent faithful to you. And you may not believe me but you deserved to know."

"Well thank you." I said. Logan nodded. "You did fantastic out there by the way. I……I literally felt my heart stop when I heard you singing." Logan said.

I smiled a little. "Thanks." I whispered.

"Hey, remember that day you were singing that Paramore song in my basement and I recorded you and put it on a CD and told you I'm going to give it to a guy?"

I nodded. I remember every moment I was in Logan's basement.

"He's out there in the audience. Throughout the whole song, he was saying how amazing you sound. He wants to sign you."

"What? Are you fucking kidding me?" I asked. Logan, smiling, shook his head.

I ran my hands over my face and began to think. I was still in school and I wanted to finish it. I sighed. "I have to finish school."

Logan's smile vanished. "Beth. Come on. Everybody doesn't get this opportunity. This may not come back."

"I know. It's just I'm not ready to be a rock star yet." I said. Logan studied me for a moment.

"You're stupid if you don't do this."

"No, you're stupid. Fuck off." I said.

"Beth." He grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him. "Let me go." I said. But he didn't. Logan was staring at me emotionless. "Let me go!" I screamed. The door opened and Lance stormed out and grabbed Logan's arm and ripped his hand away from my arm.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" He asked. Logan glared at him.

"Touch her again and I will kill you." Lance said. His face was as emotionless as Logan's.

"Then you'll just have to kill me because I still love her."

"You're such a fucking liar. You never loved her." Lance said. Logan pushed Lance and he swung and his fist connected with Logan's nose. Logan fell onto the floor and Lance kicked Logan and Logan grabbed his ankle and made Lance lose his balance and fall onto the floor also. "Stop it!" I yelled. Logan wrapped his hands around Lance's neck and started choking him. Andy ran out and tried to break them up but then Lance and Logan swung at the same time at both of them punched Andy at the same time and he fell to the floor. Alicia ran over to him.

"Stop!" I yelled going over and pulling Logan's hair so he'd get off of Lance. Lance then pushed Logan off and he fell hard against the wall. Lance got up and stared at Logan with hate. He grabbed Logan by his jacket and pushed him against the other wall. I went over trying to break them up, as I tried to do so, one of their fist connected with my nose and I fell down hard and bumped my head. I think I heard a crack. Everything became blurry. But I could hear the echoes of voices. My nose stung. The back of my head did too. The pain was excruciating. I felt like my head was throbbing painfully. Everything was now in slow motion. And my eyes slowly closed.


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