Chapter 19: The date
“Are you sure you want to do this? I mean I know you’re in high school and all but really, Beth, an abortion is a little extreme don’t you think?” Alicia asked.
“I hate having to do this too. My dad will be pissed off when he finds out about my pregnancy. I still have a life. I need to live it. I’m too young and it’ll be too difficult for me. I have to do this, Alicia.” I said as got out of the car. We were at the abortion clinic. I was nervous. This is the last thing I wanted to do but it was all I could do. I know I’ll regret this and I’m against killing babies and I would love nothing but to meet this bundle of joy inside of me. But this baby will born into a world where he or she is not going to be able to get everything it needs. I would never want to put someone through this kind of life. Alicia followed me as I got closer to the door.
I couldn’t believe she was about to do this but this was her decision. I still can’t believe Logan left her. That idiot. I wonder if she’ll be with Lance now. I know he likes her and she has to feel some slight attraction towards him. Now probably wouldn’t be a good time to ask her. She walked in and I followed her. While she went to the counter to talk to an old lady with yellow teeth, I sat down in a burgundy seat next to a guy. He had black hair and was texting on his IPhone. His foot was propped up by his skateboard. His eyes were dark.
“Nice skateboard.” I commented. He slowly looked to me and gave me a fake smile. “Nice skirt.” He commented and looked back down to his phone.
“Which IPhone is that?” I asked.
“4S.” He said. I smiled.
“I got the fifth one.” I said. He looked at me. “So?” He asked irritated.
“So, I’m just saying.” I said. His eyebrows pulled together.
“Lady, why the hell are you talking to me? I mean you’re hot and all and I want to bang the shit out of you but your voice is annoying. Do me a favor and shut the fuck up.”
“My friend is going through something and its freaking me out and I need someone to talk to.”
“Are you pregnant?” He asked irritation still in his voice.
“My best friend is and her baby’s father is a rock star.” I whispered.
The boy scoffed. “Yeah, who?” He asked.
“Logan Nadilin.” I answered. The boy’s eyes grew wide. “Holy shit. I fucking love the Daredevils. Their shit is awesome.”
“You do? My boyfriend is the drummer.”
“Rad. God, their best song is ‘Don’t take shit.’ That was their best. Since you’re fucking around with the drummer, know when their next song is coming out?” He asked.
“The Daredevils are done. The lead singer got in a fight with the guitarist and….”
“Are you telling everyone my business?” Beth asked as she sat down next to me. She had a clip board with a piece of paper and a pen in her hand.
“Just telling this kid here about the band breaking up. Turns out he’s a huge fan.”
“Were you sleeping with the lead singer?” He asked. Beth glared at him and slowly looked down to her paper.
“Tough breakup.” I whispered. Beth sighed and glared at me. I leaned over slightly. “Are you sure you want this?” I whispered.
“Of course not. I don’t want this but……If I can’t give this baby all the things it needs, then I can’t have it.”
“So you’re going to kill it?”
“Stop trying to make me feel guilty, Alicia.” Beth said. I sighed and leaned back in my seat and waited.
I had to come back in two weeks. I was kind of nervous about this whole thing. I just wondered if I was going to regret this or not. Me and Alicia walked out of the clinic and went back to Lance’s car. I slipped in the front seat and Alicia slipped in the back. “Got everything done?” He asked.
“If you mean the paperwork then yes. The actual……thing can’t be done until two weeks from now.”
“You sure this is the right thing to do, Beth?”
“No. I’m not sure. Look, I know you and Alicia think I’m getting rid of this baby only because Logan is gone but that’s not true. Maybe I will regret getting this baby aborted but I need to get my life together before I can have kids.”
“I guess I understand that.” Alicia said.
“Where am I taking you to?”
“Andy’s house.” Alicia said. Lance drove us and parked in the front of the house. Andy was waiting in the yard. Alicia squealed and got out of the car. She ran to Andy and he picked her up and twirled her around.
“I want to talk to you.” Lance said. I looked at him. He looked unsure about something. “So I know its been a week since Logan left,” He began. My stomach turned at the mention of Logan’s name.
“You seem kind of off since he’s left.”
“Well he’s had a big impact on my life.”
“I know, Beth. I just…….do you want to go on a date with me?” He asked. I couldn’t stop from blushing. “I don’t know, Lance.”
“I know you’ll never be over Logan. I just want us to have a night together. If it doesn’t work out, I’ll never ask you out again.”
I stared at him and he stared back at me. What should I say? It was just a date. It was probably going to be a one time thing. It probably wasn’t ever going to happen again. I chewed on my bottom lip.
“Okay Lance. I’ll go on a date with you.” I said. Lance smiled. “Great tonight at ten?”
“Why so late?” I asked.
Lance shrugged. “I like the night time.” He said. I smiled.
“Should I dress up or something?” I asked. Lance shook his head. “Nope. Dress how you normally would.”
“Okay.” I said. I got out of the car and he back out of the driveway and drove off. I turned to see Andy on top of Alicia in the grass making out with her. I rolled my eyes as I walked towards them. Andy looked up from kissing Alicia. “Want to join, Beth?” He asked smiling. Alicia punched Andy in his face and they began play fighting.
“Lance just asked me out.” I said. Andy and Alicia stopped wrestling and looked up at me. “He just asked me out and I said yes.”
“Did you say it just to be nice or because you actually want to?”
I thought for a second. “Probably both.” I admitted.
“Hmmm. Good for you, Beth.” Alicia said. My eyebrows pulled together. “You were pissed off at Lance like a week and a half ago because he kissed me.” I said.
“Yeah that was then when you had Logan. But Logan outpricked Lance so its okay now. Go out. Have fun.”
“I plan to.” I said.
A few hours later, I was wearing tight dark blue jeans. A red tube top and a jean jacket and red baby doll shoes. There was a red head band in my hair and I had on red bead earrings and three bracelets and a necklace to match. I sprayed some Victoria secret perfume on and looked at myself in the mirror. There was a smile on my face but if you look closely, you can see the pain and hurt that Logan has caused me. Sad thing is that I missed him and I loved him.
But I can’t mope around. I put my keys in my pocket and ran downstairs. Lance is already downstairs standing by the door. I smiled at the sight of him.
“Ready?” He asked. I nodded and he grabbed my hand and brought me outside. “So where are we going?” I asked as we both got into the car.
“This isn’t going to be like normal dates, Beth.”
“We’re not going to go rob anyone right?” I asked jokingly. Lance smirked. “Nope.” Then he pulled out of my driveway.
Lance drove to a small building and parked in the parking lot that had about ten cars in it. I looked at him. “What is this place?” I asked. Lance smiled and got out of the car. I soon followed. For some reason I felt nervous. Lance grabbed my hand and led me to a brown door. He smiled at me before he opened the door. And when he opened it, a blastof music poured into my ears. Lance led me through the building and shut the door. All around were people dancing to a song a woman was singing. Everyone seemed so lost in the song. It was hot in the building partially because of all the dancing and moving around. Everyone seemed to be smiling and having a good time. Lance brought us to an area on the dance floor. He slid his jacket off while smirking at me. “Come on. Be free, Bethany.” He said. I smiled at him and then slid my jean jacket off and it fell down to the dance floor.
“Know how to dance?” He asked. I shook my head. “But I’ll try. I’m sure the music will influence me!” I yelled over the music. He nodded and smiled. “Same here!”
As the music began to seep into my ears. It began to seep into my heart and into my soul and before I knew it, I was dancing. More like grinding against Lance. And he didn’t seem to mind. His hands were on my hips and I was going almost out of control but my body matched the rhythm of the music. It wasn’t innocent dancing. This was sexual dancing. Lance’s hands were all over my body but I didn’t mind. I was enjoying this moment of not having to think of anything right now but the rhythm of the music. My eyes were closed and my hair was whipping back and forth. It was like everything was now in slow motion. No. It was like everyone else was moving at normal speed and only me and Lance were in slow motion. I could feel his hard-on whenever I was dancing against him. But it didn’t make me feel any kind of uncomfortable. If anything, it made me want to dance more. And that’s exactly what I did.
When me and Lance left, I was sweaty and so was Lance. “That was fun.” I said breathless. Lance laughed and handed me my jacket. We got in the car and he began driving.
“How did you find that place? It’s like in the cut.”
“I know. My brother Jake told me about it. Just a place to let loose.”
“I want to go again.”
“We will. Anytime you want to.” He said smiling. He stopped the car at a house. “Is this your house?” I asked. He smiled and shook his head. “Nope. My ex girlfriend’s. Come on. Get out of the car.” He said opening his door. I opened mine. “What are we doing here?” I asked. He grabbed my hand and led me to the side of the house and then into the back yard where there was a huge circular swimming pool. I looked at Lance. “No. No. I’m not getting in her pool. Let’s just go somewhere else.” I said trying to lead him away. Lance pulled me close to him and looked down in my eyes. Our lips were inches from each others. “Don’t be a baby.” He said with a smirk on his face. “I’m not being a baby.” I said. Lance sighed and looked to the left. “Oh shit is that Taylor Lautner?” He asked. Without thinking, I turned and I suddenly was being thrown in the water. And then he jumped in also. I wiped the water out of my eyes and glared at him. “You’re an idiot. I don’t like water!”
Lance smiled and swam over to me. This whole thing reminded me of that night with Logan. That night he first told me that he loved me. But now I was with his best friend on a date and I was in the pool of his ex girlfriend and if she was Lance’s ex girl, she had to have been Logan’s ex girl.
“How long can you hold your breath?” He asked. I smiled at the challenge and ducked my head beneath the luke warm water. I swam to the bottom and opened my eyes for a second to see Lance right down beside me. He swam over to me and sat down at the bottom. I sat down also. I stayed down there for forty one seconds and then went back up for air. Lance stayed under for a little under two minutes. I was impressed. We got out of the water and gotten back into his car. “How many more stops?” I asked. He smirked. “Just one.” He said.
He stopped in a grassy area on a hill. You could see every bit of New York from up here. We sat on his car and looked below us at all of what New York had to offer. “I never been this high before.” I said. Lance looked at me and smiled. “Logan should have taken you up here.”
“Well he didn’t. It’s okay.” I said shrugging. Lance looked at me. “He didn’t appreciate you.”
“Yes he did, Lance.”
“No. No he didn’t. You should have let someone who appreciate it take it.”
My eyebrows pulled together. “What are you talking about?”
“Your virginity, Beth. You gave it to someone whose whole life is about sex and who move from girl to girl. I would have appreciated and respected it if I could have been the one to take it.” His brown eyes looked into mine.
“I don’t know what you want me to say to that, Lance. I was maybe stupid for falling for Logan but I can’t go back in time and change the time I spent with him. No matter how bad I want to.”
“You won’t be me because of him.” It was a statement not a question. I bit my lip. I liked Lance. I can admit that but I will always love Logan no matter how much he pissed me off.
“I’m sorry, Lance.” I whispered. He grabbed my hand. “He broke your heart. But I can help you fix it, Beth. I could make it better.”
“I know you can. You make me happy. So happy and I loved coming out with you tonight but…….I can’t be with you. It just wouldn’t be right. I love Logan. I want to make sure that there’s no other boy in my heart before I get involved with another.” I said.
“You won’t ever forget about Logan Nadilin. No one ever does.”
“I know.” I sighed deeply and looked over at Lance. He looked back at me. An unexpected tear rolled out of my eye and Lance used his finger to wipe it away. “You want to go home?” He asked. I slowly nodded and he nodded. We both got off of the car and into the car. He soon stopped in front of my house. “Can I drive you to school tomorrow?” He asked. I smiled at him. “Okay.” I said. Lance smiled. “I’ll see you.” He leaned over and kissed my cheek softly. I was confused of rather I wanted him to do more or not. “Bye.” I whispered as I got out of the car. Lance waited until I was in the house before he drove off. I didn’t know how I felt about Lance. I was still madly in love with Logan although he hurt me badly.