Sorry this chapter is really short
Chapter 16: Unforunately
I was watching Alicia as she was jumping up and down on my bed. "Seriously, how old are you?" I asked. She smiled. "I'm horny and Andy is at the gym. So when I'm horny I jump on my bed and it reminds me of how it be when me and Andy be fucking." She said smiling.
"And you be breathing hard and sweating when you're fucking?" I asked. She nodded and fell down on the bed.
"Does Logan kiss and cuddle with you after you two are done having sex?" She asked breathless.
"Why are we talking about my sex life?" I asked. Alicia smiled. "Because I want to know." She replied. I sighed. "Yes. We kiss and cuddle after we're done." I said. She nodded.
I felt some kind of weird queasy feeling in my stomach. I rubbed my stomach and leaned back in the chair I was sitting in and closed my eyes for a second.
"You okay?" Alicia asked. I opened my eyes and nodded. "Just a little nauseous that's all." I said. Alicia eyed me suspiciously. I shook my head. "I know what you're thinking. No. I'm not pregnant." I said.
"Do you and Logan use protection?" She asked. I didn't look at her. I knew it was bad for me and Logan to not use protection but whenever we had sex, we were always caught in the heat of the moment that protection would be the last thing we would think about.
"I……I don't…..I know that it's bad." I said. Alicia sighed. And covered her face with her hands. "Beth, the one key to having a sex life is knowing how to control it. Why aren't you on the pill like me?" She asked as she took her hands off of her face. I shrugged. "I don't know. It just never came to my mind."
"It never came to your mind? You're fucking a rock star that has to go on tours and gigs and you don't think having a baby would ruin that?"
"Yes! I know it will. Stop lecturing me!"
"Get. Another. Test." She said. I sighed. "Fine." I said. She put on her baby doll shoes. "No. Not now." I said.
"The sooner you know the better." She said. She dragged me out the door. We went to the nearest drugstore and Alicia actually made me take the test in the bathroom. "This is stupid. I don't want to take the test in this bathroom. Why can't we just wait until we get home?" I asked as she pushed me into a stall with the test in my hand. She had the box in her hand as she closed the stall door. The toilet was beige. Though I'm sure it was not supposed to be.
"I can't pee in this toilet." I said holding my nose. The bathroom smelled terrible.
"Stop being such a girl and pee on the stick for crying out loud!" Alicia said with impatience in her voice.
"But girls do pee on sticks and you just told me to stop being one." I said smiling. I loved making her mad sometimes. It was funny. I suddenly heard a big bang on the other side of the door. "If you do not pee on that fucking stick in the next six seconds, I'm going to squeeze your kidneys and make something come out!" Alicia said.
"Jeez. I'm sorry." I said.
I heard her sigh. "No. I'm sorry. These damn cramps." She said.
"Too bad I don't know what you're feeling."
"Are you late?" She asked.
"You really should have asked me that before you dragged me here." I said.
"Just answer the damn question." She said.
"A couple of days but its not a big deal. I'm not pregnant."
"Just take the fucking test for crying out loud." She retorted. I sat partially on the toilet and peed on the stick.
"Blue minus sign is negative. Pink plus sign is positive" I heard her say. I nodded as I pulled my panties and jeans back up. "Got it." I said.
"If you are will name it Alicia?" She asked. I opened the stall with the test still in my hand. "No. I told you that I want to name my baby Valerie."
"That sounds like the name of a bored housewife."
"And Alicia sound like her fate is to be a prostitute." I placed the test on the counter as I washed my hands.
"How many minutes left?" I asked.
"One more minute. Relax."
"I am relaxing. I just know I'm not pregnant."
"When a girl doesn't think she's pregnant, she's most likely pregnant. That's what happens in all the movies."
"Well this isn't a movie and I'm not pregnant." I said. I then dried my hands and went back to the test. I picked it up and my eyes widened as I saw the pink plus sign. Disbelief swept over me. I almost felt dizzy. I couldn't keep my eyes off of the plus sign.
"What's it say?" She asked coming beside me. My vision became blurry with tears. Were they tears of anger or tears of happiness? I had no idea but I had some of Logan inside of me. Alicia looked over my shoulder and a gasp escaped her lips.
A small smile actually made it to my lips. Yes I was pregnant and it might throw me off track for a little but I'm planning on becoming a writer and you don't have to go to college to become one. But should I keep this child? Would it be right? How would Logan react when I tell him?
"Lets go over Logan's house." I whispered. She smiled and nodded.
"God, I can't believe you're pregnant. I bet Logan's going to be happy."
"I hope so." I said. I still couldn't believe this. This was a big deal and I didn't know what it made me feel. Was I happy? Smiling yes but actually happy?
It was just crazy how one second I believe I'm not pregnant and the next, here I am fully aware.
I knocked on the front door to Logan's house and the door opened. His father was standing there looking down at me and Alicia. He kept his gaze on me. "What?" He asked sharply. I swallowed and tried to put on a charming and polite smile. "Um. Is Logan here?" I asked. His dad shrugged. "Maybe. He may be upstairs jacking off. Could be downstairs trying to make music. Which is impossible. He's a little twat."
"Can I just see him please? It's an emergency." I said. His dad looked back and forth between Alicia and then sighed as he moved out of the way. I could hear the guitar from upstairs. I ran up there and opened his door. He was sitting on his mattress with a guitar in his hand.
"Hey." I whispered as I closed the door. Logan looked at me but he didn't smile. I walked over and sat by him. "You okay?" I asked. He shook his head and sat the guitar on the floor.
Would this be the best time to tell him about the pregnancy?
"I'm moving to California, Beth."