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A Rockstar's Heart

Novel By: IceBreaker

(FINISHED) Bethany Borges is a girl who falls for a rockstar. Then it turns out that he isn't as perfect as it seems. View table of contents...


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Submitted:Mar 27, 2012    Reads: 880    Comments: 2    Likes: 4   

Author's Note: This novel contains sex, , alcohol, and almost rape. I'm telling you right now I suck at writing songs but Imma right them the best I can. Enjoy this novel!

Chapter 1: I found you

"Come on, Beth!" Shouted Alicia as she pulled me through the crowd of people. I sighed and followed her. She was desperate to get to the front. Right in front of the stage where her boyfriend, Andy was about to perform with a new band call the Daredevils.

I wasn't a concert person but I was here for Alicia because she wanted me to be here. We finally got to the front and millions of people were screaming and it began to annoy me. "I'm so excited!" Alicia screamed over the crowd. I smiled and nodded.

I seriously didn't know how me and Alicia became friends. She was the popular cheerleader while I was the Goth loner. She had long dirty blonde hair and brown eyes. Tonight she was wearing a tight pink short sleeved shirt and tight blue jeans with pink flip flops. I was wearing a black V-neck t shirt with black and black shorts with fishnets and Chuck Taylor converse. I know it was a weird outfit but I didn't care about what people thought.

The crowd became louder if possible when Andy came out with another guy who was blonde. The blonde had a guitar around his body. Andy smiled at the crowd as he walked across the stage. He spotted us and waved. Alicia waved back and Andy blew a kiss to her. She blew one back. He sat down at the drums and got the drumsticks in his hands.

Then a tall man with brunette hair and light green eyes came out in front of the stage. He had a cherry red guitar wrapped around his body and he went up to the microphone and smiled out in the crowd. I literally felt my heart drop. At that moment……I felt everything and nothing at the same time. He was beautiful. Beyond it even.

"That's Logan Nadilin." Alicia yelled in my ear. She must have noticed how I looked at him.

"Hello New York!" He screamed which got an uplifting roar from the crowd. He laughed at the noise and looked back at his band mates who were laughing also. Logan turned back to the crowd and licked his lips. "What song should I start out with?!" He asked.

The crowd roared a song called 'When I found you'. He nodded and smiled. "Fucking A, man." He said into the microphone. I smiled. I loved when guys said that. Andy started banging rhythmically on the drums. The blonde guy started playing his guitar eliciting an amazing flow of beat. I actually smiled. I looked over and saw tears in Alicia's eyes. I looked back up at Logan who started playing his guitar while his eyes slowly closed as if he was getting lost in the music.

But then he started to sing. And it blew my mind. I was almost in tears.

When I saw you for the first time.

You damn near blew my mind.

I saw you all alone.

The pain on your face easily shown.

There was instantly a spark between us.

I knew we'd both fall in love.

The way you looked at me.

I knew you were what I need.

And then I found you……..I found you!

I got you………..I got you.

I found the one that blew my mind.

And I think she's the ONE this time!

I found you.

I found you.

And that's when our eyes met. Of all the crowds of girls who are half dressed, basically screaming that they wanted to have sex with him, Logan Nadilin looks dead at me. I got lost in his eyes and he seemed to get lost in mine.

As he continued with the song, he kept his gaze on me.

I was in really bad shape.

I thought I was going insane.

I thought I lost it this time

No going back this time.

My heart was already broken

I completely lost my focus

I felt like I wanted to cry.

Even more I wanted to die.

And then I found you……..I found you!

I got you………..I got you.

I found the one that blew my mind.

And I think she's the ONE this time!

I found you.

I found you.

Logan began playing a guitar solo while still looking at me. Or maybe it was someone behind me. How could someone like me catch a hot rockstar's attention? I kept my eyes on his.

"I think he's staring at you." Alicia shouted. I ignored her although I was hoping she was right. I hope it was me he was looking at. He smiled right at me and I suddenly got butterflies in my stomach. The guitar solo carried on for two minutes moving perfectly with the flow of music and he repeated the chorus.

And then I found you……..I found you!

I got you………..I got you.

I found the one that blew my mind.

And I think she's the ONE this time!

I found you.

I found you.

The music ended and the crowd roared and cheered and jumped for joy. I smiled at Alicia. She was screaming. After a few more amazing songs by them, the blonde guy who was playing the guitar came out and told me and Alicia to come back stage. Alicia grabbed my hand and led me there. She opened the door to a dressing room and squealed when she saw Andy. She ran, jumped on him and wrapped her legs around his waist. "I missed you too." He said as he kissed her. I smiled at them. Andy and Alicia have been together for two and a half years and they seem like the happiest couple ever."

I looked to the left to see Logan leaning against the wall looking at me out of curiosity.

"Logan, this is my girlfriend I told you about, Alicia." Andy said. Andy put her down and grinned at her. Alicia turned and smiled at Logan. "Hi, Alicia and your idiot boyfriend would not shut up about you. I kept threatening him but nothing worked." He said.

"I hope he wasn't too much trouble." She said. Logan shook his head. "Naw, your boyfriend is a kick-ass drummer." Logan said as he high fived Andy who seemed satisfied.

Logan then turned to look at me. "And who's this gothic beauty?" He asked. I blushed and looked down to the floor. Alicia grabbed my arm and brought me closer to Logan. "This is my best friend, Bethany. But I call her Beth." She said. I looked up at Logan and he was smiling at me.

"Beautiful name, Bethany." He said. I bit my lip. "Thank you, Logan." I replied. He smiled and didn't take his eyes off of mine for a while and the room was silent.

"Okaaaaay…..so who want beer because I could sure as hell use one after five fucking songs." Andy said.

"Get me one, Andy." I said. Alicia asked for one too.

"Are you in high school, Bethany?" Logan asked. I nodded. "Eleventh year." I opened the can of Budweiser and took a sip. He smiled.

Andy was sitting on the couch with Alicia on the couch on his lap. Logan looked at them and then to me and I blushed again. "Want to take a walk outside?" He asked. I nodded. He grabbed a pack of cigarettes and a lighter before leading me out of the door.

We got outside and the place was still crowded. We quickly moved away from everyone and began to walk in the silent dark streets. We were both walking in silence for a little bit. Until he broke the silence. "I'm glad I saw you tonight." He said. I looked over to him.

"What do you mean?" I asked. He smiled before answering. "I don't know. I mean….I guess that even though there were hundreds of girls screaming and crying, one look at you and I saw that you felt the lyrics deeper than everyone else by the way you looked at me." He said. I nodded. I did truly feel the lyrics.

"They were really great lyrics. You write your own songs?" I asked.

"Yeah, me and Lance. The blonde guitarist. He really knows what to write. How to get to people through words."

"Well you know how to get to people with your singing. It was beyond amazing, Logan." I said. He grabbed my hand and squeezed it gently. "Thank you, Bethany. Now, can I ask you a question?" He asked.

"No I do not want your autograph." I said. He laughed and shook his head. "I wanted to know if you were seeing someone or not." He said.

"No. I'm not." I answered. His eyebrows pulled together. "Beautiful girl like you?"

I shrugged. Beautiful? Yeah right. "I'm far from beautiful. I mean look at me, I'm dressed like I'm a stripper at a fucking Goth club."

"Is that how you feel or is that what you think people around you feel?"

"Well…..both." I admitted. He lifted my chin with his finger and we stopped walking.

"I don't see anything wrong with you. You look sexy as fuck." He breathed. I blushed.

"You don't think I look like a weirdo?" I asked slightly getting lost in his eyes. He shook his head. "No fucking way." He whispered as he slowly leaned down and pressed his lips against mine. The kiss felt innocent at first. But I could feel it getting deeper but I didn't want to stop him. His tongue danced with mine in slow but passionate motion. He pulled me against his body and I could feel him semi hard. I gasped and stepped back and he looked like he was disappointed.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that. Please forgive me, Bethany." He said. I nodded. "I do. It's okay. I did want you to kiss me." Did I just admit that to him? Oh my god. He smiled slightly. "Really?" He asked. I nodded. His fingers went through my black swirly hair.

"I have this problem where I always get involved with girls the day I meet them and then have a one night stand and then never talk to them again but I don't want that with you." He said.

"You just met me….how can you….?"

"I know it sounds fake, pathetic and maybe fucking retarded but when I saw you in the crowd….you stood out. You really stood out, Beth. I'm dead fucking serious." He said. His expression was sincere. I nodded believing him.

"When you were on that stage, It was like an explosion of……happiness. I can't explain how I felt without it sounding corny." I said. He chuckled and nodded his head.

"Whatever you felt at the moment is what I felt at the moment." He said leaning his forehead against mine.

I placed my hand on his cheek where I felt a little stubble. I looked up at him. "That song you were playing. The first one was beautiful."

"When I saw you, I automatically dedicated it to you." He said with a killer smile on his face. I leaned up, wrapped my arms around his neck and gripped his brunette hair while our tongues tangled with each other's.

His breath was cool and minty. He bit down on my lip and I've never felt nothing better. He slowly pulled away and smiled. "You taste good." He breathed.

I blushed and looked into his green eyes. "Do you want to come to my next gig?" He asked. I nodded. He smiled. "Most likely Alicia will be coming too." I said. He nodded and dipped his head down and kissed me again.

"I'm going to write a song for you." He said. I rolled my eyes. "Yeah right. What's the title? Black nail polish?" I asked. He smirked. "You'll see. Two days from now at the Staton club."

"I have to be eighteen to get in there." I said.

"I know the owner." He said winking at me. I smiled and nodded. "Can't wait to hear my song." I said.

"I'll start writing it tonight. I promise you." He said. I nodded and smiled at him. He placed his hand on my cheek. "Let's get you back before Alicia thinks I've kidnapped you." I laughed.

"Yeah, right. She's not concerned with me. She's probably too busy with Andy." I said. Logan snickered.

When we got back, Andy and Alicia was fixing their clothes. No doubt they had sex while me and Logan were gone.

"Ready to go?" I asked. Her and Andy got their stuff together. Logan grabbed my waist and kissed me again. "I can't wait to see you again. Can I have your number?" He asked. I nodded and looked around and found a pad of paper and a pen. I wrote down my number and gave it to him. He kissed me one last time before me, Alicia and Andy left. I was excited. I finally had a guy who cared about me in my life.


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