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this is a poem about being alone without anyone :'''(

Submitted:Oct 23, 2012    Reads: 8    Comments: 1    Likes: 0   

I help you through hard times, as you do I
But you really don't know how much I hide
Even though we are the best of friends
I really don't think you can understand
I can't bear the hurt, I can't stand the pain
A feeling of numbness I can't explain.

This is a life in which I walk alone
Full of hope shattered and broken
Always angry for no reason at all
Constantly wanting to end this brawl
Fighting with myself again, and again,
Sometimes I want this life to end

Mom's depressed but chooses to hide
Takes out her anger on those by her side
Doesn't understand I try to help
She shuns me out, and hates instead

Grandma's enduring an unstoppable fate
sickness has gotten her on the plate
Its sad to see such an innocent person
Become another cancer victim

Too many friends are hurt as well
Thinking that their life is hell
Too many friends wanting to stop
Thinking suicide is the only option

But inside me is the worst of all
I don't know how long I can stand tall
Memories of happiness are shooed away
But horrible twisted thoughts to stay

Nothing I do can make her proud
There's no silver lining on her clouds
I'm a rainstorm filled with dark black skies
And a haunting rainfall full of lies
I only wish I could make her see
I'm trying hard so I can be
Someone she that can trust and love
Instead she tells me I'm not good enough
Everything I do is a wrong decision
She constantly tells me I'm not living
The path that she truly wishes I'd take
But I'm only one big mistake
If I could I'd erase myself from here
I wouldn't have to live this fear

I also wish I could be skinny
And always happy, fun, and pretty
Instead I look at myself in the mirror
Disappointed in the reflection that appears
It's hard to live when you don't love who you are
Wishing that you could change it all

Every day I make a mental note
How much would I miss, if I decide to go
And how much hurt makes me lean towards the edge
Is slowly creeping up the hedge
How much longer can I last?
Before my life becomes one of the past.


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