fuck was going on back there?" Albear asked once they were all
Boys. They were all sitting at a round table,
cruising guys, and having
said. "Just a disagreement."
girlfriend?" Tyler asked. "When did you find out about
"And why didn't you
tell us?" Lamont asked.
"I just found out
about the girlfriend, and the disagreement was about something
"Or someone else."
Albear said. Lourdes tilted her shoulder and looked at
"I'll say." Corey said
looking into his beer. "There was something very twisted going on
back there if you ask me."
"Honey," Lamont said
in his southern twang, "it looked like a lot more was going on
than just a disagreement."
"It's fine. It was
"Honey, did he hit
you?" Lamont asked putting one hand on Lourdes'
"No, of course not.
Why would you even think that?"
"Maybe because you
were running for dear life." Albear said watching
"Yes I was running,
but I wasn't in fear for my life. I just needed to get away from
him for a moment."
Tyler said putting his hand on hers, "you would tell us if you
thought he might hurt you right? Because you don't want
with a guy like
"Gabriel doesn't hurt
you, does he?" Corey asked.
"Look, will you guys
just chill the fuck out!" Lourdes said. "Yeah, we had a
disagreement. And I understand from the outside perspective that
it all looks a little fucked up, but everything is
"It better be." Albear
said. "Because the last thing he would want is a bunch of angry
fags clawing his eyes out."
Lourdes looked at him,
but said nothing.
"Whoo-hoo! You tell
em' honey." Lamont said raising his beer.
They all smiled and
"So Sin City after
this?" Tyler asked.
"Yes!" They all
"No." Lourdes said. "I
gotta get back."
"You're not going back
there." Corey said. "You shouldn't be around each other right
"Corey he's not even
going to be there, when I get back. There's nothing to worry
"She's right." Albear
said. "I promised her only one drink and we're going to stick to
that. Besides, she's a big girl, she knows what she's
Lourdes nodded her
Once they finished
their drinks, Lourdes took off, but the boys stayed for another
round, while Albear drove her back to
When they were out in
front of the house, they sat in the car for a moment. Albear put
his hand on her's. "You alright?"
Lourdes moved her hand
away. "I'm not a child Albear."
"Well of course your
not." He said reaching into his pocket pulling out party favors.
Lourdes rolled her eyes. "That doesn't mean I want to do drugs
with you either." She said.
pharmacologist cooked this up for me," he said ignoring her,
"careful, it's a little strong." Albear took a sniff and held it
to her nose to sniff also.
"Wow," she said, "that
is strong." Lourdes rested her head back on the seat. "Oooh
that's nice." She said closing her eyes.
right?" Albear said resting his head on hers. "You sure I
can't twist your
arm to come to Sin City
Lourdes jerked up out
of her seat and stared at him.
"What?" He asked.
"What'd I say?"
"Nothing, its just..."
She drifted off. A quick flash of her scuffle with Alex had went
through her mind. She sat back in her seat.
"Go easy on the shit,
I told you it was strong." Albear said resting his head back on
"It wasn't that." She
said. "I'm fine."
"Yes you are." He
said. "But before you go."
"Were you telling the
truth when you said that he's not on the other side of that
Lourdes closed her
eyes. "The truth is I have no idea. I don't see his car anywhere,
but he's smart enough not to park it, in plain
"You know," Alby said,
"I use to have this friend..."
"Don't give me some
twisted metaphor of what you think happened
"If you don't bullshit
me about what happened. Because I'm not letting you walk through
that door, if you've gotten yourself in a dangerous
"Alby, I'm sure Alex
is at home by now, and I was never in any
Albear pulled away
from her but stayed close. "Okay so he didn't hurt you, but there
was some kind of power struggle going on."
"You could say that."
"So instead of you
just confronting him about Celia, you mind fucked him into a
"I guess you could say
that." She whispered again.
queen, just like us." He said laughing. But then he stopped.
"Wait, did you hit
"No. But at the time I
wanted to, I really wanted to, before..."
She shook her
Albear put his arm
back around her shoulders and drew her in close again. "You know
I don't have to tell you that most fags have done every type of
"Especially you." She
said. "Didn't you let the dungeon master, mummify you last
" Leather daddy's,
"Don't be gross." She
"My point is, if
things got a little out of control and you liked it, it's okay to
"Oh Alby!" Lourdes
said nudging him away from her. "All you care about is the dirty
details, and it wasn't even like that."
"I bet I'm not far
off." He said putting a cigarette into his
Lourdes sat back in
her seat contemplating what to say. "Okay, so maybe I did like
it... just a little."
"I knew it!" He sat up
"Albear, I don't know
what happened. One minute we're arguing, the next minute we're
fighting, and before I knew it we were-"
fucking?" He asked excitedly. "Oh that's such a turn on," he
grabbed her hand, "feel I'm so hard,"
"No!" She said yanking
her hand away as he laughed. "Alby, help me
Albear took another
sniff and handed it to her. She took it out of his hand and set
it in her lap. "How do I do this?" She
"Okay, you say he
didn't hit you."
"What does that
"He might have been
aggressive...just a bit."
"So he got
"Who got rough first,
you or him?"
"So you admit, that
you got rough too?"
"Don't try to trick me
with you're word play asshole."
"Yes or no
"I might have bit him,
just a little, to make him let go of me."
"I'm still hard." He
"So he got rough after
all the mind fucking?"
"After all the
"And the phone
calling." She added.
Albear smiled. "So you
two were arguing about me?"
"Oh fuck off Albear."
Lourdes said running her hands through her hair. "You're as
arrogant and cocky as he is."
"I'm going to need
more details, if I'm going to help you with this situation." He
"Let's just forget
about it, I'm going inside." She said grabbing her new Chanel bag
and putting her hand on the car door. "Thanks for the drink and
the...you know." She tossed the popper into his
Albear grabbed her
hand. "No way. We're not done yet."
Lourdes sat back in
"How far did you let
"I stopped struggling,
he let me go."
"So what provoked the
incident that we walked into?"
"I may have tripped
him...a little." She said smiling.
"He was walking away
feeling all proud and masculine and I stuck my foot
"You crazy bitch! I
would have killed you!" Albear said
"Well I'm sure that
was his intention. So, as he was eating shit on the ground, I
made a run for it, and now you're caught
"If it was me," he
said still laughing. "I'd be on the other side of that door
waiting to ring your neck."
"If there ever was a
but what, that'd be it." She said.
"All the wind was
taken out of his sails, once he realized I knew about
"So really, that's
what this is all about?"
"No." She said. "Yes.
"It doesn't matter.
The point is, this is the reality that we both needed, to stomp
this affair into the ground."
"And you're ready to
do that?" He asked.
"What bothers you the
most about the fact that he has a girlfriend?" Albear
"Is it because she's
something real to him?"
Lourdes hated how well
Albear knew her.
"I would think that
this should make things easier for you."
"How you figure that?"
"He has her. You have
Gabe. It'll keep the boundaries real clear."
Lourdes nodded her
head, beginning to see where he was going,
"Just think of how
much easier it'll be, to stay in control, now that the rules have
been turned black and white for you."
"So you're saying that
I should continue to have my cake and eat it too, now that he's
no longer able to make demands of me."
"How'd you get so
smart?" He smiled.
"But what about
"Who gives a fuck
about his girlfriend? Don't assume she's innocent in all this
until you meet her."
"I don't mean that, I
"What about her
feelings?" Albear asked.
"Do you care?" He
"Because if you do,
then we might have a problem."
"It's not what you
think." She said.
"Yes it is." He
responded. "If you are reacting to this situation, off of pure
emotions then that means that your heart is involved. Have I
taught you nothing?"
"I can't just fuck the
guy over and over again, and not feel anything Albear, I'm not
"You don't have to
be," he said, "but we all have a choice. And my advice to you is,
you can kiss it, you can stroke it, you suck
"You can even fuck it,
just don't fall in love with it."
"I get it." She
Lourdes nodded her
head. "Albear, as fucked up as your views are, I think I might
like to study at your feet."
"Well take notes
bitches, you're lucky you're getting my services for
"What would I ever do
without you." Lourdes smiled and kissed him goodnight. Albear
kissed her back and held her face close to his. "He'll never love
you like I do." He whispered.
"You two are not even
in the same league." Lourdes smiled and got out of the
Albear wasn't a
hundred percent sure what she meant by that.