Stacy the bartender,
ran her hands along the wall until her fingertips tingled. She
was trying to make her energy flow through every room. She could
hear a faint voice at the end of the hallway. She walked slowly,
still running her fingers alongside the wall. She walked into the
living room and hugged Gabriel from behind.
"Yeah, I got ya.
Right." He said talking on the phone. "Okay, by tonight, bye." He
hung up the phone and turned to face her. The top two buttons of
his shirt were still undone. She buttoned them up slowly. When
she was done, she tilted her head up and kissed
"There's hardly any
"I know, but we just
have to be patient."
"You won't even see my
cute little outfit tonight."
"I know, but you can
model it for me when I get back."
"You sure your
girlfriend won't mind?" She asked giggling. She pushed her
fingers through his soft feathered hair, trying to get a smile
out of him. His square jaw tightened. Gabriel grimaced, probably
the last thing he wanted to think of after doing what they just
did. "Would you keep an eye on Alex tonight, make sure he doesn't
get too hammered?"
Stacy's thick brows
furrowed. "He's a big boy, he can take care of
"I was thinking about
Lourdes, he'll probably have to drive her home if one of her
friends doesn't pick her up."
Stacy took her hands
out of his hair, but they were still standing very close.
"Precious cargo right." She said bitterly. She thought that they
were past this point.
Gabriel looked at her.
He always went quiet when she said something he didn't
"Gabe, he's an ass, he
"It didn't look like
that the other night. Besides you two flirt with each other every
chance you get."
"It's an act! I think
he suspects something is going on between us. He only pretends to
like me to keep me away from you."
"Well good, then you
Gabriel pulled her
closer. "Use that to your advantage, respond favorably to his
advances, if everybody thinks that you two want to give it a go,
then nobody gets hurt."
"You mean, Lourdes
doesn't get hurt."
pouted, when she first met Lourdes she thought that she could
take her. She and Gabe didn't even seem that close, they mingled
with other people at parties, they disagreed fundamentally on
every author that they were passionate about, his life was sports
and she hated everything about it. But at the end of the day, he
would always walk up to Lourdes and take her hand and kiss her
with more love than he's ever shown
Stacy felt personally. And Lourdes would
always be the one that he took home at the end of the night.
That's when Stacy realized that she would be more competition
than she'd previously
But with a little time
and effort, she had Gabe right where she wanted
Or so she
There was a knock at
Gabe pushed her away
from him quickly and went rushing to the door. He put his hand on
the door knob and paused, he turned and looked around the room,
making sure there were no tell tell signs.
He opened the door, it
was Alexsander. He was standing there in a sheer, low gray,
v-neck t-shirt, with ugly black skinny jeans and it looked as if
he hadn't bothered to shave or comb his hair today either. She
didn't see what was so great about Alexsander, sometimes he was
such a dirty boy. He did clean up nice for the cameras though.
Gabriel on the other hand, was much more promising. Always sexy,
always presentable, always GQ.
said, trying to be cool, but surprised to see Stacy standing
"Alright then," Gabe
said, "come on in, sit yourself down, I'll get the usual." Gabe
walked down the hallway to the kitchen to get Alex something to
drink. Stacy didn't move. Alex sat down and stretched out in a
chair. "You two catching up with old times?" He
"Not really." She
said, volunteering nothing.
"Where's Emma?" He
"Are you trying to get
at something?" She asked.
Alex pinched his nose,
wiggled it, and then sniffed very hard.
Yeah, he was trying to
get at something.
"You know," Stacy
said, "you really shouldn't do that."
"Do what?" He said
smiling at her.
She walked over to him
and squatted down. "You shouldn't act as if you like me, to cover
up the fact that you want your friend's
Alex sat up and leaned
in towards her. "And you shouldn't act like you like me as a
cover to fuck your ex-boyfriend."
"If you tell her
anything-" Stacy started to say, but she was cut short by
footsteps in the hallway.
"Who wants a drink?"
Gabriel said walking back into the room.
Stacy stood up, "I
gotta go." She grabbed her jacket and keys and headed to the
door. "Nice to see you again Alex." She said over her shoulder.
"Gabe, I'll talk to you later."
"Nice to see you too,"
Alex said, "see you at the party tonight."
"Yeah sure." She said,
she was hoping that he wasn't going, but like Gabriel said, maybe
she could use this to her advantage. She went out the
"Ow! I think this
one's too tight." Lourdes said to Lisa as she tried to force a
blonde wig on her.
"I'm so sorry." Lisa
said quickly pulling the wig off.
"Don't be such a
pussy. Here, try this one on." Melody said handing her a red
Lourdes was sitting in
their bedroom, waiting for her lashes to dry and trying to come
up with a look for tonight's party.
"How is it that you
two have so many wigs?" She asked. Lisa and Melody were a lesbian
couple who lived in the pride community.
"You know how dykes
like to role play." Albear said walking into the room holding his
son. Albear and Lisa were friends back in college, they even
dated briefly, but Lisa and Melody had been together for ten
years now and Albear was the contributor for their baby boy
"Why did you have to
bring him with you?" Melody asked, running her fingers through
her short brown pixie cut as she threw disproving glances his
Lourdes shrugged her
shoulders, trying on another wig. Melody and Albear have never
been fond of each other. Probably because they both shared
"Hey go easy
on him," Lisa said, "he hardly comes to visit his son as it is.
And the wigs are not for role
playing, we do a lot of fund raisers at the Community Center and
we have a lot of costumes from the plays that we put
"Whatever you say."
Albear said lifting his son up in the air. He looked over at them
in the beauty mirror. "You should wear the black
Lourdes looked at the
short black wig that she had tried on before. "I don't want to
wear black, I'll still feel like the same
"Well at least you'll
look like the same person and hot, instead of a hot mess with a
wig that looks like shit on you."
"Hey!" Lisa and Melody
both said. "Albear why don't you go and play with your son
downstairs." Lisa said.
"Fine." Alby headed
towards the door. "But just so you know, a fags advice on beauty
always out weighs a dykes."
"Go!" They all yelled
at him as he ran for duck and cover with the
Lourdes walked down
the stairs, finally ready to get her party on. Lisa and Melody
were in the kitchen cooking dinner and Albear was snoring on the
sofa with Abraham asleep on his chest.
"Babies break my
heart." Lourdes said walking into the kitchen with the ladies.
"It tugs on my heart strings to see Albear like that with
Lisa smiled as happy
as can be. Albear was her first choice to be her baby's daddy,
much to Melody's dismay. But Lourdes felt it was the right
decision, why pick a stranger from a catalog, when she could have
a baby by someone she loves.
"Sure it tugs on your
heart strings, but does it tug on your uterus?" Lisa
"Not in the
slightest." Lourdes said laughing.
"You never know, maybe
"Geez honey, would you
give it a rest." Melody said. "Not everybody has to get pregnant,
now that you've had a baby. Lourdes nodded her head in
"I didn't say that
everybody should have a baby because I have one, but it would be
nice if our profound happiness inspired somebody else to want to
do the same."
Melody walked over and
kissed her, smacking Lisa's rather large butt. Lourdes smiled.
"There's only one problem." She offered. "You two are the
happiest, most secure couple that I know, gay or straight, and
you've been together forever. Having a baby was a step in the
right direction for you two. I'm nowhere near that point in my so
"You do have a point
there." Lisa said. "But life happens, it's not always going to be
great. Things fall apart, Melody and I could fall apart, but we
would never regret being Abraham's parents. It's the greatest
blessing ever bestowed upon us." Lisa tossed her blonde hair to
the side and smiled brightly. "I'm just saying, don't rule it
out, if you don't find Mr. Right."
"Don't you hens ever
stop clucking?" Albear asked putting the baby in his crib and
stumbling into the kitchen rubbing his head.
"Albear this is our
house, and you're welcome to leave any time you want." Melody
said pursing her thin lips.
Albear sat down at the
table. "What's for dinner?" He asked.
"I don't believe
this." Melody said, tossing up her lean muscular arms walking out
of the room.
Just then, a car
pulled up outside and honked it's horn three times. Lisa and
Lourdes rushed to the door and peeked through the curtains to see
who it was.
"Oh that's Alex!"
Lourdes said. "He's twenty minutes early."
Albear walked up
behind them and peeked through the curtains also. "I wish my
boyfriend trusted me enough to be alone at a party with his hot
"As if you ever had a
boyfriend." Lourdes said smartly.
Alex honked the horn
"What the fucks his
problem?" Albear asked as Lourdes gathered up her stuff. "He
doesn't want to come in and meet the
"Alby would you give
it a rest." Lourdes said. She was nervous enough already. She
gave Lisa a kiss on the cheek. "Bye Mel!" She called out to
whatever room she might be in.
"Hold on!" Albear said
coming after her. He grabbed her hand and pulling her all they
way into the bathroom for some privacy. "So this is it right?
Tonight's the night?"
"Look, don't bullshit
me, did you make up your mind or not?"
"I don't know, I don't
know!" She said.
"Here," he said
pulling out a popper, "have some vitamins."
"Albear, get that shit
away from me and don't let Lisa and Melody find you with that
around the baby!"
Albear cracked the
popper anyway before Lourdes had a chance to step back. It went
straight to her head. He popped one for himself too. Albear
pulled her close. "Okay, while it's taking you over, tell me in
60 seconds or less how you feel about him."
Lourdes closed her
eyes and let him hold her. Maybe she did need something to take
the edge off. "I don't know how this happened." She said. "One
day he was Gabe's annoying friend and now he's in all my dreams."
She took a deep breath. "Now we see each other all the time, he's
become my craving. I don't know what I'm going to say. I don't
know what I'm going to do. I'm freaking out
Albear pulled away
from her. "Calm down your ranting."
"What the fuck am I
going to do?" She whispered.
"Listen," He said
grabbing her by both shoulders, "he's never met a bitch like you,
he probably never will. So go get him, and when you do, go
Lourdes smiled and
nodded her head with renewed confidence. "I'll go hard." She
They walked together
down the narrow pathway to the car. Lourdes turned to Albear to
"I'm really glad you
chose to go with the black wig." He said.
"Oh shut up!" She said
"No seriously," he
said, "you look hot." He pulled her close and hugged her, then he
whispered in her ear. "Fuck his brains out."
laughing uncontrollably, to the point where Albear had to shake
her. "Are you nervous?" He asked, looking
"No." She said. "Well,
maybe just a little."
Albear turned his back
to Alex's car and pulled Lourdes in front of him. He pulled out a
tiny pale creamed orange tablet. He put it in his mouth, then he
grabbed Lourdes and kissed her, shoving the ecstasy into her
mouth. She swallowed fast, escaping the bitter after taste as she
pulled away from Albear.
"Just don't fuck him
at the party hooker." He said.
"Yeah that's nice
"Damn!" He said. "That
car is hot." He whispered in her ear, "yeah you know your fuckin'
"I don't think so."
She said grinning. "And it's not his car. He would never be that
flashy, must be a friends."
That's a pussy wagon if I've ever seen one."
Lourdes' head was
spinning. "Look I've seen it all-" She started to
"No you fuckin
didn't." He said cutting her off. They were spinning off the
trial-mix and she hoped Alex wasn't scrutinizing their every
move. "Besides," he said pulling her close again, "there's
nothing like a fuck, in a two seater?"
"Alby, I can't feel my
"I'm like, bitch me
neither." He said.
laughing again and Albear fell out laughing with her. They were
so loud, Lisa and Melody came to the door to make sure they
She tried to pull
herself together, she was being rude and Alex was waiting
patiently. "I gotta go." She said still
"Don't do anything I
wouldn't do." Albear said.
"That doesn't leave
much left to the imagination." She said
"Fuck off." He said
turning to walk away. When he reached the front door, Albear
kissed Lisa on the cheek as he walked by her. Then he took the
baby out of Melody's arms and the three of them went back into
the house and closed the door.
"Does...he always kiss
you like that?" Alexsander asked after she was settled into the
"Not really," Lourdes
said, "only a couple of times a year, when he feels it's
necessary to add those extra tidbits of
"I bet Gabe would have
a problem with that."
"Do you?" She
said with one raised eyebrow. "You should be careful of guys like
"Why?" She asked. Were
they really going to start the night off this
"I'm just saying, be
"I am careful, Albear
is my friend, I trust him."
friend! He tried to hit on me the other
"He didn't!" Lourdes
said, mouth dropped open.
"He did. Back at the
Lourdes sat back in
her seat. "He was probably high."
"Well he can't have
you. You're already taken."
Alex looked at her.
"Am I saving myself for someone else?"
Nothing like fishing for
thought to herself. "I thought you planned on staying a virgin
until you got married." She said
Alex laughed. "So it's
going to be like that?" He said.
"Going to be like
"Going to be like this
"Alex what are you
doing out here with me?" She said sweetly.
"I don't know," he
said, "what am I doing?"
Lourdes sighed loudly.
"Didn't your mother ever teach you not to answer a question with
"My mum taught me a
whole lot more than that." He rethorted.
"Cheeky bitch!" He
said nudging her.
Lourdes stood with her
back against the wall, kicking herself for even coming to this
Halloween party. She had been here almost 45 minutes, Albear's
pill still hadn't kicked in and every minute had been
The drinks were great,
the music was good and the party was massive, but the only thing
occupying her attention was Alexsander. He was across the room in
deep flirtation with Stacy. She was dressed as a cheerleader in
this hoochie mama monstrosity with the shortest skirt that
Lourdes had ever seen in her life. Lourdes wasn't really into
costumes, she put on a short black bob wig, with fake eye lashes
and sexy porn star make-up. That was as far as she was willing to
go. Alexsander came as himself of course. Too cool for
Gabriel was away like
always, on assignment, but he called her ahead of time to make
sure that she would look after Alex at the
He had no idea what he
As Lourdes looked on,
she could see Stacy glancing her way to see if she was jealous.
Lourdes facial expression was blank, but it took everything
inside of her, not to show her jealousy. She took a sip of the
white wine that she was drinking and turned away. She made her
way through the house, to the outside area, where nobody was
around. She sat down on a stone garden bench and set her drink
down beside her. There was a beautiful bird fountain off to the
side of the garden. Lourdes watched the water trickle down. It
was lovely. The garden lamps were beginning to sparkle. She
closed her eyes, the outside air felt good on her skin. She began
to tingle. Albear's magic potion was starting to
"I thought you might
be out here."
Lourdes looked up as
Alexsander sat down next to her.
"Why are you out
here?" He asked.
She couldn't respond
right away, she wanted to come off pissed at him, but the
euphoria was taking over her body. "I was getting tired of
watching the show." Lourdes said into her wine glass as she took
a big gulp.
"What show would that
"The Alex and Stacy
show." She announced.
Alex laughed. "You've
got the wrong end of the stick."
He turned and looked
at her. "We're not interested in each
"Who the fuck are you
kidding." She said taking another drink. He smelled nice. Her
senses were intensifying. Her hands were tingling, she wanted to
touch him. His face was smooth as if he shaved ten minutes before
he got her. She wanted to touch his cheek.
Alex nudged her with
his shoulder as she tried to ignore him. "It would look awfully
suspicious of me if I spent the whole night with you without
talking to any other people. I'm just playing the
"You weren't talking
to other people, you were talking to Stacy."
"She's the best
choice." He said.
"I don't have a clue
what that's supposed to mean."
Alex leaned forward
contemplating what he wanted to say. "Every person in there
realizes that Stacy is not a threat to me except
Lourdes looked at him
ex-girlfriend, and as you know," he said smiling, "I would never
get with my mate's girl."
"She and Gabe use to
date?" Lourdes asked surprised.
Alex studied her
reaction. "You didn't know?"
"No. When was
"It doesn't matter."
He tried to change the subject. But he knew what he was doing.
"We all had fun at the diner yesterday."
said still knocked for a loop about Gabe and Stacy. "If you're
not interested in her, why would you use her like
"Because it takes the
attention away from who I really want to be with." He said
Lourdes looked down at
her hands. Still tingling. Would it be wrong of her to reach out
and feel how soft his jeans are? She took a deep breath. It was
just the drugs talking. Probably should put the wine down and
stick to water while the high lasted. "You are very blunt
tonight." She said.
himself up and brushed back some fake hair from her wig. "I
really like this look on you."
Lourdes smiled. "You
do?" She said cozying up to him. She hoped he didn't notice that
she was high as a Saturn light, but he had a few drinks in him
already. "I like it too," she said, "it's amazing how one small
thing can make you feel like a completely different
"Like you're someone
"Yeah," she said,
"it's kind of fun."
"Does it make you want
to do things, you wouldn't normally do in your own skin?" He
asked. Lourdes didn't answer. Maybe it was too soon for them to
go there. The night was still early.
They were sitting so
close together, both they're arms and legs were touching. Alex
put his chin on her shoulder and rested his head on the side of
her neck. "Do you fancy a game of fantasy?" He
"Go on then." Lourdes
said, her curiosity immediately peeked.
"You can be the
mysterious girl in the rose garden and I can be the tall handsome
prince who comes and sweeps you off your
"Sounds lame!" She
said laughing. He laughed too, still leaning against her. "What?
You can't even give it a chance?"
She picked up her wine
glass and finished the rest. He was still on her. She was up for
anything. "Your on." She said. "But turn it up, I need to be
"Alright." He said.
"Fine, fuck the fantasy, just you and me."
"Ooh, I like it
already." She said.
"Do you?" He asked.
"Because you know how I feel about you."
"Do I?" She asked
playfully. "Why don't you make it real
"Let's push the
limits." He said."No more being be afraid."
"I'm not." She said
"So you'll let me hurt
you real good, then?"
Lourdes smiled and
rolled her eyes.
"Just you and me," he
said, "alone back at my place. Can you handle
"You got it." Lourdes
"Will you do what I
say?" He asked smiling.
"Within reason." She
"You have no idea how
long I've been wanting to make you scream my name." He grinned
She nodded her head,
she could tell he was totally getting off on this. She liked it
too, but it wasn't enough, she wanted more from him. His body
heat felt good next to her, but if only he would just touch
"There's no escaping
when we start." He said.
"There's no way I
would think of leaving." She said. "I'll stay until it's
"It's not a death
sentence." He said.
"Isn't it?" She asked
"Do you know what
you're getting into?" He asked.
"About as much as you
do." She said tugging on the wig.
"This could be rough
on you." He said.
"Oh please, work for
me a little harder," she cracked, "don't oversell yourself, you
might ruin your chances."
a little surprised that she was going toe to toe with him. Of
course she had a bit more encouragement
in her than he
Just then some people
came walking out laughing. They went over to the other side of
the garden drinking and smoking.
Lourdes and Alex were
forced to pull themselves away from each other. Both of them
regrouped and tried to talk about something other than
"So your friend
Albear." He started.
"Mm-hmm?" She knew
this was coming again. Everybody was intimidated by Alby. But the
ones who felt the most threatened by him, were the ones who saw
him as some kind of competition.
"He is very protective
of you." Alex waved to one of the guys who just noticed him
across the garden.
Lourdes nodded her
"And fit as a
butcher's dog." He said. She wasn't quite sure what it meant, but
she got the gist of it. Plus she loved when native terms rolled
off his tongue.
"That's not a problem
for you is it?" She asked playfully.
He opened up his black
blazer, showing off his body, "Does it look like I'm worried?" He
"Good to know
Sheriff." She said jokingly as he grinned, but he continued with
the questions. "So...have you two ever..."
"No." She said
quickly. "We love each other, but it's not like
"Good." He said. "I
was starting to get jealous."
"Oh honey, you past
that point two days ago." Lourdes