I am Corbin and I am 21 years old.
Live in a small house that was left for me after my parents died.
The doorbell was ringing and nobody was answering the damn door
because no one was home so I was the one who had to get up. Oh!
And by no one I meant my house maid. The doorbell kept on ringing
and ringing and it pissed me off. Whoever it was better get ready
to run because once I opened that door I was going to kill
"I am coming." I muttered as
I went downstairs. Still the doorbell kept on ringing.
"I am coming." I yelled
this time as I neared the door. I opened the door ready to yell
at the person but froze. There he stood with that smallest of
small smile I loved so much. He pushed past me, his arm brushing
with mine and causing me to shiver. I loved how he had this
affect on me. I stood there as if waiting for someone else to
"Are you going to close
that thing." he asked from behind me. I blinked before quickly
closing the door. I went up to him ready to ask him where he have
been this who week but I couldn't cuz the bastard pulled me into
his arms and kissed me on the lips. He pulled back and
"You think it's funny?" I
asked him angrily. "You have been gone this whole week and you
didn't even tell me where." I was beyond mad now. I have been
waiting for a week for him to come back from God knows where. I
was so fucking worried and here he was smiling as if nothing had
"I came back! Didn't I?"
he asked me innocently, his coal black eyes begging me to forgive
him and there was a bit of fear in his eyes too. Ha! He was
afraid that I would break up with him. Well DAMN! I wouldn't do
that, I loved him too much.
"Where the hell have
you been?" Oh but I was so not buying his innocence, He just left
me all alone for a whole fucking week. I was so miserable without
him, When he saw I wasn't really going to leave this subject, he
sighed. He wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his face
in my neck. His soft hair tickling my face. He had a natural
Lavender smell to him which was teasing my senses.
"My aunt sent me to my
Uncle's house for no fucking reason." he finally told me and my
neck tickled from his breath. "My stupid uncle wouldn't let me
use anything. No phone, no computer and I tried to sneak out of
the house so I could tell you where I was but the bastard caught
me and took away my cell phone." He explained. I sighed in
relief. He was okay, he was okay. I kept on repeating to
"Xavier don't ever
leave without telling me. You have no idea how worried I was." I
told him, hugging him tightly to my chest and resting my cheek on
his soft head. We stood in each other's arms as if there was not
tomorrow and I held him so tight I thought he was having trouble
breathing but he didn't say anything. Finally Xavier pulled back
and smiled at me revealing cute sets of dimples on his
"I missed you so
much." he told me kissing me lightly on my lips. I smiled back.
Resting my forehead against his head I told him.
"I missed you
too." Then I kissed him softly. His lips, I remembered were still
softer then a baby's skin even after all these years. He opened
his mouth quickly letting my tongue in and mixing with his. He
moaned lightly. I pulled away breathing hard.
"Lets...Go....to... our.. Room." I said gasping in between. I
grabbed Xavier's hand and we both ran upstairs to our room. I
closed the door behind me and slammed Xavier against the wall. I
placed my leg between his and felt his hard cock through his
jeans against my leg. He shuddered and I forced my mouth on his,
I licked his bottom lip, savoring every taste of him. He opened
his mouth and brought his tongue out. I couldn't even explain the
pain in my crotch, my cock was steel hard. I sucked his tongue.
We rolled our tongues, licking each other's lips. Breaking my
lips from his I trailed them down his neck, sucking on it, making
figure 8 with my tounge.He moaned, exposing his whole neck for
me. I bit on his neck hard enough to leave a hickey.
I marked him
because he was mine and mine only. I went back to his face
kissing him furiously. I had lost all the control. My hands
roamed down his body. He was grinding his cock against my leg
slowly moaning and groaning. I touched his cock through his jeans
and he gasped.
"What do you
want?" I growled in his ear and he whimpered. "What do you want?"
I asked again rubbing my hand in circles on his cock. "Tell me
what you want and I will give it to you." I told him.
"I want you to put
my....." and then he trailed off.
"Put your what,
tell me baby, say it all." My cock was throbbing so hard.
"I want you to put
my cock in your mouth." He gasped hoarsely.
"That's my boy." I
told him. I unbuttoned his pants and slid down the zipper before
taking his pants off of him. He wasn't wearing and boxers and his
cock was going commando. I dropped on my knees and took Xavier's
7 inch cock in my mouth. His taste was addictive. I licked his
cock first from bottom to tip and then swallowed it whole in my
mouth. Xavier cried out and grabbed my hair. I knew the most
sensitive area on his cock and it was the underside of his cock's
head. So I rubbed my tongue under that sensitive spot and Xavier
shouted. I smiled against his cock. I started sucking him slow,
taking him to the back of my throat. I tasted a bit of his
pre-cum and knew he was close to coming, so I started sucking him
harder and faster. The faster I sucked the more swollen his cock
"I..I am coming
Corbin." He said and right after saying that he exploded. His
seed rushing down my throat. He tasted sweet and salty and I
loved it all. I sucked him dry then cleaned the rest with my
tongue. I guess his legs gave out because he slid down to the
floor, eyes closed, breathing hard. I kissed the top of his
"Let's get you to
bed so I can have my wicked way with you." I told him and then
picked him up off of the floor and then went to my room. I took
him straight to my king size bed and layer him down. God he
looked so beautiful laying there in my bed all flushed. He looked
like a satisfied lover. MY satisfied lover, but I still wasn't
satisfied. I took the edges of his shirt and pulled it over his
head. He opened his eyes and grinned at me. I smiled back and
kissed him again.
Trailing my lips
down, I kissed his neck and went down further. His chest was
smooth, soft and warm. Still trailing down my kissed I went to
his nipple. My mouth attacked it like a greedy person. I licked
his nipple and he arched his back. I twirled my tongue around it
and finally bit it. Tugging on it with my teeth, I sucked the
little bud in my mouth making Xavier cry out again and again. I
did the same thing to his other nipple.
Corbin." he chanted my name as if it was a prayer. I kissed his
six packs and went further down south. His cock was fully erect
again. "Corbin. Take off your clothes. I want to touch you too."
Xavier said a bit desperately. I looked up at him and
"Not yet baby, I
still need to have my wicked ways with you." I told him. Before
he could even blink I flipped him over and braced my legs around
his hips. Bending down I licked at his neck then bit it hard, but
not to the point of drawing blood. Xavier groaned. He liked it
when I bit him. I think he still had some of my teeth mark from a
week ago. I brought my lips to his ear.
"Xavier, baby lay here
and just feel the pleasure I am going to give you." I whispered
in his ear. He purred. He actually purred like a cat. I groaned
out because my cock was on the verge of exploding. "Hell" I said
and licked my way down his spine to his butt cheeks. They were
the cutest butt cheeks I had ever seen. Round and delicious. But
that wasn't the reason my mouth watering. No the reason my mouth
was watering was because of what layed between these sexy butt
cheeks. I got off of Xavier, took him by the waist and pulled his
back portion up so his ass was exposed to me. I separated the
cheeks and took a delicious lick
Xavier's body jerked.
This was the first time I was doing this to him. It was for his
pleasure and his pleasure was my pleasure. I took another lick
and then another and then another. His asshole was tight and
puckered. I got on top of Xavier, pulled back his hair from his
forehead and told him to suck my index finger, which he did so
erotically that I came right then and there. I went back to his
ass-hole and brought out the same finger he had sucked and
penetrated him with it.
"Corbin, shit." he
panted. His asshole was so tight. It gripped my finger. He had
never lessened up even after all this time I had fucked him. No!
He had stayed as tight as possible. I moved my finger in and out
slowly letting him get used to it. Once he did I started moving
my finger faster and faster.
"Oh, oh, oh." Xavier
repeated again and again. "God, Corbin right there, yes right
there." He told me and I moved my finger to where he was telling
me to. And in couple of minutes I made him come again. He slumped
back in bed exhausted. I quickly took off my clothes because I
just couldn't wait anymore. Like him I wasn't wearing boxers
wither. Once I was fully naked I went to get the lotion from the
side drawer. I quickly opened the bottle cap, poured some on my
hand and rubbed it all over my steel hard cock. Closing the
bottle I tossed it aside and got on top of Xavier. Pulling
his back portion up again.
"Xavier read." I asked
him. He gave me a small nod. I took my cock in my hand and slowly
worked it in his ass-hole. I gritted my teeth.
He..was..so..fucking…tight. I had to pull my cock out a bit then
enter him again. It took me a few tried and finally I was buried
to the hilt. I hissed out. I bended over Xavier so my hands were
braced at the side of his face.
"Fuck Xavier, baby you
are so tight." I told him as I started to move ever so slowly,
pumping my hips in and out. Xavier cried out. I was fucking him
slowly, afraid I would hurt him but he had other plans.
"Corbin, faster, fuck me
faster and harder." He told me. His voice all muffled. I took
hold of his hips. I almost took all of my cock out from his
ass-hole before ramming it back inside. Xavier shouted and I lost
all of my control. I pumped my hips furiously in and out. My one
hand found its way to his hair and I yanked his head back.
"Yeah, baby fuck scream my
name just like that." I told him as I jack-hammered in his hole.
"Yes, you like that don't you." My other hand found his cock and
I moved my hand up and down all the while I was fucking him
harder and faster.
"Corbin." Xavier yelled as he
came. All his seed oozing on my hand. His scream made me lost all
control and I released my see in his ass-hole. I grunted. I don't
think I have ever came this hard.
I collapsed on top of Xavier.
My cock still buried in his tight hole, gripping it. We were both
breathing hard. Finally when I got my breath back to almost
normal I kissed the back of his neck, tasting the salty sweat on
"Baby, I am going to pull out
okay." I told Xavier.
"Mmm." Was all he said. I got
up on my shaky hands and knees and slowly pulled my cock out of
his asshole, bringing out a moan from both of us. Xavier turned
over on his back and looked up at me. I smiled and leaned down to
kiss him. He ran his hands through my hair. I pulled back and
rested my back against the bed-head. Xavier got up and sat in
front of me, so his back was to my chest and my arms
automatically went around him.
"God, I missed you so much and
I missed fucking you." I finally told him after a moment of
silence. Xavier leaned back and I lightly kissed his
"I know I missed everything
too." He told me, snuggling even closer to me if that was even
possible. I thought now was the best time to ask him what I have
wanted to ask for the past two months.
"Xav, if I asked you something,
would you say yes?" I asked him.
"Of course I will." He told me
without even thinking about it, I smiled, leaned over to the bed
where my side drawers were. I quickly opened it and took out the
small box that was sitting in there for the past two moths.
Leaning back to my position I brought the tiny box in front of
"Xavier, baby will you marry me?" I
asked him. My heart racing, no, not racing but pounding in my
chest. I was scared and my palms were sweating. For a long time
Xavier didn't say anything. My smile turned into a frown. He…
"Oh so that's how it is." I said
but I wasn't giving up. "Baby I know this is a bit awkward. I
mean two guys getting married could be a bit weird but Xavier I
swear I would give you all the happiness in the world and I
wouldn't let anyone including myself hurt you." I talked quickly
and desperately. I wanted him to be mine forever and I would do
anything to make him say yes. I opened my mouth to say something
else but before I could say anything Xavier turned around and
hugged me tightly to him. His face was buried in my neck.
"Yes, god, yes, yes, yes." He said
and repeated it again and again. I exhaled and kissed the top of
his head. I took his face in between my hands and kissed him
"I love you, I love you so much." I
finally told him those words after all these years.
"I love you too." He whispered back
those three beautiful words. I took the ring out of the box and
put it on his ring finger. He looked at it with awe.
"I love it and I love you." He said
and there were tears in his eyes. I grinned.
"Of course you do, cuz no one else
like you. And so I guess this means I am stuck with you for the
rest of my life."I teased and he punched my on the shoulder. He
turned over once again snuggling close to me.
"Oh remember high school Corbin." He
asked and I know what he was talking about.
"Of course I do baby, those were the
best moments of my life." I told him and all those wonderful and
horrific memories of what happened came flooding thought my mind
before I could stop them.
FOUR YEARS AGO
It was September 3rd and
the schools had started. I was in grade 12, big deal. I was in
the foyer with my friend Nick who was super excited about grade
12. Ha! He was such a nerd. I had all the easy subjects this
semester and I was happy about that.
""let's go." I told him and we made
our way to our classes. First days of school are always tiring. I
mean after waking up at umm, lets say at 1:00 'clock in the
afternoon and then suddenly waking up at 6:30 in the morning
ain't a good thing.
Anyways my first class I checked is
fucking math. Math! Just fucking great. I said bye to Nick and
made my way to my math class. It was the only class I hated with
so much passion because well I sucked at it. I would rather jump
off of a train then do math. Ha! Not really I wouldn't do that.
Anyways as I made my way to the back of the class and I noticed
there was a kid sitting there. And by there I meant he was
sitting in my seat. I went up to him and stopped right in front
of him. Oh and did I mentioned with my mouth hanging open.
The guy was just simply gorgeous.
Yup, I said it right. He wasn't hot or sexy just simply gorgeous.
He had jet black hair that fell on his forehead, NOT in an emo
type way though. His eyes were just as black as his hair and I m
pretty sure I was seeing my own reflection. I don't know how long
I stood there staring at him and I am pretty sure that he was
annoyed because he was like.
"What are you staring at?" I blushed
"Nothing,uh, y..you are s..sitting
at my seat." I told him stuttering. What the hell was wrong with
me? Why am I stuttering like a girl? I wasn't gay or
"Where does it s ay that?" the
beautiful guy asked me sarcastically. I just got pissed. Who the
hell does he think he is?
"It doesn't, I just sit at the back
of every class." I guess he wasn't interested in talking or in
this case arguing cuz he was like "Whatever dude" and moved over
to the next chair. Whatever! If he didn't wanted to talk then who
was I to say anything cuz I wasn't in the mood to listen either.
So I threw my backpack on the ground and sat on the chair. It was
kind of warm maybe because the new guy sat there. I waited for
the class to start and well I tried my best to keep my eyes to
The new guy smelled like lavender
and I think at that time I fell in love with that smell. The
teacher finally came in and introduced himself as Mr. Kepelky and
then started handing us math sheets. This was another reason I
hated math. Right on the first day the teacher would give you at
least 20 worksheets and it always tended to piss me off even
The new guy beside me kept his mouth
shut the whole class. He didn't say one single word. I couldn't
even hear him breathing, so I decided to take a quick sneak peak
of his profile again. I turned my head slightly and looked at
him, god he was fascinating. His face didn't held one single
emotion and I started wondering what he was thinking. Was he
thinking about his girlfriend? Did he even have a girlfriend?
Where does he live? What is he like when he is not in the school?
All these questions ran through my mind like an express train.
Before I could stop myself I told him my name.
"I am Corbin." I said and when I
didn't get any answer back I frowned. What was his problem? He
just stared straight ahead with a blank expression. I frowned
again. And then I shook my head. Why do I care? I didn't even
like him (I think). I mentally shrugged before getting back to my
Finally after what seemed like
eternity the bell rang. I stuffed al my stuff in my back pack and
then looked up. The new guy was gone just like that. He was a
typical bad guy with lovely looks. I shrugged on my back-pack
then left the class. Luckily the great things about older grades
were you can have a spare and that was exactly what I had. So I
decided to just go to gym since no one was there, but I was
wrong. As I made my way up the little stage where there were all
the rows I noticed someone else was sitting and as I got closer
to the person I saw who it was.
"What are you doing here?" I
demanded looking at his beautiful features. My heart actually did
a little flip when he looked up.
He sighed and said. "Is this your
seat too?" For a second I was confused. Then I remembered the
"Uh..No "I said completely
embarrassed. I sat down next to him.
"So how come you are skipping at
your first day of new school." I asked him ignoring the stupid
fluttering in my belly. This seriously is so stupid I mean like I
said before I am not gay. So how come I was getting all bubbly
over this guy. I mean he is a GUY.
Sot the new guy sighed again. It was
as if he was really old. "I am not skipping, this is my spare."
He told me flatly.
"Oh, okay." Not sure what else to
say I asked him his name. "Mind telling me your name since I
"Yes, I do mind." He said in an
irritated voice. I kept my mouth shut this time and got up to
leave but he suddenly took hold of my hand and pushed me back
"Just stay okay." He said avoiding
my eyes. O-KAY! What the hell. I nodded warily and sat there
looking in the space. This was really awkward. We sat there in
silence and then I heard him say
"Xavier" I looked at him. Who's
Xavier??? He must have seen the confused look on my face. He gave
me the smallest of small smile, just a little tilt of the sides
of his mouth.
"My name is Xavier." He told me
looking straight in the space.
"Xavier." I repeated his name. okay
if I wasn't so sure I thought I felt him shudder a bit but I
wasn't so sure so I didn't know. I liked his name. It was
different. "I like it." I told him and then mentally slapped
myself for being so stupid. So what if I liked his name.
"Thanks" he said and then silence
again. I shifted uncomfortably in my seat
"Soo where do you live?" I asked him
trying to make little conversation.
"101 Crown Street." He told me. And
I was surprised because he lived right across from my
"Really, then your are practically
my neighbor." I told him smiling. Xavier just shrugged. Well
there goes my attempt for making a small talk. He looked at me
and his hair fell on the forehead. I clenched my hands, resisting
the urge to swipe them away.
"Corbin." Xavier said and I looked
at him. Suddenly he was so close to me that I felt his warm
breath on my lips.
"W-what is it?" I asked him. Did I
mention to you before that his eyes were coal black? They sucked
me in and before I knew what was happening he settled his lips on
mine. Oh my lord my eyes actually rolled back. His lips were
softer then a baby's skin. I couldn't help it anymore and brought
my tongue out at the same time he opened his lips for me to enter
his mouth. My tongue found his and I licked it. He made a small
sound at the back of his throat that sounded a lot like a groan.
He sucked on my tongue as if it was a lollipop.
I gasped and pulled back so quickly
my head swam. What the hell was I doing kissing a guy. He must
have seen the horror on my face because instantly his face became
hard as rock. Before I could say anything he got up and left
without saying a word. Me? I just sat there completely frozen. I
could still feel him on my lips. I could still taste him. I got
up when I could finally breathe again and got out of the gym too.
The first thing my eyes looked for was Xavier. I even looked
around the whole school but I couldn't find him. Where the hell
did he go? So for the rest of the school day I couldn't find him
and it pissed me off so much. I was even rude to my friend Nick
who just looked at me as if I had gone crazy. And yeah I had gone
crazy. I wanted to find Xavier and ask him for an explanation. I
wanted to find Xavier and… and what. I don't know what I
I was fuming all the way back to my
house, after school how dare he kiss me? I opened the door to my
house and went straight to my room. As usual my parents weren't
home and I was actually happy cuz I got so used to not being with
them. I went straight to my computer and went on facebook. I
don't even know why I go there since there is noting on it but I
still kind of love it. I logged out. Finally after changing and
eating my lunch I went to bed. I was tired from today's day. I
sighed as I layed on my bed staring at the ceiling. Before I knew
it I was asleep.
I was walking down this place
where there was nothing but walls around me. I was walking
wherever my feet were taking me.
"Hello is anyone there?" I asked
out loud but no response came except for the echo of my own
voice. I was practically sweating now. I had no idea where the
fuck I was and this was so weird. Suddenly out of nowhere a door
opened and bright light came from the door. I moved towards the
door slowly. When I reached it I slowly pushed the door farther
open. I couldn't really see anything because of the bright light.
So I went inside to see if there was anyone there. Suddenly the
bright light was gone and I saw a figure of a person.
"Hello." I called out. The person
slowly turned around. My eyes got so wide when I realized who it
was. It was HIM.
I woke up with a jolt. Holly shit
what kind of dream was that. I was sweating from head to toe. And
my breathing was so hard. I stumbled out of my bed and went
straight to my bathroom. I turned the water tap to icy cold and
washed my face. That really was a crazy dream. Turning of the
water tap I cleaned my face with a towel.
I went downstairs in the living
room. I turned on the TV. But nothing was on so I turned it off
and went to the kitchen to get something to eat again. My house
bell rang and I wondered who it was. I went to open the door and
my parents were standing there. I blinked at them they are never
home this early. I mentally shrugged and went back.
"Baby, we are going to Paris for
this huge project." My mom said as she went straight to her room.
My dad right behind her. THIS was my parents. No hi's, no asking
if I am alright or not, they were all about work and money. We
were practically rich. We had so much money that sometimes it
made me sick.
"Whatever" I muttered. So after half
and hour my mom tossed me 200 bucks and was out of the door just
like that. I looked at the money, and then tossed it on the sofa,
I looked at the clock it was 7:30, I didn't have any homework
today, and I had finished it all at school. And I wouldn't be
able to sleep because I just woke up and I was wide awake and I
didn't know what else to do. So I just decided to go back to bed
since I didn't had anything to do.
That night sleep came to me really
easily and I slept soundlessly forgetting about the kiss, uh not
really and about my parents. Life sometimes was really
Like always I rushed to school
because no one was home to wake me up. It only took me fifteen
minutes to walk and I walked really fast. By the time I reached
there almost everyone was going to their classes. Some people
were skipping and some were walking lazily so they can be late
for class on purpose. Me? I was neither hurrying nor walking
slow. I went to my locker, opened it and threw the things I
didn't needed in it, before slamming it shut and hurrying to my
The final bell rang just as I
entered the class and automatically my eyes went to where Xavier
was sitting. I blushed bright red as I remembered the kiss from
yesterday. Taking a deep breath I went to where my seat was. I
realized Xavier was sitting behind me this time not beside me. I
frowned. What was this guy's problem? I looked at him. He was
staring straight ahead as if he didn't even notice I was there. I
mean I was 6 inches away from him how he could NOT notice me. His
face was hard as a rock showing no emotions. I threw my back pack
on the floor and sat in the chair. Half of the class went really
boring and the other half I was having a battle. My brain kept
telling me not to look back at Xavier but my heart kept urging me
to take a look at him. In the end I just sat there like a zombie
trying my best not to fell asleep. Finally the bell rang and I
quickly grabbed my stuff and stuffed it into my pack. Pulling the
pack on my shoulder I noticed Xavier was gone. Again! I quickly
got out of the class and went straight to gym. But to my great
disappointment he wasn't there.
Where the hell was he? I thought
frustrated. I got out of the gym since there was no point of
sitting in there alone. I sighed and went outside. It was a nice
sunny day and it was kind of hot. I looked around. Not many kids
were around. Some boys smoking in the corner and some slutty
girls checking them out. I walked for a bit and then went behind
the school where the track field was. There was a person sitting
on one of the benches. I slowly made my way there and when I
reached the person I gasped quietly. He was sitting here all
alone by himself. He didn't notice me again. I climbed on the
stairs and sat right beside him, making sure my arm was touching
his lightly. This really wasn't a good idea because it sent a
shiver down my spine. Xavier finally turned his face towards
mine, and I was struck by his beautiful face.
"What do you want?" he asked me.
Fuck even his voice didn't held any emotions.
"I am just sitting here." I told him
irritated at his question.
"Whatever." He said and looked
straight again. I looked where he was looking and I found
nothing. What was he always staring at? It was a bit
"So how was math?" I asked him
trying to sound cool as if two friends were having a conversation
Xavier's only answer was a shrug. I sighed again running a hand
through my hair.
"What is your problem Xavier?" I
asked him. Finally losing my patience.
"You" he simply answered and I
stared at him .dumbfounded. Me! I was his problem?
"How am I your problem?" I asked him
wanting to know why he hated me so much.
"Because you are irritating as
hell." He told me flatly. Irritating and me? I was the funniest
kid in the whole fucking universe (not really).
"I didn't do anything irritating;
you are the one who is irritating." I said to him. He sighed and
grabbed his pack and left the bench. I turned around.
"Hey where are you going?" I yelled
after him. I cannot believe this kid. He was so damn
"I am going to hell, want to join
me?" he asked dryly and kept on walking. I quickly got off the
bench and ran after him. He was already across the other
"Wait for me." I told him and
finally caught up with him. "Where are you going?' I demanded.
But he didn't answer me and kept on walking and soon I realized
we were back inside the school. Xavier kept on walking around the
school and me right behind him. Finally after 20 something rounds
of school he went back outside. O-Kay this guy was crazy.
"Where are you going?" I asked him
again. He was going back to the back of the school and like an
idiot I followed him. He finally stopped and I almost bumped into
him. Xavier turned around and looked me in the eye and once again
I got lost in those coal black eyes.
"W-what?" I stuttered unable to look
away from him.
"Why are you following me?" he asked
me coldly. Yes! Why was I following him? I asked myself the same
question. And the answer was I DON"T KNOW. I just stared at him
unable to give him any answer because I didn't have one.
"I..Uh.." I looked away. I what?
What could I tell him? That the only reason I was following him
was because I wanted to be with him. Even though I wasn't gay
Xavier made me feel things that I have never felt inside me. Like
whenever he looked at me my heart skipped a beat or like whenever
I am with him my skin feels tingly and my cock starts to throb. I
couldn't tell him any of these things.
"Whatever, I was just trying to be
nice." I muttered.
"Well then go find someone else." He
told me sharply, turned around and walked away. I felt like as if
someone had slapped me. Why was this guy always so rude? I was
just trying to be nice to him that was all. I blew out my breath,
turned around and also left. I looked back and Xavier was gone. I
shook my head and went straight to the public library since I
didn't felt like going to the classes. I took out my phone and
checked my text, there was one from my friend nick.
"Where are you?" he had
"Public library." I texted back. I
got his text a few seconds later.
"Why?" I thought about if I should
tell him about what happened since he was my friend but then
decided against it.
"Don't want to go to classes.
Peace." I told him. I didn't felt like doing anything. To tell
the truth, I just wanted to be with Xavier. Well hell, something
was definitely wrong with me, I was lusting after a damn guy. A
guy who didn't give a shit about me. I sighed and spent the rest
of the school day in the library.
I went home that afternoon with all
these weird feeling. I so wasn't' attracted to Xavier. He was
just a rude guy who was so cold. But then why did I feel so happy
whenever I see him. Why did my heart starts pounding whenever I
am with him. No this was all crazy. I mean I am a guy and guys
don't like guys. Especially the wrong one. Right! Ugh this was
really annoying. I reached my house, opened the door and after
closing it went to my room. I did the same old things. Checked my
facebook and email and I didn't found anything so I went to lie
on my bed. I think it was almost 8:00 at night when my house
phone rang. I picked it up without checking the caller id.
"Yo." I said in the phone, guessing
it was one of my friends.
"Is this Corbin somerhalder?" it was
a man's voice.
"Uh, yes, why?" I asked
"Well I am Davy and I just wanted to
tell you that your parents died in a plane crash. I am very
sorry." My world broke right there. I don't know how I got to the
bathroom and started throwing up. I didn't even remember going
downstairs and meeting the police. And I didn't even remember
listening to them when they told me that there bodies was burned
and the police had already buried them somewhere deep in the
ground. I don't remember closing the door and going straight to
my room and falling asleep. All I remember is that it was already
morning and it was my time to go to school. I didn't felt
anything. No emotions, no feelings as I took a shower and got
dressed. I was a zombie as I made my way to school. I didn't even
go to my locker just went straight to my math class. I walked in
feeling numb. Xavier was sitting behind me again and I didn't
care. I didn't felt irritated or mad because he wasn't sitting
beside me. I just went to my seat and sat in the chair. Like
always Xavier hadn't glance at me but I didn't care. The rest of
the period I sat there, but I did feel my heart pound because
Xavier's breath was tickling my neck. The bell rang. I threw all
my stuff in my back-pack. Like always Xavier was gone from the
class. I got out of the class. This time I didn't go to gym, no I
went outside, behind my school. Where me and Xavier were sitting
I looked up and lost my breath.
Xavier was there but he wasn't alone. There was a guy sitting
beside him, and I have to say the guy was hot. But I just felt
disgusting as I thought about that guy. I didn't really feel
excited or bubbly over this guy. So this means I wasn't really
gay. Pshhh! What did I mean by really/ I wasn't gay at all.
Xavier looked at me briefly and then dismissed me just as fast, I
couldn't believe what happened after. Xavier turned around to the
new guy and kissed him. He KISSED him. My mouth dropped to the
ground. The new guy's hands found there way into Xavier's hair.
It pissed me off so much I thought I was going to go on fire. I
climbed on the bench, grabbed Xavier's hand and yanked him off of
the new guy.
"Don't ever touch him." I told the
new guy through my clenched teeth. I got off of the bench
dragging Xavier behind me. First my parents died and now I had to
see something like this. My day wasn't gong really well. I don't
remember ever being this jealous. How dare the new guy kiss
Xavier? Xavier was mine and mine only. At that time I didn't even
think about that what I doing and thinking. Xavier yanked his
"what the fuck do you think you are
doing?" he asked me furiously. I turned and looked at him.
"How dare that guy kiss you?" I
"For your fucking information, he
wasn't kissing me, I was the one who kissed him." Xavier hissed.
I looked at him.
"Why?" I asked him, trying to calm
"because I wanted to." He told me.
Because he WANTED to.
"What does that mean?"I asked him
staring in his eyes looking for some kind of emotions but I
couldn't find anything. They were empty.
"Listen Corbin, just leave me
fucking alone." He told me. He turned around and was about to
leave that I grabbed his arm and turned him around to face
"What did that suppose to mean
Xavier?" I asked him again. He looked frustrated.
"It doesn't mean fuck okay, now just
get the fuck out of my sight." He told me harshly. I looked at
"You want me to leave?" I asked him,
he nodded. "Fine I'll Fucking leave but not like this." And then
I did it. I grabbed his face and kissed him. I kissed him hard,
pouring all my frustration into the kiss. Xavier on the other
hand stood there for a sec and then pushed me away from
"What the fuck do you think you are
doing? He roared.
"I was kissing you." I threw back.
He threw his head back and laughed. It wasn't a funny laugh. It
was more of a bitter laugh.
"God you are so pathetic. Now fuck
off and stop wasting my time." Before I could move away from me
again I threw myself at him and kissed him again. This time he
didn't push me away, nor did he kiss me either. No, his left arm
came around my waist and held me tightly to him and his right
threaded itself in my hair. He pulled my head back so hard it
hurted really bad but I didn't let him know that.
"What the fuck do you want from me?"
he growled. "Did you not hear me when I told you to leave me
alone?" He said and clenched his hand in my hair, which hurted a
"I don't know what I want." I told
"Then leave me alone and find
someone else." He said and just like that released me. He turned
around and started walking away.
"I want you dammit" I shouted after
him. He abruptly stopped and turned around. He smirked at me and
I was stunned. It was the first time he gave me some kind of
"Fuck off Corbin. You don't want me,
on one fucking wants me." He told me and then left. He left me
standing there all alone. I watched him grab the other guy's hand
who was still sitting on the bench looking at us. I watched him
kiss that boy again. I watched him leave me all alone. My
shoulders slumped and a tear ran down my cheek. I quickly wiped
it away. I wasn't going to cry for no one. Not my parents and
definitely not for him.