I was sitting on the
roof of the Kazekage's office. I really wanted to be with Gaara,
Today was my 14th
birthday and I was standing outside with
"Gaara, what's the
matter? You've never asked to me to come out this late at night."
I say to him. We usually were out on the roof top for a few hours
of the night because I knew hel iked to do that. But he never
kept me up this late.
"I have to go back to
my village." He said, avoiding my eyes.
"I don't see how
that's a problem. I know long-distance relationships don't last
long, but-" I say weakly, hoping he didn't mean what he was
"Sophie, I can't
string you along anymore. I have to let you go." Anymore? Was he
just playing me this whole time?
"Gaara, I...I don't
understand. Your just going to leave? After everything we've been
through?" I was heart-broken. I never thought we'd ever break up.
Not after what he and I did.
"I'm sorry, Sophie. I
hope you can forgive me." Really? He honestly thought I would
forgive him for this?
"You can take me with
you. I thought you loved me. Or was I just imagining things? Are
you really capable of loving anything?" He glared at me. I know
what I said was harsh, but he just mindfucked me. How was I
supposed to react?
"I thought you knew
how I felt. I thought you were the one person that I could trust,
but I guess I was wrong." He looked at me with saddened
"I guess we were both
wrong." I started backing away. I didn't want to hear any more.
If I did, I might go insane.
"Sophie, Let's not end
it this way." He held out his arms, trying to sooth me. I moved
away from him.
"You know, I really
loved you. I've never loved anyone the way I love you. I know now
you're nothing but a self-centered brat!" I knew I did it. I made
"SAND COFFIN!" He
yells and sand surrounded me.
"AHHHH!" I scream then
every thing went black.
'Damn! I really did
push his buttons, didn't I?' I sigh as I thought
"Sophie, just talk to
him. He was surprised to see you. Maybe he's happy to see you
'I dunno. I really
pissed him off. I wouldn't be surprised if he hates me.' I wish I
knew what he thought.
"That look in his
eyes. He looked like he really missed you." Accalia assured
'We'll see.' Then,
someone's voice snapped me out of my trance. It was
"Sophie, you okay?" He
"Yeah, I'm fine.
Congrats on becoming Kazekage." I just kept looking
"Thanks. Wanna come
inside?" He held his hand out.
I panicke on the
inside 'What should I do? Is he over it?' I was so caught up in
my head, I forgot he was there.
"Sophie?" His voiced
snapped me back to reality
"Oh, sorry. I'm
coming." I smiled at him
"Come on." He grabbed
my wrist, and we both started blushing.
"I can walk myself,
thanks." I pull my arm away gently.
"O...kay?" He walked
'This is just a great
day! I need to stop acting like such a bitch all the
"One step at a time,
Soph." Acclia told me
'I know. Thanks.' I
followed Gaara. 'I still love him. I...I' Why couldn't I just
tell him how I felt?
"Sophie, I need to
talk to you." Gaara said, nervously
"What do you need,
Gaara?" I ask, wondering why he was so nervous. I never saw him
nervous, so it was very odd seeing it now
Then he blurted out
"Do you love me?"
He caught me of guard.
I wasn't sure what to say. "Huh? Wha...? I..."
"I'll take that as a
no. Great." He sighed and sat down in his chair.
"Gaara, do you still
love me?" I ask him, very confused by him
"Yes, I do. I feel
like I'm wasting my time, now." He sighed
"What do you mean?" I
"If you don't love me,
I don't see why I should keep trying. Maybe I should give up but
I can't." He can't give up on me?
"Maybe because I still
love you. I was just confused. I thought you would hate me." It's
true. I wondered if he was just playing with my mind right now or
"Why would I hate
you?" He looked up with a 'what the hell?' face.
"Because of what I
said. I said something, if you forgot that would make me feel
better. But I doubt you did." I sigh, thinking of that night
"I didn't forget. I do
forgive you, though. I've longed for the day where I could touch
you again." He got up and walked over to me. "Do you understand?"
He placed his hands on my shoulders.
"Yeah, I do. I've
always loved you. I just said that because I was mad and I didn't
know what to say. I regret it so much. I'm so so so so so sorry!
I'll do anything to prove. I'll be your servant, maid,
"Say you love me. Be
my lover. Can you do that Sophie? If you can do that, I'll know
you are sorry." He moved away from me.
"I can do that. I love
you, Gaara. I really do." He walked back over to me and kissed me
very lightly, as if he didn't trust. "Gaara, you can do better
"I'm waiting. I'll
kiss you for real when I can trust you." He smiled and went back
I smiled and walked
out of the office to look around this village I use to know so
well. I remembered how on the weekends there would be karaoke
contests. God, how I loved doing that. I loved singing. It made
me happy. I don't know why. I always loved singing, or at least
that's what Itachi had told me. If I could have one thing in this
world other than being with Gaara, is for them to stop fighting.
Or more Sasuke stop trying to kill Itachi. I sigh and sign up for
Friday night's contest.
I walk around some
more not sure what to do now.