I looked away for a second. "It just
hurts to know that Im in a relationship alone. I know he doesn't
want this but for some reason I'm still here."
"How do you know that? If you dont
mind me askin."
"Because he told me."
"Well I know I'm a stranger but,
youre a beautiful woman, you seem smarter than whats happening
with you're relationship." he said trying to make eye contact
"Well apparently everything aint what
it seems. I don't know what I did or what i should do. I'm
fighting for something thats not even there anymore and at that
I'm outside on a bench telling a stranger my life story. I'm over
"My name is Taylor."
"No offense Taylor but I'm not
interested in knowing you I have enough to deal with and if my
man knew about this conversation it would just add insult to
"I understand. I gotta get going
anyway but before I leave let me tell you something....stranger
or not, you're too damn beautiful and if you were with me I would
do what I had to do to keep you happy. I bet you he's not telling
you what you want to hear and what you need to hear. I bet you
he's not makin you feel the way he used to make you feel. All you
probably get from him is everything you're 'doing wrong'. I bet
you the only time you feel wanted is when you layin up with him.
I bet you-" I got up and looked him right in his eyes. Even
though everything he was saying was true he pissed me off. This
man doesn't know a damn thing about me.
"I don't know who you think you
are...some knight in shinning armor or some shit, but its not
gonna work with me. Been there done that so forget it!" I stormed
off. I was just walking aimlessly. I didn't wanna go home at all
but I had no where else to go.
I put my key in the lock and turned
the doorknob. I walked into my apartment and the vibe alone was
enough to make me roll my eyes. I could hear the television from
our room all the way in the livingroom. I wasn't in the mood to
look at him so I just sat in the livingroom in the dark. I
started thinking about all the things Taylor said to me. I shook
my head. He made me so upset earlier, as cute as he was, he
didn't know me well enough to just talk to me like that. Im in
this relationship because I want to be. I shook my head again. I
know I'm playing myself but the fact of the matter is I just
I jumped up and wiped the drool off
the side of my mouth. Disgusting. I realized i fell asleep on the
couch last night being that I still had on yesterdays clothes. I
sucked my teeth and went to the bathroom. I looked into the
mirror feeling defeated. Snapping out of it I took my clothes off
and jumped into the shower. For a while I just stood there and
let the hot water run on my face. The steam felt so calming. I
swear an hour an a half passed before I finally got out. I walked
into my bedroom and there he was laying down watching t.v. Him.
The man who could do without me. I sighed. "You know I love when
you have your towel on." he said. I walked pass him without
making eye contact. "You should come over here and let me see
that sexy ass up close."
"Wow." I said.
"Wow that now on this special day, my
ass is sexy. When just last night, this same ass was a 'stupid
bitch'". I said sarcastically
"Come on baby you know I don't mean
those things. I was mad, we were arguing, you know how it
"Yea, unfortunately." He came up
behind me and put his arms around me. "I'm not playing this game
with you today. You think you can do and say whatever you want
whenever you want. Get the hell off of me." I said nudging him.
He didn't budge. Probably because he had 200 pounds on
"You might as well just get over it
Tracy, you can't stay mad at me all day so stop playin and give
me what i want. He started kissing my neck and put his hand
underneath my towel. As much as I hated him, he put a tingle in
my spine. He pressed up on me to make me feel his firmness. And
again, a chill. I didn't want to give into him. He doesn't
deserve this after the things he said to me yesterday and yet
here we go. He picked me up and layed me on the bed. He started
kissing me and as he went lower he peeled my towel back exposing
my partially damp body. I felt his warm lips graze my inner
thigh. I already knew what was coming next. I jumped when his
tongue seperated my lips and touched my clit. Slow,soft,gentle. I
could feel every gesture his tongue was making. My toes curled as
he licked me harder giving me no mercy. I dug my nails into his
shoulder as my climax came and put and invouluntary arch in my
back. Before it could end I felt his rock hard entrance. I can't
lie I was loving the feeling of him. He stroked me deep and slow
making me moan his favorite moans in his ear. "Damn" I
"You like that?" he whispered back. I
didn't respond. As good as he felt he didn't deserve any praise
from me. Already knowing whats up, "You aint gotta tell me, I
already know." He whispered. He dug into me taking the breath out
of me. I arched my back and he grabbed me closer. He went deeper
and deeper and deeper. I knew he was trying to get a point
across. He grabbed my hips for one last thrust. I felt every last
drop shoot into the back of me. He came so hard he didn't realize
how hard he was holding me.
"Ouch Derrick let go!!" I
He chuckled. "Damn sorry babe..I was
in the moment." I rolled my eyes and got off the bed. I hated
myself. I always give in to him. We go through the same circles.
Argue, fuss, fight, fuck and the cycle starts all over again and
someway somehow he always comes out on top of all of
As I wiped myself down in the
bathroom I looked out the window. Judging from the uhaul trucks
they must've finally rented out that apartment next door. Walking
out the bathroom I could hear Derrick and another man talking at
"If you need any help let me know
man. Its about time they rented that apartment out." Derrick said
"Thanks man. Whats your name by the
"Derrick. I live here with my
"That's wassup. Im
"Well its nice to meet you man don't
be a stranger."
"Yea I gotta finish getting settled
but I'm sure I'll see you around." Derrick gave Taylor a pound
and closed the door. I heard him pass the bathroom door and go
back to our room. I got so nervous. If I wasn't mistakin...that
sounded ike the Taylor that told me about myself just the other
day. I wanted to tell Derrick but I already knew it wold turn
into an arguement. I quietly walked out of the bathroom and went
to the front door in my towel. Looking through the peep hole I
couldn't believe my eyes.
To Be Continued....