This is not happening to me, I thought as Earl and two other men I couldn’t see pushed me to the ground.
“Did you really think that I was going to stay away bitch!” Earl was standing in front of me now while two men I didn’t recognise were holding my arms behind my back, one of them was covering my mouth to keep me from screaming while his other hand was holding a knife at my throat.
“We’re going to have some fun with you!” the one holding my arms whispered in my ear. I tried to scream but it was muffled, I tried to kick but the one holding me only gripped my wrists tighter behind my back making tears stream down my face from the pain. This isn’t happening to me, I kept repeating to myself while Earl roughly palmed my breasts. It hurt and it made him smile. His yellowed teeth were showing.
“I’m the one who found her so I’m going first” he told the others while he pulled my top up . I kept screaming but no sound came out. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t think straight. All I knew was that I didn’t want this. All I could think about was NO while his filthy hands undid my bra and cupped my left breast roughly. The word NO was screaming in my head while his filthy mouth went to my neck. I couldn’t kick, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t scream. All I could do is think NO while he pulled my pants down.
“I want to kiss her” Earl said , the hand covering my mouth moved but before I could scream Earls nauseating taste was in my mouth, his tongue was drilling, pushing against mine. NO was screaming in my head.
Think! A little voice inside of me yelled, Do something!
I stopped thinking about the pain and the taste and concentrated on what I could do to get free.
My hands were still tied, my legs were trapped between two men.
Suddenly an idea came to my mind and when Earl’s hand slipped into my panties I bit down on his tongue as hard as I could.
“You fucking bitch!” he spat blood from his mouth and then he punched me in the eye.
I screamed as hard as I could but he punched my other eye and the hand was back on my mouth.
“You scream again and I’ll cut your throat bitch!” the man behind me whispered in my ear as they pushed me to the floor.
My eyes were hurting, I couldn’t see straight anymore and I could feel them swelling.
“You think you can get away from me you bitch!” I heard Earl say.
I couldn’t see anymore, my face was hurting all over. My eyes were swollen shut. I could feel rough hands on my breasts and between my legs.
I hit the ground hard with my head and my legs were being pulled apart. No, please no was all I could think while a heavy body covered mine. I don’t want this please No! I silently yelled in my head while a hand still covered my mouth.
“Keep her legs open” I heard Earls voice right before I felt him penetrating my still dry entrance. NO! was screaming in my head, burning in my veins, swelling in my stomach…NO.
He penetrated me hard and fast and it hurt. I could feel my flesh tear a little and my legs were hurting too. The knife at my throat was scratching my throat while I heard Earl’s ugly grunts in my ear. “Let me kiss her” he said between grunts .
“What? Are you crazy ? she will scream her head off if I let her go now!” the one behind me said.
“I’ll be quick, no one will hear, let me have her mouth!” Earl yelled. He was obviously in control because the hand left my mouth again. I was about to scream when Earls filthy mouth covered mine again. His thrusts were faster and his tongue was suffocating me. I knew I shouldn’t bite him again, I knew he would kill me if I did. But inside of me, some little part I didn’t know existed told me to fight ,so I did.
I bit down on his tongue again. Harder this time as hard as I could. Earl’s screams were loud and as soon as his mouth was off mine I inhaled and screamed as hard as I could.
I was still screaming when a big blow hit my jaw and the hand was back on my mouth.
“You bitch!” Earl thrust harder inside of me now, intending to hurt me.
“You are going to pay for this!”. I felt the knife leave my throat
“This will teach you” Earl said laughing.
Suddenly I felt a piercing pain in my right leg , he was pulling the knife true the skin on my leg. It hurt too much and I started to hyperventilate. I couldn’t breathe anymore, the pain was too much. My head felt heavy and I felt like the world around me was spinning. I could hear voices in the distance but I had no strength to understand what they were saying. Suddenly Earls weight was gone, I couldn’t feel him penetrating me anymore and the hand on my mouth went away. But I was already drifting away .
I came back several times, it felt like falling into a deep black hole and coming up again every time.
“Gemma!” I heard Ethan’s voice right before I slipped away again.
“I’m here baby, I’m so sorry baby” Someone was lifting me up from the floor, the voice was familiar… Dave? I wanted to run, scream, yell but I had no strength in my body.
I could feel my limbs hanging while someone carried me. My head was resting against a chest. I know this smell I thought as I recognised Dave’s cologne.
“Give her to me!” I heard Ethan’s voice beside me right before I slipped away again…