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Without You, I'm Lost

Novel By: Nikkibeth

(FINISHED) *Sequel to Hungry for Love and Characters from Baby Let Me In* Carmen McKenna is the daughter of Dylan and Kylie McKenna, and has it made. Perfect parents, her life sorted out, she is missing just one thing, a man. On her Senior year of high school, a new teacher is starting. Jacob Lancaster, English teacher has her in a trance, wanting him. She knows she will do the same thing her mom done over twenty years ago with her father. Carmen and Jacob's relationship gets heated and she is left wondering, will she end up just like her mom, happy and in love for the rest of her life? View table of contents...


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Submitted:Dec 10, 2012    Reads: 607    Comments: 6    Likes: 3   

Chapter 12

Things Will Be Okay

Dad reached for my cell phone and he face is red from anger. "What the fuck are you doing with my daughter?" He yelled and mom ran in and grabbed me. She held me in her arms, protecting me. This is bad, really bad! "Come over, so we all can talk!" Dad yelled and turned my phone off. He stared at me and I am in tears. I never felt so scared in my life. I never seen my dad mad my whole life. He had no reason to be mad, until now. "You and Jacob will explain yourselves when he gets over here," Dad said through his teeth and slammed the door behind him. I began to cry into my mom's chest and she ran her hand through my hair. "I am so sorry, baby girl. I didn't tell him, promise! He came up here to see you before he works on things for school and…" She said and I swallowed.

"H-he heard me tell Jake I loved him," I said and mom pulled me back and looked at me.

"You love him?" She asked and I nodded.

"And he loves me, mama. I can feel it when he kisses me and makes love to me. I hope dad doesn't do anything to stop us."

"We will find out soon enough. He will be mad at me too, helping you keep this secret." Shit, now my parents are going to fight and it's my fault!

Dylan let Jake inside the house, I thought he will punch him, but he didn't. Dad is still angry, but he is keeping his cool. I walked over to Jake and grabbed his hand. Now it's the moment of truth. "Daddy, it is true, I am dating Jake," I said and I closed my eyes. "Last weekend, I didn't go to Ellen's, I went to his place. He took my virginity." Where is this courage coming from? Jake is shaking, why is he so scared for? Is it the thought of losing me? I am scared of that too.

"When did this all start?" Dad asked, sort of calming down. Jake finally got a word in and he sighed.

"I wanted her with me from the first day of school, Dylan. Not sex want, but with me as my girl. It just escalated from there and we kissed, then we made love that weekend. Dylan, please believe me when I say I didn't have sex with your daughter because she is young and vibrant. I wanted her because…" Jake looked down at me and I smiled. I looked over at my dad and he crossed his arms across his chest.

"Because what?" He asked and I breathed.

"Because we fell in love, dad. I love him and he loves me. I love you, dad and you know I didn't mean to keep you in the dark…"

"Wait a minute; Kylie, you knew?" Dad looked over at mom and she turned away, she is shaking from fear.

"I figured it out, it was not hard to see how they act together. I told her that I would help her keep this a secret until her birthday," Mom said and dad ran his fingers through his hair and he is getting angry again. I grabbed Jake and he wrapped his arms around me, keeping me safe. "My wife and daughter, the two women I loved, kept this secret from me! I thought we can tell each other things openly," Dad said and there is tears in his eyes. He is hurt, very hurt. I let go of Jake and ran over to my dad. I cannot believe I hurt my dad and I began to cry.

"I am so sorry, daddy. I really love Jake and I didn't want you to separate us. It will hurt me so bad," I said and my dad hugged me tightly.

"Baby girl, I would not have approved of the relationship, but I would not have stopped you. I will let you two see each other, but I need a word with Jacob then I will have a chat with your mother. After I talk with your mom, I will come talk to you," Dad said and I nodded. I went over to my mom first, very worried about her. What will he do to her? "Don't worry about me, darling. He loves me too much to hurt me in any way," Mom said and I nodded. I went over to Jake and not caring that dad is behind me, I jumped on Jake and wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. Jake kissed me back and his arms got tighter. When he let go, I smiled. "I love you, Jake," I said and Jake smiled finally.

"I love you, too, baby. Let me talk to your father," Jake said and he walked off. Mom went to her bedroom and she closed the door behind her. I went back to my bedroom and I sat on my bed, wondering what dad is doing to my love.

Jake's POV

Dylan is pacing in his office. He reached down and grabbed a cigarette. I never knew he smoked. "Kylie knows that I smoke in stressful situations, want one?" He said, offering me one and I took one. I lit it and Dylan sat down in his chair. He is a hell a lot calmer now. I thought he is going to kill me when he talked to me on the phone. "So, you fucked my daughter…"

"Made love, Dylan. I fucked other women, but I made love with Carmen," I said and he nodded.

"So, she is special to you?" He asked, letting the smoke come out of his lips.

"Very special, I am in love with her. I know I am eleven years…"

"Age doesn't bother me. I was twenty-seven, a year younger than you, when I fell in love with Kylie and she was seventeen. I found her on the school grounds, being raped. I carried her home and that's when I knew I wanted her then." Shit, does Carmen know about this? This is probably why she is an only child! "Are you using protection on her?" Dylan asked and I swallowed.

"Yes, but Carmen has offered to get on the pill," I said and he nodded.

"Y'all are a lot smarter than us. We never used protection, not once. Jake, I like you, a lot. Do you understand how hurt I am you kept this secret from me?" I nodded, I know he has to be hurt. His own daughter and wife of twenty years hid a relationship from him. "That is all I want from you. You can say your goodbyes to Carmen because I am going to talk to her soon," He said and I left the room. I went up to her bedroom and when I opened the door, Carmen is as still as a statue. I can feel the fear coming out of her. I sat down and wrapped my arms around her. "Are things good with you and dad?" She asked me.

"Yeah, it's good," I said and I kissed her goodbye. God, I love her so much! I am glad Dylan didn't separate us!

Kylie's POV

Dylan opened and closed the door silently. I expected him to slam the door. He smelled like cigarette smoke, he must have smoked when he talked to Jacob. "Kylie, why did you keep this secret from me?" Dylan asked and he is standing in front of me. I let out a nervous breath and I closed my eyes tight, then opened them.

"Because I was in the same situation when I was seventeen, as you recall," I said and he sat down beside me. "Remember the fear of being caught by Jeremy and the school? I knew you would go haywire when you found out and you did."

"I am so hurt right now, my own wife hid something from me!" I reached over and wrapped his arms around him and I can feel him cry. Dylan cried in two occasions, our wedding day and the day Carmen was born. He is crying because I kept a dark secret from him for a week. I have to admit, I don't know if I could have kept it as long as I did. My daughter would have hated me, but her father did deserve to know. "Kylie, I love you so much," Dylan said and I kissed him. When I let go, I looked into those gorgeous light blue eyes and smiled. "They remind me of us when we first started dating," I said and Dylan smiled.

"They do, don't they? Jake feels the same way for Carmen as I felt about you at first. I think they will go far," Dylan said and I kissed him again, but this time, with love and passion. Our sex drive has not calmed down over the years. We still have the passion for each other as twenty-one years ago. I pushed him onto his back and unbuckled his pants. It's time for some make-up sex!

Carmen's POV

Shit, I can hear them. They are having make-up sex like always. I knew dad cannot stay mad at mom for long. I am glad he patched things with Jake, I would not have took it well if dad forbid us from seeing each other. A few minutes later, dad is at the door, with a huge smile on his face. I know he is sated and happy, like I want to be right now. "Carmen, I have to get use to the idea of you growing up. I knew you would eventually have sex and fall in love. I still feel hurt that you hid this from me," He said and I held my hands together.

"I am afraid to lose him, daddy. I didn't expect this to happen. One minute I am happy about life and going to college. Now, I think about college and how much I love Jake," I said and he sat down beside him.

"The only thing that bothers me is that he took your virginity, I know it hurt your mom."

"Daddy, it only hurt for a second, then it started to feel really good…" Dad laughed and grabbed me.

"I really don't approve this for the fact that the school can find out, but I approve as a father, I like Jake."

"I love him, daddy; I am seeing him at his place this weekend and we will have sex." He sagged into the bed and he sighed.

"How about he stays over here for the weekend? No, I am not stopping you from making love with him. I just think that will make me feel better knowing about you two when you two are under the same roof." I agreed and I will tell Jake tomorrow. I reached over and hugged my dad. This man is my world, next to Jake. He taught me how to read, ride a bike, how to swim and how to make a luggie. Mom did not approve of the luggie thing, but it is still funny to think about. He says he heard my first word, helped me walk for the first time and he was the first one to be there when I cried. I love my daddy, I am a daddy's girl. "I love you, daddy," I said and he hugged me tighter.

"I love you, too, its hard to take in that my little girl is grown up," Dad said and I nodded.

"Remember, I will always be your baby girl." He nodded and he left the room. Well, this night went from horrible to good. Dad is letting me date my love of my life, and letting him stay with me in my house. Now, we need to keep this a secret a little longer, like till my high school graduation!


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