I woke up in the middle of the night still in a dream that he was back. I felt his hands start running up my back as I guess I had rolled over and he was lying behind me. I just sighed putting my hand on top of his as I felt him start to kiss the back of my neck.
"I love you baby girl" he whispered
"I love you sweetie" I said as he kept kissing my neck.
We I guess had fallen asleep still naked from what he had done before we went to sleep. I rolled over and looked at him as he was just staring into my eyes. He did have this sad look about him. Which I know he was still grieving about the loss of our daughters which I was still too. I am not going to lie it was hard dealing with that without him plus finding out that I was pregnant again and not knowing if he was going to come back. When I went into my depressive stage I laid in bed for a good two months only came out just to go to my doctor appointments and went back to bed as soon as I got home. His sister had to come over and pretty much snap me out of it for the safety of our baby.
"Baby?" he asked
"Yes baby" I said
"Tell me everything" he said
"What do you want to know?" I asked
"From when I left until now tell me everything that happened. I want to know, I know you already told me a little bit out what happened to our girls but you were pregnant and you gave birth. A lot of things happened that I missed and want to know about" he said
I just sighed and sat up.
"Can I at least get a cup of coffee we might be here awhile" I said
He just smiled at me as we both got up and went into the kitchen. I still stayed in the house he got that was 5 minutes from the hospital. I knew that if he did come back this is the first place he would look and I would be here.
I started the coffee maker as I felt his arms wrap around me.
"We do make beautiful babies" he said
"That we do baby" I said
"I just went and checked on him your right he sleeps through everything" he said
"Oh yeah he was sleeping through the whole night about a week after he was born" I said
"Wow that's crazy" he said
"Tell me about it. I was shocked the first night he did. I kept waking up every hour to check on him and he would always be just sound asleep" I said
He just smiled at me. I knew that he always wanted a son but I know it is heart breaking finding out about our girls the way that he did.
I poured us a cup of coffee. It was about 5 am and I knew that the baby would be waking up around 7 like he always did every morning so we had a little time to talk. We walked into the living room and sat on the couch. He faced me as I crossed my legs and just took a few sips of the coffee.
"Ok are you ready?" I asked
"Yes baby" he said
I just sighed and started talking.
"Well the day after you left I am not going to lie I was a complete wreck and cried a lot. I knew that I had to pull myself together at least for the sake of our girls. Your sister stayed me until about a month ago. But anyway every day we went to the hospital to be with them, I told me every day several times a day that I loved them and that their daddy did too. I could tell a couple days before it happened that something was going to happen to at least Samantha, she started losing a lot of color in her face and wasn't looking that good. And the doctors knew it to. They confronted me about it and told me her chances were fading more and more and she probably wouldn't make it past another week. The day it happened your sister and I had just gotten there we weren't there maybe 5 minutes when all of the alarms starting going off to the machines and her heart rate dropped within a matter of seconds. She stopped breathing all together. They had opened the incubator for the first time and actually took her out and started to save her but she faded way too quickly. I held her in my arms and kissed her over and over telling her that it was alright that she had left us that we still loved her very much. It wasn't but about 5 minutes later the same thing happened to Briana. The doctors were actually shocked that it happened to her because she didn't have any signs of anything wrong with her. I actually had a nurse tell me that she believed in the saying that twins feel each other's pain and she was probably feeling what her sister was feeling and just wanted to be with her so she let go too. I do believe that she was right it was like they didn't want to be a part from each other. I held them both for a while until they pretty much made me give them to the doctors to help prepare for everything. I told them each that they are loved very much by their mommy and daddy and just because their daddy wasn't there he still loved you very much."
I had to take a minute to catch my breath it is still hard talking about our daughters let alone reliving what had happened but I knew that he wanted to know everything that happened so I had to suck it up and tell him. He had tears rolling down his face as I did as well. I picked up his hands into mine and looked into his eyes and continued talking
"Your sister thought it would be a good idea to bury them next to your father. And I understand if you don't want to go visit them, it is hard for me to do it too, I think I have only been out there twice since it happened. I know that your sister goes out there a lot and she had to go with me the two times that I did go. After all this happened I laid in bed for a few weeks just crying over the loss and the fact that you were not here with me to hold me and comfort me. I replayed in my mind so many times how I was going to tell you but I knew that the words would just come out when I would see you again. About a month and half after all this happened I started getting sick. I figured it was just signs of the depression I was in, your sister convinced me to go see a doctor and I did. It had come to find out that I was pregnant and we made a baby the afternoon before you left. I was shocked, scared, sad and happy all at the same time. I knew that this would be one hell of surprise for you. But I knew you would be happy about it. I knew that I had to make myself healthy for this baby. There was always just one. Every doctor appointment I would ask the doctor to make sure there was just one baby and he always assured me there was just one. I didn't want to know the sex of the baby just in case you came back while I was pregnant and I didn't know if you want to know or keep it a secret until the baby was born. I am going to tell you the truth the first couple months I was pregnant I lay in bed and clenched my phone hoping to just hear from you and I never did. Your sister had to drag me out of bed and pretty much feed me every day and make me take a bath. But after a while I knew that you would kick my ass you came home and found me like this so I snapped out of it and started doing things for the good of our baby. Your sister came with me to every doctor appointment. Honestly when my third trimester hit it was actually going by really quickly. And what scared me the most hitting the 6th month of pregnancy because that's when the girls were born and it scared me to death it was going to happen to them as well. It was about two weeks before my due date when I was sitting outside on the patio with your sister and I stood up and my water broke. I actually thought to myself that I was happy the baby stayed in this long and when the baby was born I would be able to take the baby home shortly after. She took me to the hospital and by the time I had gotten there I was only 2 cm dilated. I was in labor for 27 hours. Until I thought there was no way I was going to get this baby out because I was so emotional, physically drained to the point I could barely push. It took me about an hour to push him out. When I finally did he came out screaming and crying like no other. He does have a set of lungs on him and he will let you know it. I just cried because you had missed the birth of our son. Your sister was the one who cut the cord and held him for the first time. When she handed him to me she told me that I had a son. I cried even more because when he was first born he looked a lot like you. I see a lot of you in him every day. I knew that you missed one of the happiest important days in his life and it was so heart breaking. The baby and I stayed in the hospital for 3 days. They let him come home with me; even though he was born early he came out perfectly fine and healthy. He weighed 7 lbs 3 oz and 19 inchs long. He does have pretty long feet and legs. His eyes are green like yours. They finally turned green about a couple weeks ago. Your sister and I both thought he would have blue like mine because they stayed his greyish blue color for a long time. Until one morning I went to go get him and he was just looking up at me with these green eyes. I couldn't help but to smile because he was starting to look like you more and more each day. He still does. He has your smile. Your nose and ears. They only thing really he has of mine are these little dimples on his chin that he gets when he smiles. Your sister had brought over some baby pictures of you and you two could be twins. He favors you almost identically."
I just stopped talking as he was crying yet smiling at the same time. He squeezed my hand and leaned in and kissed me.
"I am sorry I missed all of that" he said
"I know you are baby" I said
"I will make it up to you and him" he said
"I know baby I know" I said as we just hugged each other. Just held on to each other tight, honestly as tight as possible.
"Why did my sister move out?" he asked
"I asked her too. I thought it would be a good idea for me and the baby to have some alone time. She actually agreed she thought that I needed to heal some more but by myself " I said
"Does she know your back?" I asked
"No" he said
"When I got back into town this was the first place I went to. I was hoping well praying you were still here. I saw my sister's car in the driveway so I knew that you were here" he said
"Yeah since you took our car she has been letting me use hers. She got a new one" I said
"Figures" he said smiling
"Are you going to tell her?" I asked
"I will later on I think maybe give her a heart attack and just walk into her shop?!" he said smiling
"Oh my god you are going to kill her" I said
He just smiled at me and kissed me again.
"I am sorry baby I just miss kissing you. I dreamed everyday about kissing you. Feeling your touch on me and just being able to hold you again" he said
"It is ok baby I understand I have missed you so much that I dreamed about you every night" I said
"You promise you never stopped loving me?" he asked
"I never stopped loving you baby" I said
"I think that we being apart showed me how much I do love you, rather we fight, argue, and disagree its nothing compared to you not being here" I said
"I know baby. I felt like an idiot the whole time not being able to tell you how much I love you every day that I was here or fighting with you over something stupid" he said
"I know I don't want us to fight like we did last year. I just want you and us to be happy like we were when we first got married" I said
"I want that too baby" he said
"Then we will make it happen" I said
"Yes we will baby" he said
As we kissed again he leaned me back on the couch and laid on top of me just kissing me over and over. Moving along my neck just little kisses with his tongue. I really missed the little kisses he would make. I missed it a lot actually. I couldn't help but to moan when he started moving down my chest. He just sighed deeply. He positioned himself in between my legs I felt his bulge underneath his boxers along my lips. It was getting harder and wanted to rip through his boxers and inside of me. I honestly couldn't help that I wanted him again. It had been a year and he wanted me just as bad. He didn't even take his boxers off he pulled his cock out through the hole and slide my panties to the side as he pushed his cock inside of my pussy. I arched my back and moaned loud as he started going fast. He gripped my shoulders as he roughly kissed me a little, sliding his tongue in my mouth as I wrapped my legs around his waist. I knew that this was going to be a quickie as well but I didn't care. I wanted him right then and there and he wanted me too. He started going faster as I could feel his cock hitting the back of my vagina wall just smacking against it and being yanked right back out of me and thrusted right back in. I could feel my pussy tighten around his hard dick as I was getting wetter as it was just easily sliding in and out. I could feel him start to cum as well. And he knew that I knew he was about to. I started moaning louder as he was pumping harder. He leaned down pressing his forehead against mine as put my hands on the side of his face and moaned loud as I felt myself explode all over him. He kissed me one more as I heard him grunt in the kiss as he exploded inside of me. He leaned down and rested his head on my shoulder whispering in my ear
"I love you baby girl" he said
"I love you baby" I said
We just laid there for a minute as we both catching our breath. Until we heard the baby start to cry as we both busted out laughing.
"I got to say good timing little buddy" I said
"You got that right" he said
As he pulled himself out of me as I could see my cum and his all over his dick and actually some on his boxers.
"I will go get him if you want to change" I said to him
"Alright I will back but I want to feed him" he said
"If that's what he wants?" he asked
"Oh yeah that's what he wants he can put down some food" I said laughing getting up and walking down the hallway to the babies room. I heard Stephen go into our room as I guess he was changing clothes.
I went and picked up little man and brought him into the kitchen while I prepared him a bottle. I heard Stephen come up behind me as I turned around. All he did was change his boxers and put on a T-shirt. He just smiled at me and at the baby.
"Here baby" I said
As I gave him the baby. He picked up the baby really slowly and carefully like he didn't want to drop him or that he honestly didn't know how to hold a baby. I might actually be right on that one that last night when he met our son for the first time that might have been the first time ever he held a baby. He just smiled really big as little man had started to calm down he was that type of baby that enjoyed just being held.
"Hey buddy I don't know if you remember me from last night but I am your daddy" he said to him
The baby just stared up at him with this look on his face and then smiled at him.
"Did he just smile at me?" Stephen asked me
"Yes baby he did. He knows you're his dad" I said
"Really?" He asked
"He's not stupid baby" I laughed as we walked into the living room
Stephen sat down on the couch with the baby as I handed him the bottle. He started feeding him and just smiled at him. He was so much in love with him and he had only met him a few hours ago.
"You are right he does look a lot like me" he said
"Yes he does baby" I said
"Why did you name him after me?" he asked
"For that reason he is your mini me" I said
He just busted out laughing.
"Thank you baby it does mean a lot "he said
'You're welcome I would hope you would like it and didn't mind I named him after you" I said
"Oh of course not baby" he said
I just sat there and watched them bond with each other. It was honestly one of those moments that was truly breath taking to watch. Little man knew instantly that Stephen was his dad and them two bonded like a father and son should have. I was really happy that he got to meet his dad, there was times when I thought it was never going to happen. But I knew he had to go away from his family and do what he had to do. I just didn't think neither one of us knew it would take that long, but he is back now.
"I am never going to leave you guys again" he said looking over at me
"I hope not baby" I said
"I swear its never going to happen again" he said
"Are you ready to talk about it yet?" I asked
"Yeah let him finish this bottle and that way I can put him in the bassinet thing over there and I can look at you and tell you everything" he said
"Ok baby I am not going to rush you" I said
"Its ok baby I want to tell you everything baby" he said
"Ok baby" I said as he turned his head back down to the baby. And kissed him on the forehead. Watching him just admiring our son.