Chapter 6: The beauty of innocence
I was sitting at the island counter in the kitchen, eating my dinner. Chicken alfredo. Of course as always now, I was only dressed in a pair of lace pink panties. The fork was trembling in my hand because my hand was trembling. I was nervous.
AJ said that tonight was the night that he's going to take my virginity.
Little key fact: He told me this. He never asked how I felt about it.
I didn't even know how I felt about it. He has showed me how good it felt to come. But that doesn't mean I was okay to having sex with this guy. It wasn't right.
I chewed my food slowly as I heard footsteps coming down the stairs.
My chewing stopped as I felt his very presence overwhelm me.
I felt him come up behind me, he moved my hair out of the way to one side over my shoulder.
I could feel his breath on the back of my neck.
I shut my eyes and sighed.
"I have a bath waiting upstairs." He whispered.
"Oh?" I asked.
He sighed. "Yes. Come with me." He grabbed my hand and made me turn around to him and made me stand up.
I followed him upstairs, and down the hall to the bathroom.
He opened the door to the bathroom and I walked in and he walked in after me.
He shut the door and sighed. He walked up to me and leaned down, taking the back of my head in his right hand and pulling me to him with the other as his lips and mine connected immediately.
I kissed him back just as heated as he was kissing me and I liked it. I actually liked it.
I didn't like him but I liked what he was introducing me to.
When he pulled back, his golden eyes stayed on mine as he pulled my panties down to my ankles. "Get in." He ordered.
Without a word, I turned to the oval, oversized bathtub and got in.
I watched him as he undressed himself.
When he pulled his boxers down, he was hard. Did I do that to him?
He walked over and stepped inside of the tub with me and got in behind me.
He pulled me back against his chest and it kind of made me relax.
"Is it gonna hurt?" I asked.
"Yes." He whispered.
His finger went down, starting from my neck, going down the valley of my breasts and down to my navel.
"But it'll feel good once the pain goes away."
"What you felt before, last night, is nothing compared to what this will feel like."
The thought sent tremors through my body. I was really anticipating this now.
"How many girls did you…."
"Fuck?' He asked.
I don't know why I wanted to know.
"I don't know a real number. But there were a lot. I assure you that tonight with you, I'll remember…probably forever."
I turned slightly. He was…sweet when he wanted to be. Seductive when he wanted to be. Cruel when he wanted to be.
He had so many different sides to him. He was right…I might never understand him.
His hand went down to cup me and I shut my eyes and moaned as he started rubbing me gently.
I bit down on lip as the pressure increased.
"I love when you do that."
"Do what?" I asked breathless.
"Bite your lip. It's very sexy." He said in my ear.
His finger then went to an unknown place and pushed against me. I moaned again.
"I wanna have you right now. I don't think I can wait anymore." He whispered.
"I don't want you to hurt me."
"You won't be in pain that long, Renee. I promise you. You have to trust me."
"Yes you can…and you will." He leaned over and grabbed a bar of soap. He made me turn toward him and pushed me back against the other end of the bath tub. I leaned back and watched him as he moved over me. He leaned in close and kissed me and then began running the soap over my body and grabbed a red rag from the rack above the tub and dipped it in the water. Then he let squeezed the rag over my body and let the hot water run over me.
He slid back slightly and grabbed my foot and lifted it out of the water. He pulled it to pull me down slightly. His eyes locked on mine as the rag went to my leg, up to my thigh and then…oh…there.
And he began rubbing in gentle circles. I arched my back and my breathing hitched. He's so good at this.
"AJ, please…" I whispered.
He stopped and smirked.
Was I really about to ask him to make love to me?
Would it even be making love?
I want it so its not rape.
It would probably be just sex.
"Be patient. The longer you wait, the better it will be when it finally happens. Trust me."
He said and then sat back against the other end of the tub.
I knew he wanted me to wash him up now.
So I grabbed the soap and let it blend into the rag and began running circles across his chest.
He pulled onto my hips to make me straddle him.
The sudden contact made me gasp. And then I felt the erection. The very thick and long erection that made me nervous.
He leaned over so his lips were in my ear. "I can't wait to have it inside of you, baby." He whispered.
It sent a chill down my spine. A delicious chill.
He leaned back, smirking. Knowing his effect.
Why am I letting him get to me? I want him but I need to leave. I have to find Jodie.
I shut my eyes.
"I want my sister." I said aloud. Then I opened my eyes.
AJ's expression changed. "And you'll get her back. But for now, you're with me. Okay?"
He placed his hand on my cheek.
I nodded and continued washing him. Including his hair, making it darker than it really is.
And then his face.
He was gorgeous but he was sadistic. Very sadistic. And he scared the living hell out of me yet turned me on.
I was starting to wonder how he got to be this way. How he planned this whole thing.
"Are you ready to get out of here?" For a second, my mind let me think about he was talking about the house in general.
But I knew he meant the tub.
"Yes." I nodded.
He got up to his feet and pulled me up with him.
He grabbed onto a green towel and covered himself up with it and then grabbed another towel and I covered myself with it. It's the most I've been covered up for a while.
He led me out of the bedroom and down the hall to the bedroom.
Oh…the anticipation was now nervousness.
I walked inside, the room was filled with candles lit everywhere, letting on a soft glow through the room.
I turned to him. "You did this?" I asked.
He shut the door and nodded. "I didn't want you to feel like you were being forced." Yet I kinda am. But then again, not really.
But at least some part of this is kind of sweet. He wanted to make me comfortable.
He dropped his towel and walked to me and grabbed my towel and took it off of me and let it drop onto the floor.
He sighed softly and kissed my hair. "Get on the bed for me." He said in a gentle tone that wasn't forced.
I crawled onto the bed and laid back on the pillows.
AJ looked at me and in a way I never seen on anyone before. "I need to see something." He said.
I was confused for a second.
He went to the dresser and opened the top drawer. He dug out a camera. He was going to take a picture of me?
He went over and turned the lamp on and then went back to the foot of the bed and narrowed his eyes.
"Why are you doing that?" I asked.
He didn't answer. He just took a picture. And then another. Then stared at me as he took the camera from his face. "You're beautiful." He responded and then threw the camera onto the floor as he came over to cover my body.
He kept his upper body up by his hands on either side of my head. He leaned over and opened the drawer to his night stand and pulled out a foil packet. He sat up on his knees and ripped it open using his teeth. Then he threw the packet down and slid on the condom.
My breathing was erratic now. I was scared…but boy did I want it. I wanted this.
He looked down at me, and slid in between my legs and pushed himself to my entrance.
I was looking at him. I'm sure he saw the fear in my eyes.
"I'm going to make you cum over and over." Then he pushed in and it elicited a scream rising from my throat just as somebody banged hard on the door. "You have to be fucking kidding me." AJ groaned.