Chapter 5: Anticipation
My jaw was feeling better. It healed within days.
I was sitting on AJ's bed. I was watching him as he shut his door. I was only in a dark purple pair of panties and I was waiting for him.
"How inexperienced are you?" He asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"You're a virgin. But have you ever gave oral sex, received it or gave a hand job before?"
I shook my head.
Goosebumps rose on my body and I blushed bright red at the subject.
"So you're extremely inexperienced." He said.
"I don't wanna do this, AJ."
He sighed. "I told you what the situation was, Renee."
"I never did this before."
"I know. And that makes things interesting." He leaned against the door and sighed. "Do you masturbate?" He asked.
My cheeks grew hot. "No." I answered.
"So you never touched your pussy to pleasure yourself…ever?" He asked.
I shook my head. I never really had the urge to do it. Not enough to care about it.
"I see. So we're going to have to fix this." He turned the light off so that only the dim-litted lamp was on. "Lay on your back."
"AJ, I don't wanna do this. I'm not going to." I said.
He sighed. "It took a few days for your jaw to heal. I don't think you wanna go through that again. Am I right?"
"Why would you want to hurt me?"
"You know why. I can't help it."
"You're a sadist. You intimidate me and you don't even care although you claim that you like me."
AJ sighed. "You won't ever understand me. But you don't need to. All you need to do is understand that our relationship is sexual and you must obey or I'll punish you."
"That isn't fair."
"Never said I was fair."
"Please…AJ, just please give me more time."
"More time for what?" He asked.
More time to keep my virginity intact.
More time to keep my innocence from you.
"I'm scared." I admitted.
"I'm not going to make love to you tonight. Okay?" He asked.
"What are you going to do?" I asked.
"Lay back, Renee." He said. I hesitated. But he sighed and grabbed me by my hips and pulled me to him. He leaned down, his breath against my face and then pressed his lips against mine for a second and then pushed me back onto the bed. "Lay down." He ordered.
I hesitantly did as he said. But I laid against his pillows as he got on the bed with me. As he hovered over me, his golden eyes looked down into mine. "There's a fine line between pleasure and pain. I want to show you both." He whispered and leaned down to kiss me. He put all his weight on me and pulled back slightly. "You have to kiss me back." He whispered.
I didn't want to.
I couldn't. "No." I said.
"Yes." He placed his lips on mine, parting my lips with his and intertwining his fingers through mine above my head.
I could feel tears forming from the unwanted contact.
And more than that, I could feel him. Him hard against my body and for whatever reason, it had me…kind of aroused. I don't understand. I didn't want this but I did.
I kissed him back. I shut my eyes and relaxed into the kiss, allowing him to bite my bottom lip to the point that he drew blood and I pulled away from the pain.
That's what he meant. That wasn't so bad.
He pulled back and looked down at me. "That wasn't very painful." He said shaking his head as his lips went back to mine, to my chin, my throat, my neck and he bit down. I gasped and shut my eyes as he nipped on my neck. Too hard.
"Stop." I breathed.
He did stop and then looked at me. "You can't take much pain, can you?"
I shook my head.
"We can change that too."
He leaned down to kiss me again and his hand went down to my breasts and he toyed with them. It did make my body react in a delicious way but I didn't want to let him know. He pinched my nipples and took his lips off mine and went down, trailing his tongue down and his mouth went over my nipple.
My eyes closed and I let out a soft sigh of satisfaction. I brought my hands up and my fingers pushed through his hair. Why am I doing this?
My reality felt…unreal. This wasn't happening. He wasn't doing this to me and I wasn't liking it. I don't want to like it.
I couldn't explain this feeling that was rising out of me.
"Please stop." I begged in panting whispers.
Something took over my body. Something very intense, Although he was showing both my nipples plenty of attention, the feeling was making my lower area tingly with delight and arousal.
"Please." I beg again.
AJ bite down on my nipple and I whimpered from the pain and tried to push him off. "You're gonna make me tie you up, Renee." He breathed.
"Please don't." I shook my head.
AJ bit his lip sexily as he looked down at me. "I kinda want to now. I'll be right back." He got off of me and disappeared out of the room as he opened the door.
This was my chance. My one and only fucking chance. I got up and hurried to the door, but as soon as I got to the hallway, AJ was leaning against the wall twirling a pair of handcuffs in his fingers and while the sight turned me on, I was more embarrassed than anything.
"Now where were you going?" He asked.
I shook my head. "N-Nowhere." I whispered.
"Back on the bed." He said.
I slowly turned and got back onto the bed.
AJ walked in and shut the door.
He got on the bed with me. "Hold your hands above your head, Renee."
He gave me a look like 'Don't be stupid'
I did as he said and he handcuffed my hands together and then looked down at me. His golden eyes were beautiful. Damn that gorgeous freak.
"Don't move….okay?" He asked.
I slowly nodded.
AJ leaned down, kissed my forehead, my left eyelid, my nose, my lips again, and again and his tongue licked my bottom lip lightly.
I squirmed from the seductive feeling of desire that bloomed in my gut.
His lips caressed my chin, down to my throat. His tongue darted out, caressing my throat. I didn't want to like it. I didn't.
"Please." I panted as his lips went back around my nipple and he tugged on it with his teeth and caressed it with his tongue. Goose bumps rose on my skin and I shut my eyes as he held my focus.
His tongue trailed down my torso to my navel and he caressed the inside of my belly button with his tongue and kissed me over and over, sending chills of pleasure down my spine.
Then his lips stopped at the beginning line of my dark purple panties. "No." I begged.
AJ glanced at me before sitting up. "Raise your body up."
I slowly did as he said as he pulled my panties down my legs and threw them onto the floor. I was now exposed and naked. I shut my eyes from the embarrassment. Oh my god. This isn't real. This IS NOT real.
"Open your eyes." He says.
I slowly do as he says and swallow hard as I look down at him as he's face-to-face with my…area.
He nods. "I want you to watch me lick you, baby." He whispers.
But it feels so odd. This feels so wrong.
His tongue touches a secret spot and I moan out. But I stop myself.
AJ holds onto my hips as he swirls his tongue around my most private area and I arch my back in response.
Oh..my…its feels good. It feels so good.
I gasp and pant. It's all I can do. I'm speechless from the friction of his warm tongue and the most innocent part of me.
My toes curl as he laps up my clit, biting and sucking it. Driving me insane with this new intense pleasure. My head goes back against the pillow and my eyes shut as a tickling feeling starts to rise out of me.
His tongue dives into a part that makes me fall apart and I let myself cry out as this even more intense tickling feeling arrived and warmed my whole body in pleasure.
I lay there, relaxing, panting hard and sighing, disappointed that I let him aware of how I liked it.
When he gets up, he comes back up and puts all his weight on me once again. "There's nothing in this world that taste better than you." He whispered.
"What was that?" I asked.
AJ smirked. "I just made you come, baby."
That's what that was? Holy…fuck.
"Normally, I'd make you pleasure me before I pleasure you but I guess I wanted to give you a preview of what its like to come."
I hate to admit it but I enjoyed that preview.
AJ laid down and let out a soft breath of air and sighed. "Now its your turn." He said and then his golden eyes looked over at me.
"Lean over me." He said.
I slowly get up and get on all fours as I lean over his body. I'm blushing the whole time, afraid to look him in his eyes.
He pushed my shoulders back so that I was right….oh.
"Unbutton my jeans." He says.
My fingers hesitantly does as he orders.
Why am I listening to him? Why am I obeying him? Oh yeah, I don't want him to hurt me again. But there has to be another way out of this.
I finally pull them down slightly and I see he has no boxers or anything on. His cock is hard and erect.
I swallow hard. I never seen one before.
I look back up at him and bite my lip. "I can't. I never did anything like that before."
"I'll teach you. Just do as I say, okay?"
I slowly nodded.
"First, I want you to gather all the spit in your mouth and spit on it." He said. My eyebrow raised.
He nodded and I did as he said.
He nods again. Take your hand, wrap it around me and move it up and down."
I slowly take my hand, wrap it around his member which is warm and thick in my hand. And it feels smooth. And boy is it huge.
I move my hand up and down and can hear his shallow, unsteady breathing. He stays hard in my hand and some small part of me feels pleased I can make him feel this way. I don't like that part of me.
"Now I want you to lean down and put your mouth of the tip." He whispered.
I glanced at him first and he nodded. I lean down and let my tongue swipe over the tip and then I place him in my mouth.
"Just like that baby." He whispered.
I feel like I want to please him and I don't know what came over me.
"Keep you hands on the base of me."
I keep my hands in place and move them up and down as I take as much as can of him in my mouth.
I look into his eyes as I'm doing this and I like seeing the look on his face.
He grabs onto my hair and pulls as he thrust back into my mouth, breathing hard during the process.
He speeds up his thrusting. It's not like I'm giving him a blow job anymore. More like he's…fucking my mouth. And the thought immediately turns me on for some reason.
He speeds up just a little more and I can hear his moans of pleasure and satisfaction. Why do I want to please him so bad?
Why do I like it?
"Renee, fuck, I'm gonna cum." He breathed.
He forced me to stay where I was and didn't let me move at all as he finally stilled and a rush of sweet and saltiness exploded into my mouth.
I gasped as it slid onto my tongue. And I slowly swallowed it as I looked at him.
He relaxed as his breathing went back to normal and he sighed softly. His fingers went into my hair as I lifted my head up. "You did a great job, baby." He said.
He called me his 'baby'.
Why did that bring a nervous feeling to my heart?
"What do you want me to do now?" I whispered, embarrassed from what just happened.
"Tomorrow is the night. I don't think I can hold it back anymore."
"Hold what back?"
He grabbed me by my arms and pulled me down on the bed and he covered me.
I feel his member against my inner thigh.
I forgot that I'm naked and he hasn't pulled his pants back up yet.
Our parts are touching and I can feel him hard again.
I swallow from the nervousness but I become confused of why I feel so hot. Not literally but my area down there feels so…aroused at the contact.
He grabs onto himself and rubs the tip against my clit. I bite my lip and close my eyes as he continues the pleasure.
I moan as he rubs it faster. Oh why does it feel so good?
AJ moans with me as he grinds against me. It feels so good, too good.
This feeling deep in my stomach clenched hard.
"No." I begged. I needed to resist this orgasm. Fuck! I can't.
He continues grinding into me hard and I feel myself come almost immediately at the same time I try to hold it in.
I feel the warmth of my juices on him and flush from embarrassment.
He smirks at me, letting his dimples show. "You can't hold it in." He said.
"I can try."
He shook his head. "With me, there's no such thing as being able to successfully hold in an orgasm."
"You can't force it out of me."
"Oh, I've done it before. I'm completely capable of knowing how a woman's body work and with you as young as you are, and the hormones running through your body, I know how to make you come easily."
I was starting not to doubt that.
Maybe he knew my body better than I did. And I've been stuck with it for seventeen years.
He put all his weight on me again. "I'm going to make you sore tomorrow." He breathed against my lips and I shut my eyes.
I'm scared but another part of me is anticipating it.