Author's Note. One more chapter before this. Yeah I know it sucks that it's ending and it might be ending too fast but all great things must come to an end Like Twilight and Harry Potter. Anyways.....In this chapter, there's going to be blood and crying. I had to change this chapter like a million times. Enjoy and comment. rather it's a good comment or critisism. Either way, i appreciate both.
Chapter 13: Too much
As I held the gun, Ronnie walked in. His eyes widened as he saw the gun in my hand. "What are you doing with a gun?" Ronnie pulled his eyebrows together. "You went through my jacket?" I nodded. He sighed and sat down on the couch. He ran his fingers through his dark hair and looked down at the floor. "Why do you have a gun?" I asked again.
"Leah, it's going to happen." He said slowly looking at me. I shook my head. "I can't belive you. You're not going to kill Alex. You can't!" I said. I can't just let him do this. He'll go to prison and I won't have anyone. And I needed Ronnie like I need air. "Yes, I can and I have to." I dropped the gun onto the floor and left out of the room. I heard Ronnie's footsteps as he followed me.
I walked into the bedroom and laid down. Ronnie stared down at me. "Would you break up with me if I do it?" I sat up a little. "I don't know." I answered. He sighed. "Please don't do this. Please." I whispered. Ronnie sat on the bed next to me. He tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. "Leah, if he does one more thing to you or me, it's over. I'm serious."
"I know you are." I said. I sat up and hugged him. "I won't do it. But only because you don't want me to." I nodded as my arms stayed wrapped around him tightly. "I have to go." He whispered as I pulled away. I shook my head. He sighed. "I'm not going to kill him, okay?" He kissed my lips and pulled away. "Okay." I said. I relaxed a little. He smiled slightly before turning and walking out of the room. "Wait!" I said as I got up. He grabbed his jacket. "Leave it here." He turned to look at me. "What?" He asked. "The gun. Leave it here." I demanded.
He picked it up off of the floor and placed it on the table. I watched him walk out the door and shut it. My stomach had a weird feeling. I felt dizzy as my mouth watered. I ran to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet. It wasn't pretty either. How can such a beautiful thing make me so sick? I spit out the last disgusting taste that was in my mouth and flushed the toilet. I brushed m teeth and then looked in the mirror. My hair was messy and my skin was paler than usual. I heard the front door open and then close. "Ronnie?" I asked.
"Yeah?" I let out a sigh of relief and walked into the livingroom. "You had me thinking you were someone else." He smiled. "Sorry." He said grabbing his wallet off of the top of the tv. He gave me a quick kiss and left out of the house again. I sighed and sat onto the couch. The phone rang. I picked it up. "Hello?" I asked.
I heard crying. "Hello?" I asked again. "Leah." a voice whispered. "Yeah? Who is this?" I asked. "It's Katie." She whispered.
"Katie, what's wrong?" I asked.
"He what?" I asked.
"He touched me." She whispered. I hope she didn't mean what I think she meant.
"Did he....rape you?" She didn't answer. "Are you at home?" I asked.
"Yes." She whispered.
"I'm on my way. Stay right there." I said. I hung up the phone and got up. I couldn't even think straight. I hurriedly grabbed my jacket and slipped on some pants and my shoes. I went to the door but turned around and grabbed the gun and left out of the house. I ran. I didn't stop. Not even when my muscles began to burn. I was not going to let him hurt Katie anymore. It wasn't long before I got to the house. I grabbed onto the knob and turned it. The door was locked. Fuck! I went around to the back door. That door was locked too. Fuck this. I went to the window and tried to lift it up. There was no use. I looked around and found a brick laying on the ground. I picked it up with both of my hands and threw it through the window.
The glass broke and I grabbed onto the bottom of the window. It cut my hands leaving a sharp pain and little blood but I catapulted myself in anyway. I fell onto the kitchen floor and landed on my shoulder. I felt the sharp pain in my shoulder and felt wetness coming down. All of this was bad for the baby. All of it was too much but I had to do this for Katie. For my sister. "Katie?" I asked. No one answered. I looked around the livingroom and then ran upstairs. I heard crying. It was coming from her room. I ran in and saw her laying naked on her bed. "Oh my god." I whispered as I went to her. She closed her eyes. I went to her drawer and gave her some clothes. "Where is he?" I asked. She shrugged. "I don't know." She said tearily as she slipped her clothes on.
"Why did he do this?" I asked her. She looked up at my eyes. I saw that her eye was black. "I told him that I was going to the police." I sighed. "Why would you do that?" I asked. She didn't answer. She got up and walked out of her room. I followed her downstairs. "Get your shoes on. You can come with me to Ronnie's house." I said. She nodded and slipped her shoes on. I grabbed her hand and led her towards the door. Seconds before I was about to open it, Alex walked in. I dropped her hand and grabbed the gun and aimed it at him. He smiled as he closed the door. "I knew you'd be here." He said. "Stay the fuck away from us." Katie stood behind me.
"You're unbelievable, Leah. You really are. First you're with me now you're with someone else and now you want to kill me."
"Yeah. I told you that we were over and you kept messing with me and Ronnie. You brought this all on yourself, Alex."
He shrugged. "Maybe I did." He walked closer. I took a couple of steps back and Katie did the same.
"What is it that you want?" I asked.
"I want to know if you two are planning on going to the police." he said. I shook my head. He smiled. "Liar." He whispered.
"We won't as long as you stay away from us." I promised. He raised an eyebrow. "We all know that's not going to happen. I can't stay away from my little sister." He said. His eyes slowly looked to Katie. She looked away. "You don 't care about her. You raped her. You raped me. What the fuck do you expect from us? You knew this was going to happen!"
He took a couple of steps toward me. "One more step, Alex. One more step and I swear to god........" I cocked the gun. Alex walked over to me until the gun was pointing against his chest. "Shoot me." He challenged. My hand became shaky with nervousness and fear. "Do it." He whispered. Tears ran out of my eyes. I couldn't do it and he knew I couldn't. He snatched the gun away from me and threw it onto the floor. He grabbed me by my neck and forced me onto the couch. Katie grabbed him by his hair trying to pull him off of me. I couldn't breathe. I tried to push him off of me. But my conciousness was slipping. He squeezed my neck tightly. I gasped for air but it was shortly being cut off. "Alex." I managed to say. His expression was emotionless. My whole vision became blurry. "Stop it!" I heard Katie say. Her voice was muffled. He pushed her away as his nails dug into my neck. I closed my eyes slowly.
This was it. For me. I wanted to kill Alex but instead......he was killing me. I opened my eyes slowly and looked over. Katie had the gun in her hand. She aimed it at Alex's head and she pulled the trigger. His eyes grew wide. A huge bloody hole appeared in his forehead. His hands loosened around my neck and fell to the sides of him. He slowly dropped off of the couch and onto the floor. He was laying on his stomach. His head was turned to the side and his eyes were wide open. I slowly looked up at Katie. She stared at the gun that was in her hand. I slowly got up and went to her. I hugged her tightly and she dropped the gun and hugged me back. She cried in my shoulder.
After a few minutes, I called the cops. They came over and I explained the story to them. They examined the room. Katie told them that Alex has raped her and me and they had to take us to a place and examine us. It was uncomfortable but it had to be done. They found evidence that Alex has raped us and told him about what happened to Carsia but once again, they had no proof that Alex murdered her. Once we were released, Ronnie came to pick us up. Katie got into the car and I got in the backseat with her. She was expressionless staring out of the window. "You okay?" I asked her. She doesn't answer. She just faced away from me. I sat back in my seat. I didn't know how to feel. Was I happy or relieved? Relieved.
"Take me home." She said shakily. I looked over at her. "No. I don't want you alone tonight." I said. She looked at me. Her eyes were red and puffy. "I want to go home." She said forcefully. I sighed. "You want me to stay with you?" I asked. She shook her head. I told Ronnie the directions to her house. Ronnie parked into the driveway. Without a word, Katie slowly got out of the car. I followed her into the house. It was dark as she walked up the stairs slowly. I closed the door and followed her. She got into her bed and laid down. I got down on my knees in front of her bed and looked at her. "Are you okay?" I asked. She didn't answer but I saw her close her eyes.
"I know this is hard. I'm sorry you had to go through it." I heard her sniff. "You want me to call Jason?" I asked. She shook her head. I'm going to call him anyway. She shouldn't be alone. And she doesn't want me here. "I.....I killed him. I killed my brother." She whispered. I shook my head. "You had to. He raped you, Katie. He killed Carsia. He raped and abused me. It had to happen." She sat up a little. "No. I didn't have to kill him. We could have went to the police." She said. She was right. But I wanted him dead. And he deserved to be dead.
"I know." I answered. She let out a shaky breath. "None of this should have happened. What the fuck are my parents going to say when they find out that I killed them?" she asked.
"Well what do you think they would say if they found out about all the shit he's done?" She started crying again. I truly didn't know how to comfort her or anything. Because not only does she have to deal with the fact that she was raped but she has to deal with the fact that she killed Alex also. She won't ever forget it. "Just leave me alone, Leah. Please." I stayed where I was. What kind of friend would I be if I just left her alone?
"You want me to get you some water or something?"
"I want you to leave. Now. Please." She whispered. I sighed and slowly got to my feet. "I love you, Katie." She didn't respond. I just left it at that. I went downstairs and swept up the glass. I hated having to break the window but it was necessary. After I was done, I picked up the phone and dialed Jason's number.
"Katie, where are you?" he asked.
"This is Leah and she's upstairs. She's in very bad shape. You should come over to keep her company." I said.
"I'm putting my shit on right now but tell me what happened."
I breathed deeply. "Alex is dead." I said. There was a very long pause.
"You still there?" I asked.
"Just come over and she'll explain it to you. She doesn't want me here and she doesn't want you here either but I know that you're the only one that can make her feel better."
"Yeah. She makes me feel the same way. I love her." I smiled slightly. Katie had a good boyfriend.
"I know you do. If you have any problems, the number to where I'll be is 822-9618" I said.
" Okay, and I'm on my way." He said and then hung up. I hung up the phone and then opened the front door. I closed it and got into Ronnie's car. He looked over at me. "Is she going to be okay?" I shrugged. "She just killed her brother who raped her. What do you think?" He had an apologetic look on his face. I realized that my tone was harsh. "I'm so sorry." I reached over and hugged him. He hugged me back tightly. I pulled back. "Ready to go?" He asked. I nodded. On the way home, I told Ronnie the whole story.
"He raped his own sister? That's just fucking sick. I mean they came out of the same........" I nodded. "I know. I can't believe it either. Katie is going to be traumatized for a while. She can even be pregnant." I couldn't even imagine that. Being pregnant with my brother's baby. That would have me depressed and just.......crazy. If she was, this would mean he's gotten three girls two years younger than him-pregnant. What a fucking prick. We parked the car in the driveway and walked into the house. I went straight to the bedroom and laid down. Ronnie laid down beside me. "I was stupid. I was so stupid. That very first day he touched me, that's when everything went down hill. I was thirteen when me and him first had sex. So fucking young. And Naive." Ronnie slowly turned his head to look at me. Tears escaped out of my eyes. "Everything I've done for him I realize that I didn't do it because I loved him. I think it was more because I was scared of him."
"You're safe now, with me. He's gone and he's not coming back and even if he did, I would hold you close to me. I would never let anybody hurt you ever again. I promise." Ronnie whispered. I moved closer to him and laid my head on his chest. His fingers softly trailed over my shoulder and my ear. "I love you so much." I felt his heartbeat increase. "I love you too." He said as he kissed the top of my head. I heard the phone rang. I sighed and got up. I needed a break right now and it didn't look like I was going to get one any time soon. I picked up the phone and held it to my ear. "Hello?" I asked.
"She fucking killed herself!" Jason screamed. My eyes grew wide. "What?" I asked. "I came to her house, walked in and seen her laying on the floor dead with a fucking gun in her hand!" Jason cried. "Oh my god." I covered my mouth with my hand. "The ambulance are on their way, Leah." He hung up the phone and I just stood there emotionless. The phone slipped out of my hand and dropped onto the floor. Katie.
My Katie just killed herself. And in my head, I knew she was thinking about doing it the whole time I was talking to her. I should have fucking stayed with her. Tears burned in my eyes as I dropped to my knees. All of this was my fault. I did it. I felt like I was the only one to blame. I shouldn't have left her alone. I heard footsteps walking towards me. "Leah?" he leaned down in front of me. "What's wrong, baby?"
"She killed herself." I choked out. Ronnie immediatley wrapped his arms around me. It was a weird feeling to imagine her dead. I was just talking to her and now she's gone. Vanished. Almost as if she never existed. "It's okay." Ronnie whispered. It wasn't though. I loved his comfort. I wrapped my arms around him and cried into his shoulder. I shut my eyes tight trying not to imagine her dead. I tried to imagine her up there in heaven staring down at me smiling. With all of her emotional pain gone. I never in my life thought this would happen. She's left me alone down here and she would never see me again and I will never see her again. More tears rolled down my cheeks onto Ronnie's shirt. I let out uncontrollable cries before I finally fell alseep.
Katie's face appeared in my dream. She was smiling at me and moving a piece of hair out of her face. And at that moment, her face vanished. Every memory. Every moment I shared with her flashed through my head. The day we met. The day she introduced me to Alex. The day I met her Parents. The day we first shared eachothers secrets. The day we announced eachother as bestfriends. It was so many memories of her inside of my head that thinking about her hurts. So bad. I opened my eyes and slowly looked over. I was laying in the bed with Ronnie who was staring at me. He offered me an apologetic smile. "Come here." He whispered. I scooted into his arms. His lips touched mine briefly. "I want you to listen to me, Leah." He said. I looked up at him to notice tears glistening in his eyes. And it made me want to break down and cry.
"You're not going through this alone. I will be with you every time you need to cry. Every time. I will never leave you alone. Ever. I love you and no matter what you go through, I will be by your side." He said. A tear slowly rolled down his cheek. I wiped it away and smiled. He kissed my forehead as I closed my eyes. "Do we need to go to the hospital?" I shook my head. "Jason basically confirmed that she was dead." I answered. I felt Ronnie nod his head. I closed my eyes and slept on his chest not dreaming this time.
I had to get over it. I just had to because there was nothing I can do or say to bring her back.