Author's Note: I believe this chapter islonger than the other's. This chapter is basically about the truth and Leah and Ronnie's relationship. ALSO, i have some more character pictures on my profile if any of you are interested. Enjoy the chapter.
Chapter 11: Love Is Not A Strong Enough Word For How I Feel About Him
"I think that I'll just stand." Katie replied. I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. I noticed a bruise on her cheek. No doubt it was from Alex. Jason would never hit her. Focus Leah. Focus. "Well.......I have been...um.....um."
"Spit it out, Leah. You're scaring me." She said. I took a deep breath. "Me and Alex have been having sex." I finally admitted. Katie laughed. But her laugh stopped when she saw the serious expression I had on my face. Her eyebrows pulled together as she looked at me. After a few moments of silence, she slowly walked over to the couch and sat down. "Are you.....Are you serious?" She asked. I nodded slowly. "I wanted to tell you so bad, Katie. But.......Alex didn't want me to tell."
"You've been fucking my brother? I.......I can't believe this." She shook her head and placed her hands in her hair. "I'm so sorry, Katie." I whispered. She stayed silent for a few minutes before speaking. "How long have this been happening?" She didn't even look at me. "About three years." I admitted. She placed both of her hands over her eyes and shook her head. "My sixteen year old best friend and my eighteen year old brother have been sleeping together. I just can't believe............." She didn't finish her sentence.
"Um. Well.....there's more." I said. She uncovered her eyes and finally looked up at me. "What? Are you pregnant now?" She asked with harshness in her tone. I looked down at the floor and bit my lip. "Oh. My. God. Are you fucking kidding me?" She asked. I looked back at her and shook my head.
"Does Alex know you're pregnant?" I shook my head fiercely. "No! And he can't know! You can't tell him!" I said walking up to her. "Why? He is the dad. He deserves to know." I shook my head again. "No. You can't tell him." I said sitting down next to her. "Why?" She asked.
"Because.......I don't want to end up like Carsia." Katie's eyes grew wide. "What?" Tears started forming in my eyes. "I......I don't think Carsia's death was an accident." Katie's eyebrows pulled together. "What do you mean?"
"Katie, I think Alex killed Carsia......on purpose." Katie looked thoughtful for a second and then her eyes watered. "He wouldn't do that." I nodded. I knew Alex. He hardly knew me. Hardly cared to know me. But I knew what he was like. "Katie, Carsia was pregnant when she died." Katie buried her face in her hands.
I rubbed her back as she cried. I knew she liked Carsia and she was a very close friend to Katie. She pulled her head up and wiped her tears. "How do you know?"
"She showed me the pregnancy test." Katie sighed. More tears fell down her cheeks. "So why do think Alex killed her?"
"Well, remember that day....well earlier the day she died- remember when-in the car, she said she wanted to tell Alex something?" Katie nodded. "Well she wanted to tell him that she was pregnant. When you were out with Jason, I fell asleep in your room and a big noise woke me up. It came from Alex's room. So I went out in the hallway to check it out. I saw blood coming from under his door and I opened it and she was just laying on the floor........dead."
"So you think that she told him she was pregnant, that he killed her?" Yes. "Uh. Yeah." I answered. "But....how do you know that she told him? Maybe she told him something else." I shook my head. "No. Because she gave me a look in the car that told me that she was going to tell him." She looked confused. Hell. I was confused. She didn't believe me.
"My brother would not kill his girlfriend or anyone else just because he got her pregnant." Katie said.
"But the story he gave us about how she died, it doesn't make sense." Katie sighed and got up.
"Katie, you know that story was bullshit, that's why you're not denying it." Katie turned to me.
"You are making up stuff. I don't believe you, Leah. I'm sorry. This story that you're telling me is sick."
"Alex is sick! Why can't you see that? All the clues are there but you're ignoring them, Katie. That bruise on your cheek says it all." Her eyes widened and she covered her cheek with her hand and looked down.
I stood up and walked to her. "Let me guess, you tried to talk to him but just ended up pissing him off and he slapped you." She nodded slowly.
"Alex raped me last night right in front of my..........friend." Katie slowly looked up at me. "He did?" I nodded. "We need to go to the cops." Katie shook her head. "He'll be angry."
"It doesn't matter. Life is just going to get worst and worst if we continue to let this happen."
"But we don't have proof, Leah. I mean the cops couldn't find proof that Alex killed Carsia. And they can't find proof that he raped you."
"They have test to find out rather or not you've been raped." I told her. She shook her head. "But you had sex with him plenty of times so they would think you two just fucked." I sighed. She was right. We had no proof. But we did have witnesses. Well, one witness. Ronnie.
"I think you should stay somewhere else for a little bit. Just until we find out what to do with this situation." I said. Katie nodded. "Okay. Um. I'll stay at your house." I shook my head. "No. You don't want to do that. I'm not staying there. I mean I am, but I'm spending a night somewhere else."
"So? I've stayed at your house without you before." She said. Yeah, before Nate became what he became. "I don't want you there alone with Nate." I said. I couldn't let Katie be taken advantage of by Nate. I just couldn't let that happen. "Why?" She asked.
"Because Nate has been molesting me." I said. "WHAT?!" She asked. That was the expression I expected from her. "It's okay. It's not going to happen anymore. But I don't want you anywhere near him. Promise me you won't go back to my house."
"I promise." She whispered. I sighed. Now she knew everything. And for once, I actually felt relieved. "Well I'll go over Jason's house." I nodded and I hugged her tightly. I was happy she knew the truth. She deserved it.
She pulled back and looked at me. "So.....what happened to your face?" She asked. "Well last night when Alex was done with me, he kicked me in my face." I said. "Oh my god." She said touching the bruise on my face with her finger. "So, where are you going to be staying?" She asked. I shrugged. "Hopefully with my.....friend." I answered. I would like to think of Ronnie as more than just a friend. I mean we were close to having sex this morning. Until his stepdad walked in. I was kind of scared of him especially because of what Ronnie told me the other day.
"What friend?" I blushed a little. "His name is Ronnie. He works at that store that we hardly ever go to. He's the guy with the dark hair and the blue eyes."
"His whole name is Ronnie Stevenson. You two are dating?"
"Something like that. I think I'm going to see him again today. But.....I have to go home and get some clothes." Fear was in Katie's eyes. "Borrow my clothes." She wasn't offering. It sounded like she was demanding. "I borrowed enough of your clothes." Katie shook her head. "I'm serious. Take whatever you need. I don't want you going back home." I understood her point. "Okay, I'll just take a quick shower and get dressed and I'll leave before Alex comes back." I said. Katie nodded.
"l'll stay while you're here and then leave once you do." Katie said. Katie was like my sister. No. She is my sister. I hugged her again. I will never know another girl like her. Ever.
I went upstairs and took a shower quickly and then walked into her room. I grabbed black skinny jeans and a white short sleeved shirt. I got my shoes back on And combed my hair a little. Katie walked in with two dark blue suitcases. She gave me one. "You can take some of my clothes with you." She said as she gathered a handful of clothes and placed them in her suitcase. She threw some clothes to me. "You sure?"
"Yes." She answered without hesitation. I threw some of her clothes into the suit case and zipped it up. I looked at her and she looked back at me. I hugged her. "Take care of yourself okay?" She nodded. "You too." She responded. I pulled away from her. "I'll find out what to do about Alex." I said. She nodded. I grabbed my suit case and ran down the stairs. I left out of the house and walked to the store where Ronnie worked. I walked in and saw him at the counter. He smiled when he saw me. He opened the door and let me in. I placed my bag in the small room and went next to him behind the counter. "I missed you." He whispered in my ear. I smiled and placed my lips against his jawline.
"Excuse me?" Asked a lady. I stepped away from Ronnie as he took care of the lady's items. When she left, he grabbed my waist. "I hope no one comes in here, I want to be alone with you." I smiled. He leaned down and kissed me. He backed me up against a wall and placed his hands on my hips. I laughed as his lips went down to my neck and then my chest. I sighed in pleasure. I placed my hands on his shoulders. His lips went back to mine and he picked me up with the wall supporting my back. Yes I wanted this but in a store? That is not a good place. "I want you." He breathed. God, I wanted him to. 'take me.' I wanted to say but.....again, this is a store and it's out in public. "Your house will be a better place." I said.
"You're right." He said. He gave me a quick kiss and then put me down. I already missed his touch. Me and him sat down in the corner. "So, can I ask why you have a suit case?" I sighed. My good mood vanished when he brought up the suit case because I began to think about the reason I had it. "Well, I can't go home to my house because of my stepfather. And every other option is automatically eliminated so I was wondering if........"
"You want to stay with me." He said. I nodded. He smiled. "You hardly have to ask." He answered. I bit my lip. "Why are you so nice to me?" He tilted his head to the side. "Do we always have to go through this? I'm nice to you because I care about you and I want to help you."
He smiled and I couldn't help but smile back at him.
Of course the day went by fast. Whenever there was no one in the store, me and Ronnie would use those moments to make out. I loved him. There was no hiding it anymore.
It was around eight forty when he closed up the store. I looked at the shiny silver car that was parked right in front of the store. "You like it?" He asked.
"Is this car yours?" I asked. He nodded and placed the key in the lock of the car. "How did you get it?" He hesitated a second before answering. "My step dad gave it to me." He said as he opened the door. I went to the passenger side and opened it. I got in and shut the door. "I thought you hated him." I said.
"I do. I didn't want the car. But he made me accept it."
"Long story." He said as he started up the car. We drove to the little white house and walked in. "So...is he going to be here tonight?" I asked. Ronnie shook his head and closed the door. "No. Probably in the morning though." He locked the door and took his shoes off.
"Oh." I said sitting on the couch. I took my shoes off as well. Ronnie sat next to me. "I don't know about this baby." Ronnie's eyebrows pulled together. "What do you mean?"
I sighed. "I mean....it's just going to make things complicated. I mean I'm still in high school. I'm just not old enough to handle it."
"I'm going to help you." Ronnie said. I shook my head. "No. I couldn't ask you to do that. It's not your responsibility. Plus, you've already done too much for me. You're letting me stay here and I'm pregnant. Things are already getting complicated."
"Leah, I'm going to be here for you. You know that."
"I think.....I want to have an abortion. Ronnie shook his head. "No. I.....wouldn't do that if I were you."
"Why?" I asked. Ronnie scratched the back of his head. "It's not a big deal, Leah." He said softly. "Tell me." He let out a weary sigh and slowly looked at me. "Well, I'm kind of......tense when it comes to the subject of abortion."
"Why?" I asked. Ronnie looked down at the floor. "When I was seven years old, my mother was sitting on the couch smoking. And I was just playing around. You know, doing what seven year olds do. And I made a mistake and broke a glass ash tray. She got so mad at me. She was just..........so angry. She yelled at me and she told me that she wished she got me aborted.
The word didn't sink in at the time because I was seven. But.......as I got older, I realized that....my mother hated me. She hated me. Despised me. And I felt.......empty. She was the reason why I have low self esteem. She was fucked up and I was too because of her. So....me..perfect? Far from it."
"I am so sorry, Ronnie." I whispered. He leaned his back against the couch. "Remember, I don't want remorse." I laid my head on his chest and he ran his fingers through my hair. "You're going to get it anyway." I said. Ronnie laughed softly. His fingers slowly trailed down my body. I looked up at him. His blue eyes looked back into mine. I stood up and looked down at him.
"So....we have the whole house to ourself?" A grin appeared on Ronnie's face as he nodded.
He slowly got up, walked over to me and backed me against a wall , leaned down and brushed his lips against my neck. I inhaled his scent. He smelled so good. Damn I want......No. I need him.
He grabbed my shirt in his fist and pulled it over my head. His lips kissed mine as my fingers unbuttoned his pants. "I have to have you right now." He said as he lifted me up off the floor. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me into the bedroom. He laid me down onto the bed and touched my cheek with his thumb while staring into my eyes. I had butteflies in my stomach. How does he make me feel this way? With Alex......that's my problem. I keep comparing Ronnie with Alex. I can't do that.
I lifted up my lower body as he pulled my pants off of me.Then, his lips brushed against my stomach and he planted kisses across it. I closed my eyes and moaned. I felt my panties slowly sliding down my legs. I breathed out silently. Why was I so nervous? I was not a virgin. This isn't my first time having sex. Ronnie spreaded my thighs apart and slowly leaned down towards the most intimate part of me. As soon as his tongue touched my clit, I was in heaven.
His tongue slowly moved up and down my slit. I threw my head back against the pillow and moaned his name. I couldn't fucking believe how good this felt. I arched my back as I grabbed a handful of his hair. My toes curled as I felt the pleasure rising. Seconds before I was going to cum, Ronnie came up and kissed me. I tasted myself on his lips and it turned me on beyond the limit. As his lips were on mine, I grabbed the waistline of his jeans and pulled them down as far as I could. I wanted to feel every part of him on me. Every part. He sat up and pulled the shirt off of his body and threw it on the floor. One more piece of clothing. Just one more. I grabbed the waistline of his boxers and pulled them down. He immediatley pushed inside of me.
I moaned loudly and he brought his lips back to mine again. He pulled out a little and then pushed back in and went in so deep. I whimpered and grabbed his hair. It was so good. It felt like this moment was way deeper than anything me and Alex ever shared. His thrusts became harder and he leaned down to kiss my throat and began sucking on my flesh gently.
I laid my head back and moaned again. "Harder." I begged, Ronnie moved in me harder and grunted. I started to feel my release coming. "Fuck." Ronnie moaned. He buried his head into my neck. I closed my eyes. I was getting closer and closer. Yes. Yes. The sounds he made had me almost there. A little more. So close. I suddenly felt my release. I threw my head back, dug my nails in his back and screamed. He pushed in one more time and moaned my name as he came. We were both breathing hard. His lips slowly brushed my cheek. I sighed softly and opened my eyes. I suddenly felt his lips on mine. I wanted to tell him that I loved him. I really did. But how would he feel? He pulled back and looked into my eyes. "You're the best thing that's ever happened to me." He breathed. I smiled and placed my hand in his hair and forced his lips back down to mine. Tonight was the best night of my life.
The next morning, the sun woke me up. I opened my eyes and saw Ronnie laying face to face with me, staring at me. A grin slowly spreaded across both our faces as we remembered what happened last night. Neither of us were wearing any clothes. He reached over and pulled my body against his and pressed his lips against my forehead. I placed my hand on his cheek and looked up into his eyes. Lust was filling his eyes and I knew exactly what was about to happen. He rolled on top of me and attacked my lips. His tongue played with mine as he pushed inside of me leaving me speechless. It was........unbelievable. This pleasure was actually more intense because I knew he had the same feelings for me as I did for him. I smiled and closed my eyes concentrating on him inside me and how it was making my orgasm build up. He made a growling noise in my ear as his thrusts became faster. I knew he was about to cum soon. "Ronnie." I moaned as I wrapped my legs around his waist to feel more of him and at that moment, I felt him cum. And the second I felt that, I felt myself cum. I gripped the sheets in my fist and before I can let out a scream, Ronnie's lips stopped me.
He kissed me hard to the point where I could barely breathe. He slowly pulled back and looked into my eyes. "I love you." He whispered. Oh my god. I smiled. "You do?" I asked. Tears were forming in my eyes. He nodded. "I love you too." I kissed him again.
We stayed in bed for a while until my stomach started rumbling. He threw me my panties and I slid them on. I grabbed his shirt and slipped it on. He looked at me and smiled. "You look sexy." He said. I blushed and got off of his bed. He pulled his boxers on and his jeans. We walked into the kitchen and I got on the counter and leaned my head back against the cabinet as I watched him get out pans. "What do you want to eat?" He asked. I thought for a second. "Pancakes and sausage." I finally answered. He made the food and I watched him the whole time. He looked so good without a shirt on. A guy who can blush, cook, and fuck good. That guy is Ronnie. We sat at the table and began to eat. I looked at him. "What's the craziest thing you've ever done?" I asked. A small smile appeared on his face. "I had a threesome." My eyes widened. "With a guy and a girl or two girls?"
"I would never have a threesome with another guy and a girl." Wow. I never knew Ronnie did stuff like that. "What about you?" He asked.
"This isn't really crazy but I had sex in the janitor's closet at my school." Ronnie chuckled. "How did that work out?" He asked.
"Me and Alex got caught by the janitor of course." Ronnie shook his head.
"Was the whole thing his idea?" I nodded. I thought back to all the things I did for Alex just because I loved him. I was so stupid.
"Can I ask you something?" Ronnie nodded and then pulled his eyebrows together as he looked at my plate. "Whoa. How the hell did you do that?" He asked. I looked down at my empty plate.
"Leah, I saw you take one bite and now your food is gone." He said. I chuckled. "Remember, I'm eating for two." I said putting my hand on my stomach. Ronnie grinned. "Okay, so what did you want to ask me?"
I hesitated a little. "So, you told me you love me. And....I just want to know if that means that we're together now?" Ronnie nodded. "If that's what you want."
I smiled. "I do want that."
"Then you got it."
When I was done with my food, I scheduled a doctor's appointment. I had to make sure the baby was okay. I still didn't know what to do. If I didn't arbort it, I was probably have to put it up for adoption. But.....I wanted this baby. But it was too much. What was I going to do?