Chapter 11: I just embarrased myself
"I love how your hair is so light and long." Ashley said curling the edges.
"Thanks for doing this."
"Angie, I know you're upset because of the break up but-"
"Me and Aaron were never together. It was a stupid no strings attached thing. It was a mistake to even start."
"I can't believe you still tried to fuck Jared."
"He came on to me. I didn't mean to do that. It was….an accident."
"Angie, I'm your best friend and everything but it can't always be an accident."
"But it is."
"So you and Aaron Clarke are……done?"
I nodded. "Yeah. We're done. It's for the best anyway. Us together….we just weren't compatible."
"But I don't understand. The both of you are sex addicts. How did it not work?"
"I love him, Ashley. I would do anything for him. But the second he leaves and walks out of the door even for a second, who knows who I'll be under? I want a relationship with him and he doesn't. And we also can't trust each other."
"So you're not going to even talk to him at the party?"
"No." I answered.
"Like you can stay away from the one you love." Ashley sighed.
I closed my eyes and sighed. "Almost done?"
"Hey, you never told me about what happened yesterday."
Ashley paused. "Well…..I think…I might be pregnant."
I turned to her and smiled. "That's amazing."
"I hope so. I'm going to see the doctor soon."
I was happy for her. There was a time where I too wish I could start a family.
But that's all over.
Once Ashley was done with my hair, I slipped in my long black corset lace dress and put in blue sapphire teardrop earrings and blue heels.
My dress had a slit going up and stopping up further than my mid-thigh and I had black clips pinning my hair up and some pieces stayed down.
And I had a blue sapphire necklace around my neck.
This was not the same Angie in high school.
This woman was much more sophisticated and grown up.
We left my house around nine. Damn. It was a long ass way there.
I felt nervous.
I was about to should up to party where almost everyone knows my reputation and my ex-boyfriend will be there and my ex dominant will be there.
Oh! I hate my fucking life.
The building was huge and lit up with gold Christmas lights.
Trees had beautiful lights going all around them and it honestly looked like a red carpet premiere. I am too immature to be in a place like this.
Ashley parked the car for the valet to get and he winked at the both of before grinning and hopping into the car.
Me and Ashley both rolled our eyes and walked up to a pretty blonde woman who smiled at us. "Names?"
"Ashley Jackson and Angela Harrison."
The woman grabbed a book from off a small table and searched though it and smiled as she looked back to the both of us. "Go right in."
Me and Ashley walked in. And I thought the outside was beautiful.
I wasn't use to parties like this. Where everyone is calm and talking quietly among themselves with soft music in the background.
Ashley suddenly squealed. I looked at her. "My baby!" She ran over to a tall man with dark skin, brown eyes and a very white and wide smile.
I smiled as I walked over with her. "Hi."
I held my hand out and Ashley smiled. "Darren, this is my best friend. Angela Harrison."
"Nice to meet you." He smiled and we shook hands.
"Well….go find Adam." She said.
I nodded. Right. Adam. I looked around. This is impossible. There had to be hundreds of people here talking about whatever.
A hand grabbed me and I turned around. Kenneth stared down at me and then his eyes flicked forwards as he pointed with his finger in the north direction.
There Adam was in a black suit with a white button down shirt underneath his jacket and a black bow tie.
I looked up to Kenneth who slowly let go of me.
He nodded once and stepped away from me.
I slowly walked over to Adam whose eyes grew wide the second he saw me. "Hey."
"Wow. You look great."
"Thanks. You do too, Adam."
I looked down at my shoes.
"I just really want to-" Adam shakes his head. "No. I know what you're going to say. It's okay."
"No it's not. I feel so shitty. Every time I apologized to you I always feel like it was never enough."
"It wasn't. But…..you…you were right. I didn't understand your addiction and I was an asshole. A huge asshole. I'm sorry."
"It's fine. I'm just now learning that I'm not…compatible with anybody."
"I'm sure you are."
I shook my head. "No. I'm not. Not even with someone who is exactly like me. And that's fine."
"You deserve to be happy, Angie. You fucked up a lot. But…you're only human and plus you're young. You make mistakes and that's okay. It just….wasn't meant to be."
"You're a good man, Adam. Don't ever forget that."
Adam smiled. "You're everything to me, Angie. Always have been." He leaned forward to kiss my cheek and he smiled warmly at me.
He sighed and slowly walked away from me.
As I looked watched him walk away, something else caught my attention.
Aaron was on the other side of the room staring at me in this weird dark way. And I actually felt electricity between the both of us.
Aaron had on black pants, black shirt and jacket with a dark red tie. His hair tousled in a sexy way just like it always is after we were done having sex and I quickly broke the eye contact between us.
Kenneth was talking to Darren and Ashley and I went over to them and joined into their conversation.
"I remember…when you were the mean ass cheer leader." Kenneth smiled.
Ashley laughed. "I had to be."
Wine was flowing everywhere and I before I knew it, I was on my third glass.
"You look beautiful." Said a warm voice and I immediately turned around.
Aaron was staring down at me in that seductive way.
"I thought we agreed. You stay on your side and I'll stay on mine. Let's keep it that way."
I began walking away from him. I love him but it just won't work. We won't work.
A slow song came on and everyone suddenly grabbed a random person and started dancing with them. Great.
Aaron grabbed my hand and turned me around to him.
He pulled me close to his body and stared down at me. His eyes hypnotizing mine. "I never had to chase any of my submissives." He said softly.
"I'm not your submissive anymore, Aaron."
"We need to talk."
"No…no we don't because you're going to do that thing."
"What thing?" He raised his eyebrow.
"That thing where you dazzle me back to your place, rip my clothes off, and fuck me unbelievably good and I don't want that because we still have problems at hand."
"Let's talk about them."
"No. I don't want to." He spun me gracefully and wrapped me back into his arms.
Our faces inches from each other.
"Do not kiss me." I whispered.
Aaron smiled and spun me again. "You're a difficult woman. You know that?"
"Which is why I can't be your fucking slave anymore."
"This is why I like you so much."
My heart quickened at this statement but ignored it. We were hardly dancing anymore.
We just stared at each other not saying a word.
The song soon ended and Aaron slowly released me.
"This is the last time we ever see each other." I said as if I'm just now realizing it.
"I want us to talk about it."
"What the fuck is there to talk about?"
"Besides the obvious, why don't you want to be my submissive anymore?"
"This is not the time or place to talk about being your sexy little slave girl." I said. Aaron smirked and it made my heart melt. I shook my head. "You know what I need?" I asked seductively.
Aaron smiled and stepped closer to me.
"I need to get drunk. Excuse me." I walked away from him and grabbed the waiter guy by his arm. He turned to me and I grabbed two wine glasses from off the gold platter. "Thank you."
I downed them all in a couple of gulps.
Damn, I felt good. More lively.
It's a shame that wine can get me drunk.
I danced when more songs came on and the night began getting really really fuzzy.
I couldn't find Adam, Ashley, Darren or Kenneth. Or even Aaron but at the same time, I really didn't want to see him.
But with all the alcohol in my system, I felt really good at the moment, I stumbled over my dress a few times but people helped me out.
I soon spotted Adam and he looked confused as he saw me stumbling over to him.
"Damn. How much wine did you have?"
"Not enough." I slurred.
Adam sighed and grabbed my arm but I snatched it away from him. "Leeeave me…alone."
Adam stepped back and I continued on my way.
I then spotted a stage. Oh yeah!! I get to express how I feel to the world. Yay!! I practically run up on the stage and grab the microphone which makes a loud screeching noise.
"HIIII EVERYBODY!!" I scream.
Everybody turns to look at me.
I spot Aaron and he's staring at me. His eyes wide and alert.
"I AM IN LOVE!!!!" I sing.
I point to Aaron. "WITH THAT FUCKER RIGHT THERE!" Aaron's jaw drops and everyone turns to look at him. He smiles it off and suddenly disappears.
I smile. Good. Now he knows. "And he knows how to FUCK! He straps me to BOARDS! And the gags….so sexy! His cock is so bi-" Before I can say another word, I'm being dragged off the stage by no one other than Aaron. He drags me through the crowd and I look to see where he's taking me. Oh…the men's room?
He forces the door open, forces me inside, walks in behind me, closes and then locks the door.
I'm leaning against the counter staring at him as he glares at me.
Aaron runs his fingers through his hair. "Are you out of your fucking mind, Angie?"
"What? Upset that everyone knows about you and your whole S&M problem?"
"You just embarrassed yourself out there, Angie and you don't even give a fuck."
"You're right. I don't."
"You're in love with me?" He asked. The anger died down a little.
Wow. Conversation change.
"Yeah but you don't give a shit, you said there were no chances of me and you, remember?"
Aaron sent me a death glare. "That's why you broke up with me?"
"We weren't together."
"Then that's why you released yourself as my submissive?"
I nodded and shut my eyes. The room was about to spin.
"Come on, we'll go back to my hotel."
"Hotel?" I slurred.
"It was a long drive. I'm staying at a hotel until tomorrow morning." He reached for my hand and grabbed it and opened the door.
Alfred was standing in the doorway staring at Aaron.
"Tell Ashley that I'm taking Angela with me."
Alfred nodded. "Yes sir." And disappeared into the crowd.
Aaron then pulled me out into the crowd, to the foyer and out of the double doors.