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Chapter 10: Not good
I felt much closer to Aaron since that phone call. Tomorrow he'll be back and we'll be going to the party together. I was looking forward to it. Especially because what I know is going to happen afterwards.
Sexting use to be boring to me but it's much more…advanced with Aaron.
It was night time and me and Ashley were still at the bowling alley almost about to close up.
Jared handed me a beer.
"You're the best boss in the world." I said twisting the cap off.
"So I've been told." He grinned as he twisted the cap off of his beer bottle.
"So how long have you and this guy…been together?" He asked.
Conversation turn. Hello.
"Not long at all. Way too short of time for me to be in love with him."
"Wow. Love?" He asked. I nodded.
It was love. I just knew it.
"You sound like you're not use to hearing that word."
"I'm not. Lately I've been around girls who just want to fuck and fuck and fuck. Not that I have a problem with that but…it gets boring."
"So would you hire a girl who would fuck and fuck and fuck?" I asked.
Jared nodded and sat his beer bottle on the counter.
"I don't judge people. Some people can't control it. As long as you know how to do your job correctly, you can do whatever."
No time like the present. "Well…I have a reputation." I whispered.
Jared stared into my eyes and cocked his head to the side. "What kind of reputation?"
"I'm a sex addict." I admitted.
Jared's eyebrows rose. "Wow…..really?"
I nodded and Jared placed his fist against his cheek as he rested his elbow on the counter.
"Since I was fifteen. Long story."
"Shit. I don't know what to say to that."
"Just thought you should know in case you hear anything. The whole town talks about me."
"So…what happens when you're you know…?"
"Well I just get this odd urge to just….jump on the first guy I see and it's just so damn powerful that I can't control it. But since I started seeing Aaron, every one of those urges has been only directed towards him."
"Rehab. I see."
I nodded. "Exactly."
"So since you've been with him, you haven't been trying to…sleep with anyone else?" He stepped closer to me and I shook my head. "There's no need. I've fucked him every night since I met him."
"So you're happy with him?"
Ashley came in from the back just as the last people were leaving. "Ready to go?"
I nodded and went to the back too grab my jacket.
My phone rung from inside and I immediately smiled and then answered it.
"Hey, where are you?"
"About to leave work."
"Ashley taking you home?"
"Would you be mad if I got you a car?" He asked.
"Why would you do that?"
"Because you need one. What kind do you want?"
"This is not an everyday conversation."
"Yes it is. What kind of car?"
"I don't want a car. Well I do but I'll get one for myself."
"Too late. I'm about to buy you one."
"Don't do that. Aren't you working?"
"Just got out of a meeting. And I just bought another company. I'll be home around eight tomorrow."
"How many companies do you own?"
"More than you can handle."
"If I can handle you, I can handle anything."
I could hear him smile on the other line. "Good point."
I keep the phone to my ear as I slip my jacket on and walk back out.
Jared watches me as I continue my conversation.
He smiles politely and winks at me. I don't know what to do so I wink back.
Ashley takes me outside and into her car.
I'm still on the phone as she drops me off.
And it's when I'm alone when the conversation gets heated.
After coming more than two times, we stay on the phone.
"Had the urge lately?"
I shook my head. "No. Just been getting through work, talking to Ashley.
Sexting with you. That's all."
"So everything's been fine without me?"
"Yeah, but I mean...I do really miss you."
"I miss you too, Angie."
Hearing that put a really warm feeling deep in my heart.
We both stay quiet over the phone.
"Have you ever been in a relationship before?" I asked.
"I don't talk about why. I just don't like it."
"Staying committed to one person?"
"I can't promise to be faithful. That's why. With how I feel, and all the women who surround me, I don't see how any guy could be faithful."
"Some guys actually put forth effort. Would you?"
"If it was with someone I truly care about then yes."
"Yet you never had a relationship before."
"Never found anyone worth it."
"Think you'll ever find the one?"
"No. I don't know."
I yawned and sighed softly.
"Go to sleep."
"No. I want to stay and talk to you some more."
You know why.
"I just do."
"You need to get rested for tomorrow night."
"Two nights without you. I'm going to pick you up and fuck you….hard."
His voice was arousing me.
We both hung up at the same time.
Laying in my bed, I couldn't help but think about him. Is this really enough for me? Very rarely do I actually want to start a relationship with someone I'm sleeping with unless it's Adam.
Other than him, it was no one else I cared for.
Then Aaron Clarke had to come into my life.
Sexy, rich, smart and kinky, and fun.
And maybe that's what I fell in love with.
Can I really live with being his sex slave and nothing more?
I want more.
I don't know why I felt this nor where this feeling came from but I felt it and I'm in love.
Waking up the next morning, I felt really weird. Just kind of…..off. I took a shower, got dressed and called Ashley.
She came to pick me up and we both went to work.
Loud teenagers came in and it always annoys me. They're always drunk and loud and irritating but it always takes me back to high school.
A blonde boy came up to the counter and smiled at me. "Hi beautiful."
"Don't call me that. What can I get you?"
"Soft pretzel and a large coke."
I got him his stuff and put them on the counter. "Six dollars." I said.
The guy grinned and reached into his pocket and put dollar bills and a condom packet on the counter and I looked at him and he kept that goofy ass grin on his face.
I picked it up. "Too little." And flicked it back at him. He frowned, grabbed his stuff and left.
Jared came over to me smiling. "That was…awkward."
"Hey. Would you like to go out for a drink or two?" He asked.
"Oh I-" Ashley walked by holding her stomach. She looked to Jared. Her eyes drowsy and red. "Can I go home early? I threw up twice."
"Shit. Will you be okay?" Jared asked. She nodded wiping the tears from her eyes. Then she looked to me.
"I'll be fine."
She smiled and grabbed her purse and left.
The day dragged by and the place became dead completely.
"Honestly? In the bathroom of your school?" Jared asked laughing.
I shrugged innocently. "He was a hot teacher and there were no cameras around so I just went for it."
The place was closed but we just decided to stay for a little while. It was fun talking to Jared.
"Okay. Pool. Sister's best friend."
"How old were you?"
"Fourteen, she was sixteen not a big deal."
I laughed and chugged the rest of my beer down and placed it down on the counter. "Oh man. Sex was just really big for me back then when I was in my teen years."
"The whole no strings attached thing was just really big. I stopped for a while thinking I'm ready to settle down but I'm not. I just love to fuck."
"You sound like Aaron."
"Where is he?"
"Chicago. A little business trip."
Jared nodded while walking close to me until he was standing really close to me.
That feeling was coming. I closed my eyes.
"Angie? You okay?"
I shook head and lightly pushed him away. He grabbed my arms and I opened my eyes. His face was inches from mine.
He slowly leaned in and kissed me.
What is happening?
What was I doing?
Jared placed his hand through my hair pulling me more into the kiss and pressing himself against me.
Without thinking, I leaned more into the kiss not letting him go. I need him to fuck me. Right now.
I take his jacket off and drop it to the floor while he lifts up my shirt.
The door slams open making the both of us jump.
Aaron came in the room giving the both of us a death glare. Oh fuck. What have I done?
"Don't." He glared at me and I felt….defeated.
He slowly walked over to Jared and sent him a small smile before raising his fist and punching him in the face. Jared fell down hard and then Aaron slowly looked to me. "I can't believe you." He shook his head and walked out of the place.
Jared was trying to get up from the floor and I helped him up before running outside to Aaron.
Just as he was about to get in the car, he stopped and looked to me.
"You didn't have to do that." I said.
Aaron slammed the car door shut and walked over to me. "Did I or did I not tell you the rules, Angie?"
"I made a mistake. I told you I can't control it."
"It's fine, Angie. You just proved to me that I can't trust you."
"How do I know that you weren't out doing the same with some other girl while you're away?"
"Because you were all I can think about when I was away."
"It's a part of who I am, Aaron. I can't control it."
"Neither can I but I keep it in line because it's a part of the rules."
"Fuck your rules."
Aaron looked shocked at what I was saying.
"Fuck my rules?"
"Yes. I'm done. I want to quit. You can't change who I am, Aaron."
"I'm not trying to."
"Oh yes you are. We may have the same problem…but we're not compatible."
"So we're done."
I slowly nodded.
"Then say it." He whispered still glaring at me.
"I, Angela Harrison, hereby release myself as your submissive."
My voice cracked as I said the words.
"So that's it? It's over."
Aaron nodded. "I thought so."
I ran my fingers through my hair. "I hurt you, and I knew it was going to happen if I got too close to you. Which is why us being apart is a good thing."
"Get in the car, I'm taking you home." He dismissed my words.
"I rather walk."
"Get in the fucking car, Angela."
I stared at him.
"If you get in this car, we'll never have to see each other again afterwards." He promised.
But there was something in his eyes. Pain?
"We'll see each other at the party tomorrow."
"We don't have to talk to each other. You stay on one side and I'll stay on the other. Now please get in the car."
After a few seconds, I walked to his car and got in. He got in on the other side. "To Angela's house, Alfred." Aaron said and then stared out of the window.
We stayed quiet that whole car ride. There was nothing left to say.
When Alfred pulled up to my house he gave me an apologetic smile. He knows.
He nodded. "It was nice to meet you, Miss Harrison."
I glanced at Aaron who stared at me. "Goodbye Aaron."
He didn't respond.
I got out of the car and closed the door shut.
I went up to my house and opened the door and closed it and leaned against it.
What the fuck was I thinking?
What was I doing? Why did I do that knowing that Aaron will be coming back tonight?
Why did I do it at all?