I hear people all the time joking about rape, saying it's never going to happen to them, because they're not that stupid to put themselves in that position or they took a self-defense course against it or someone would be too terrified to rape them because of the friends they have.
I use to be like them. I would say the exact same things as them, but not anymore. I know what it's like and it's not how parents or teachers or friends or instructurs describe it, it's ten times as grusome and fifteen more times painful. I know this because I've been through it....and am still going through it.
So why don't I tell anyone? I can't. If I do tell, it could not only cost me my life, but the life of everyone I've ever cared about.
So you see, I have to keep quiet and push everyone away. I can't let anyone get too close. Because if I did, things wouldn't turn out too good. For me, or for them.
So I'll just have to keep going as I am. Eduring my pain inmy everlasting silence, forever.