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Novel By: AmberNeko

I marked this as erotica, because I'm planning on having a lot of "explicit" scenes, but they won't be for a while on, for now there isn't anything innapropriate, but if erotica offends you then you should probably just not even read this.
Chapters will be short but I'll try to update often, please let me know what you think! View table of contents...



Submitted:Jan 2, 2010    Reads: 318    Comments: 2    Likes: 0   

Chapter 1~
Serene. That's my name. It isn't really a bad name, and I don't mind having it, after all what can be expected from hippie parents like mine? But at the same time… I can't help but feel I'm a disappointment in some way. I'll never live up to that name, as anyone who knows me would be quick to point out, it's the exact wrong name for me. I'm always stressed out, always worrying, borderline paranoid actually. And my heart… well, it's the furthest thing from calmed or relaxed. I've never kept a boyfriend more than a couple weeks, my heart can never settle on one boy, always shifting from one to another. All my relations are the same, in the beginning I ignore all their faults and mistakes, whenever they do something to hurt me, I ignore it, and whenever they do something I kind I grab onto it… but then I start noticing the little things, annoying things and soon I can't even figure out why I liked him to begin with!
It's exhausting, trust me.
But life isn't bad, I have nice friends (don't know why they bother hanging out with me in the first place), a good family, including the best parents ever. They actually encouraged me to try wine when I was 13 (I still haven't forgiven them for that, actually). But still, there's something missing. I feel like I was born into an expectation I can never fulfill, but I have no idea what it is!
And so I just try. Everyday, I do my best to find that serenity, that happiness, that… whatever it is that I'm meant to find, and everyday I feel it coming closer, I'm just afraid it'll finally get here and I won't recognize it in time.


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